How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[☆ʙᴇᴛᴛʏ☆]

Newbie to the farms and I'm trying to remember the rules when I post high as fuck.

 

[bliblblblbbllb]

Newbie to the farms and I'm trying to remember the rules when I post high as fuck.

There's a thread for high/drunkposting in specific.
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/drunk-high-thread.5477/


I've had five unexpected windfalls. Money seems to just fall on my head. It's actually uncomfortable for me. It makes it harder to budget. I'm not a splurger. I planned to save so much money by a certain time, and now I'm months ahead of schedule and don't know what to do with myself. Didn't plan for this. It's not a bad problem- I just feel like I have to be really careful, because I know this luck won't continue.

People always say "well build an emergency fund!" but I already have a good emergency fund- I'm at a point where I'm thinking about my investment portfolio, I'm thinking about how to maximize my IRA contributions, I'm thinking about how much I should keep as cash vs. locked up in things etc...

 

[Betonhaus]

There's a thread for high/drunkposting in specific.
https://kiwifarms.net/threads/drunk-high-thread.5477/


I've had five unexpected windfalls. Money seems to just fall on my head. It's actually uncomfortable for me. It makes it harder to budget. I'm not a splurger. I planned to save so much money by a certain time, and now I'm months ahead of schedule and don't know what to do with myself. Didn't plan for this. It's not a bad problem- I just feel like I have to be really careful, because I know this luck won't continue.

People always say "well build an emergency fund!" but I already have a good emergency fund- I'm at a point where I'm thinking about my investment portfolio, I'm thinking about how to maximize my IRA contributions, I'm thinking about how much I should keep as cash vs. locked up in things etc...

must be nice. maybe send null some so he can help keep the site running?

 

[LinkinParkxNaruto[AMV]]

I've been spending a lot of time walking lately. I am doing 5-8 kms daily. Also doing stationary bike , and going flights of stairs for about an hour every day. I am not loosing any fucking weight, i could exercise all day and eat nothing and still not loose weight it seems but at least i have a few hours a day outside disconnected and it helps lower the anxiety a bit and sleep a bit better, the tinnitus is less intense when i exercise and bouts of panic are less frequent/intense. When i get less anxious i just get more deppresed though, i feel aimless and don't have any optimism or much motivation for anything else outside of it.

 

[Triple Flutz]

I'm usually the default ''memory maker'' in the family so to speak, as in, I organize all our outings and activities and make sure there's childhood wonder and magic in our kids' lives and I've enjoyed doing it a lot though it can be pretty exhausting on top of the huge amount of work that comes with being a homemaker with young children, but recently my husband's taken an interest in joining me in making these things happen and it's been super fun. It's a weight off my mind to not go at it alone- he'd always participate and I always sought his enthusiastic approval and input, but it's way different than having someone coming up with suggestions and volunteering to do things he thinks would be fun. We've been going on silly adventures and setting up little activities for them every day for a few weeks, and I can tell it's been rewarding for him and it's also been a great new way for the two of us to bond and share laughs. I'm glad he doesn't work all the goddamn time anymore and has more time and energy for this, the struggle years sucked but they led us here and I'm grateful for my family.

 

[Jason Wynn]

Went into a convenience store on my way to work to get a pack of cigarettes. Clerk asks me for my birthday. I tell him I have my ID here if he needs to take a peek at it. He’s like “nah man what’s your birthday?” Tell him my birthday (1984) he looks at me a moment and says “‘Kay, I believe ya” and sells me my smokes.

I don’t know if I should be amused at his antics or bummed I apparently look my age.

 

[Yamamura]

I was riding my bike recently and a friendly Slavic fellow who passed me made an observation, "your seat is too low you're going to hurt your knees". At his suggestion I got a new seat post because mine was already set at the height limit, but it worked wonders. Now it feels a lot more natural when I ride, and no more leg pain.

I've been riding the same bike since high school. People have suggested in the past why not just get a new bike. I don't know if it's because of sheer autism or sentimental value, but I will keep it going until it dies.

 

[JosephStalin]

The epidural injection received last month is still helping with the sciatica. Has calmed down for now but can recur at any time. Want to stay away from another surgery as long as possible. Allergies calming down, whatever was putting out the nasty pollen must have stopped doing so. We have no winter here as many know it, things bloom all year round. Tomato plants have blossoms but due to lack of hot days will be quite some time before any actual tomatoes form.

Went to the commissary yesterday, bought jumbo eggs for $2.78/dozen. Price keeps going down, not that long ago paid $7.08 for a dozen jumbos.

Almost May, already. By the end of May should have fresh cherries from our area again. Ate the last fresh cherries from the Southern Hemisphere in March. Seems like you can now get fresh cherries a good half of the year. Sadly, though, looks like Costco won't have any cherry pies again this year. They make some great cherry pies. Costco has apple pies every day, but not what I want.

Hope everyone else is doing well.

 

[Neurotypical Mantis]

the loop of having well-documented and recognized abuse tactics used on me and being treated like a joke when i point them out circles around once again.
i don't feel wanted in the world. time and time again i get treated like a fucking mouse in a zoosadists kitchen
Kill jannies. Behead jannies. Roundhouse kick a jannie into the concrete. Slam dunk a jannie baby into the trashcan. Crucify filthy dogs. Defecate in a jannies food. Launch jannies into the sun. Stir fry jannies in a wok. Toss jannies into active volcanoes. Urinate into a jannies gas tank. Judo throw jannies into a wood chipper. Twist jannies heads off. Report jannies to the IRS. Karate chop jannies in half. Curb stomp pregnant black jannies. Trap jannies in quicksand. Crush jannies in the trash compactor. Liquefy jannies in a vat of acid. Eat jannies. Dissect jannies. Exterminate jannies in the gas chamber. Stomp jannie skulls with steel toed boots. Cremate jannies in the oven. Lobotomize jannies. Mandatory abortions for jannies. Grind jannie fetuses in the garbage disposal. Drown jannies in fried chicken grease. Vaporize jannies with a ray gun. Kick old jannies down the stairs. Feed jannies to alligators. Slice jannies with a katana. Pull jannies apart on the atomic level. Send all jannies to the most nightmarish timeline. Make inhumane viruses that only affects jannies. Fill two skyscrapers with jannies and recreate 9/11. Shrink jannies and fry them like ants with a magnifier. Make jannies watch Twilight. Mutilate jannies. Goomba stomp a jannie. Put lethal doses of fentanyl in jannie drugs. Kidnap jannie kids and sell them to CIA pedophile rings. Execute a jannie with a desert eagle.

 

[Neighborhood Curmudgeon]

I just discovered a lot of morels near my home. Apparently, they're very sought-after mushrooms too. I am amazed to say the least!

 

[Betonhaus]

I just discovered a lot of morels near my home. Apparently, they're very sought-after mushrooms too. I am amazed to say the least!

Oh yeah it's good to have morels these days, as not a lot of people do.

 

[toilet_rainbow]

I got a second job at a fast food place. I feel most at home at the cashier part of the job, but I'm getting better at making the coffee drinks. Did have to reduce my hours a little at my "day" job since I was working 18 hour days, but a little more rest and relaxation is just as valuable as a paycheck (or two).

 

[Neighborhood Curmudgeon]

Oh yeah it's good to have morels these days, as not a lot of people do.

No kidding. You can even say they have false morels and are very hypocritical.

 

[Candlelight Desolation]

Got a copy of The Campaigns of Alexander by Arrian in the mail today. I am going to start seriously learning Polish as a second language soon; trying to pick between Babble, Rosetta Stone, and Duolingo. I may go for Russian after that; I've picked up some Russian words from my grandma's younger sister, who is very fluent in Russian, though I've been advised to avoid learning two languages at once.

 

[Humbert Humbert]

I’m about to powerlevel so fuckin hard right now, and I don’t even know how to summarize my thoughts, so it’s a rambling mess. It’s hard for me to talk about this in person, because I don’t talk about my feelings to anybody, which is why it is easier for me to powerlevel here.

Life differences are pulling me and Lolita apart. I loved her. I still do. We are coming up on a year, but I don’t think it will last much longer. I desperately wish I could have become better for her. I wish that the bright and sunny future we had dreamed of wasn’t now dark and rainy. Tell your partners, dear kiwis, tell them how much you love them. Make an effort to become better people for them. And never, never, never take them for granted. I regret every moment I took Lolita for granted. I feel so fucking alone, because I’m not only losing a romantic partner, but I’m losing my best friend.

 

[Geddy Lee's Fee and See]

I fucking hate my advisor. He's a real cunt and he doesn't manage to teach the theory in his classes necessary to do his research work very well. He's also a right cunt to other people and feels the need to insert random stories aboit himself and his life into meetings (of which we have like 3 a week, which is too much seeing that they can be summarized way more succinctly and in a more productive manner in our Teams server). I really get why people shit on academics: they're fucking self-important faggots. I'm only with him because he's doing he is doing research in an area I am interested in as a electrical engineer with a pure mathematics background. Don't trust anyone thay is trained only as an engineer folks.


Funny thing is I am learning more from my own studies and an older faculty member (who used to do mathematics and while he doesn't go overboard with the math since he is an engineer, he does a great job motivating examples, explaining theory in a clear and meaningful manner and giving resources/recommendations that explain what he can't in class). It also helps that he is quite affable and humble. I mean, he knows he is talented but he doesn't flaunt it wily-nily, which I like in people. I feel my Ph.D would be going more smoothly if I was working with him, but he's old and almost retired. Still, I have a lot of respect for him and I consider it a blessing to be in his presence.

 

[TIM4EUS]

OCD is fucking me up so badly right now, just wanna sleep but mind is racing and body feels tense. going to just drink beer and play vidya instead. the funny thing is that I dont feel like drinking beer or playing vidya, but this is the only way to distract myself long enough for the OCD to fade out

 

[Broseph]

Went into a convenience store on my way to work to get a pack of cigarettes. Clerk asks me for my birthday. I tell him I have my ID here if he needs to take a peek at it. He’s like “nah man what’s your birthday?” Tell him my birthday (1984) he looks at me a moment and says “‘Kay, I believe ya” and sells me my smokes.

I don’t know if I should be amused at his antics or bummed I apparently look my age.

I'm only a few years younger than you and most people still think I'm in my early to mid 20's.

 

[Imp]

I'm going to have knee replacement surgery sometime this year, whenever I call to book plus 8 weeks. I don't even want to do it. I don't want the post op pain, the months of PT, ugh the whole process sucks. I mean bone on bone isn't fun. I know one of these days I am going to say ow! fucker! in the wrong damn place. My mom who had hers replaced in 2019 & 2020 is cheering me on to have it done but I remain a big sulky baby about it.

 

[Humbert Humbert]

I'm going to have knee replacement surgery sometime this year, whenever I call to book plus 8 weeks. I don't even want to do it. I don't want the post op pain, the months of PT, ugh the whole process sucks. I mean bone on bone isn't fun. I know one of these days I am going to say ow! fucker! in the wrong damn place. My mom who had hers replaced in 2019 & 2020 is cheering me on to have it done but I remain a big sulky baby about it.

My father has had both knees done, he was bone on bone on both for over a decade. But ever since he had then done, it’s been so much better. You can do it, friend! Surgery is never easy, but it’s worth it, I promise!

The only reason he waited was bone on bone for so long was because the pre-surgery tests revealed that he had what ended up being terminal stage 4 cancer lmao (he’s fine now).