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I may or may not have secured a position with a six figure salary and it's entirely dependent on whether the company can find somebody to train me. I'm so anxious. I hate not being able to do anything but wait.
Update: The owner of the company called today and told me on no uncertain terms that I have the position, it's just a matter of logistics and scheduling on their part. Just gotta be patient and wait for the call.

In the meantime, my car repair was much cheaper than expected, which means I have both time and money to take a road trip for New Years.

I don't dance but I'm fuckin dancing right now.
 
Thinking I have to get to mass and adoration tomorrow but I also have an obligation to my daughter. I am about to do something insane. I mean maybe not to me personally but uh yeah, it is fucked what I am about to do. Why am I like this?

I still want to meet him, all else be damned.
The children above all else.

Even if they're not children anymore.
 
Well I think a few more days off have helped the anxiety subside. Now I just don't want to go back to work. I'm realizing I've been feeling really burned out for probably a year. Not like I can take more than a week off from work at a time though.
 
As some of you know I lost my Dad in November (and thank you everyone who reached out to me, it means a lot) and the First Christmas without him as been hard but nice - We've all made a big fuss over my neice who's not old enough to understand whats happened and she's had a nice time and we all had a really nice dinner at my sisters (honestly she went all out and I was so full of pork I could bearly move).

Me an the Mrs are doing great, we had a offer accepted on a place just before my dad passed and between work and other commitments I've been travelling over there an working out what needs doing to what, how I'll be doing it, when I'll need other people in etc.

I'm moving into the Big Stone Barn closer to the house as my new workshop (its fucking massive) and she's got a barn / stable block we're going to convert into her practice that's got direct road access an a yard we can use for car parking, and about 30 acres of land with it mixed farm / woodland - in the new year we're having some metal detectorists come in an make sure one of the fields is clear so we can move her Donkeys up they are doing the whole field for free (well Tea, Coffee and Sandwiches) and first dibs on any finds they make.

The house needs work (the original core of the property was built in the 1600's) and parts of it are liveable but parts of it are not, so we're buying a static caravan to live on site while we do the work, we have a house she owns already but the distance makes it not all that practical to travel daily with our other commitments so we can live on site an speed up the work as best we can, the plan is to keep it as original as we can and do as accurate to the period decoration as we can (we're both into vintage in a big way) but just modernise things like plumbing, electrics and insulation and the wood burning stove an arga cooker (oil fired) are staying but the stove will need to be replaced or rebuilt with something a little more efficient.

I just keep on thinking to myself my Dad would have loved this place and I am sorry he only got to see a few pictures of it before he passed and how happy he'd be knowing me an the better 3/4's are happy.
 
"The house needs work (the original core of the property was built in the 1600's"
Proper quote function isn't working, but this leapt out at me -- this is incredible. Good on you, and thank you for caring for an old property. I love old houses (albeit the ones here aren't that old) and I just squee myself silly whenever I see someone in our facebook group get hold of an old place like this and work on it. Best of luck to you, and may your fathers' spirit smile upon this.
 
Was grocery shopping and saw my mongoloid upstairs neighbour with the most stereotypical, unwashed troon in tow, could've been straight outta Stinkditch. Fucking shameful. My girlfriend was in hysterics, i think i will have a hard time not straight up pointing and laughing at this motherfucker the next time i see him. Needless to say, it is a good day.
Bracing for WW3 tomorrow thanks to the subhuman muslim scum and their firework shit, the streets already look like New Year was two days ago.
 
"The house needs work (the original core of the property was built in the 1600's"
Proper quote function isn't working, but this leapt out at me -- this is incredible. Good on you, and thank you for caring for an old property. I love old houses (albeit the ones here aren't that old) and I just squee myself silly whenever I see someone in our facebook group get hold of an old place like this and work on it. Best of luck to you, and may your fathers' spirit smile upon this.

Thank you it's a lovely old house that's had some extensions built onto it 3 I can peg down are 1760, 1880 and again in about 1900 with a tacky 1970's / 80's half arsed cosmetic refurb, the core the original part of the house is the kitchen an what we're calling the dining room and a side room / stair case where the original entrance was the walls are a mix of timber frame a brick with stone infill about 1 an 3/4ft thick the later construction was built sympathetically an fits in with the style of the building, and it's mostly structurally sound and I can do most of the work myself.

I'm really excited by my Barn / Workshop though massive building with lots of space to keep everything separate and a proper slate roof 20ft high, with a small hayloft built into the back I am spoiled for space.
 
It has been a hell of a year. The daughter that had heart surgery last year had a baby this year. First grandbaby, she is the most perfect baby in the world of course. All 10 fingers and 12 toes as expected. Then I had surgery to help with my sleep apnea, which I ended up having complications where I almost bled to death. An emergency surgery later and I'm mostly okay, just not allowed to do anything for another week or so.

The fucked up thing is what nearly killed me was a sneeze. Blew out a scab in my nose, which started uncontrolled bleeding. Just glad I got to spend the holidays with my family
 
I'm a retard. I don't know why I do this, as I'm otherwise on it and get shit done. But every now and again, I'll put off simple, routine tasks and errands that later end up costing me.

For instance, I had two things to do recently - the past month or so - that I've put off for nothing more than laziness and lethargy. One was the renewal of my car insurance. That's now passed, and I either cancel it with a penalty, or pay the renewal fee additional fee for amendment of details. The second was local council related, where I was supposed to respond before January 1st. I didn't do it, so now I might be debited a few hundred before I actually fucking resolve the issue (I'll be refunded eventually, but I'm still retarded.)

Anyone else do this? I feel like punching myself in the face when this happens, but I'll sure as fuck do it again in the future.
 
I'm a retard. I don't know why I do this, as I'm otherwise on it and get shit done. But every now and again, I'll put off simple, routine tasks and errands that later end up costing me.

For instance, I had two things to do recently - the past month or so - that I've put off for nothing more than laziness and lethargy. One was the renewal of my car insurance. That's now passed, and I either cancel it with a penalty, or pay the renewal fee additional fee for amendment of details. The second was local council related, where I was supposed to respond before January 1st. I didn't do it, so now I might be debited a few hundred before I actually fucking resolve the issue (I'll be refunded eventually, but I'm still retarded.)

Anyone else do this? I feel like punching myself in the face when this happens, but I'll sure as fuck do it again in the future.

This is my Achilles' heel, yes. It's utterly irritating.
 
New year, oh god we really have to do it all over again don't we. I also put off things to the last minute all the time as well it's frustrating.

Does anyone know what would cause the inability to make decisions? Doesn't matter if it's a menu at a restaurant or buying a home I can't ever decide on anything. I have had many names here over the years because I am always unsure if I like it. It is a very annoying issue to have.
 
Fuck this year. I'm glad 2023 is over and I don't give a damn if the world blows up this next year. It's not been a dramatic past 2 years but they've been stressful and shitty and most importantly, I've been broke and fucked in the head from losing my shit and getting pissed on for it. Since, that's ending, I'm moving on to greener pastures but the year decided to give me one last fuck you by getting last weeks paycheck returned.

Literally, right after I was paid, it turned out that my bank wanted to spit out my paycheck and charge me for it, which I know is bullshit because I work an hourly job for a Fortune 500 company and the mobile deposit had no issues before (direct deposit won't set itself up at my job for some reason). This means, my plans for this week specifically are ruined and I barely have the drinking money I want to get sloshed on for when that ball falls in New York. Happy New Years everyone.
 
DOING GOOD GREAT

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Fuck this year. I'm glad 2023 is over and I don't give a damn if the world blows up this next year. It's not been a dramatic past 2 years but they've been stressful and shitty and most importantly, I've been broke and fucked in the head from losing my shit and getting pissed on for it. Since, that's ending, I'm moving on to greener pastures but the year decided to give me one last fuck you by getting last weeks paycheck returned.

Literally, right after I was paid, it turned out that my bank wanted to spit out my paycheck and charge me for it, which I know is bullshit because I work an hourly job for a Fortune 500 company and the mobile deposit had no issues before (direct deposit won't set itself up at my job for some reason). This means, my plans for this week specifically are ruined and I barely have the drinking money I want to get sloshed on for when that ball falls in New York. Happy New Years everyone.

Im sorry :'{
 
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Well, it's that time of the year again. Time to collect stones. 2023 was incredibly shitty to me, but somehow I managed to stay alive and even create something worthy of attention. It took a lot and now I am basically back to square one with next to nothing at my possession, yet despite all the fears for the first time in months I am... Hopeful?

Have a wonderful New Year celebration, fellow mischievous bastards. Let's see what 2024 has in store for us and be ready to pay for it. Take care!
 
I'm drinking cinnamon Jack Daniel's and eggnog after my third glass of sangria and a misshapen and ugly late gen x lady loudly farted on line when i purchased the wine etc.
 
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