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I can't help but feel like I should've been a victim of natural selection. I suck at functioning a lot of the time and I feel less and less compatible with the world. It's been a much better year than last year, but I just have a lot less optimism for myself and the future.

I think all my friends and I are getting dumber. I have this one friend who just refuses to listen to what I'm saying about anything. I tried talking to him about personal issues before since we've been friends for a while, but he kept trying to simplify it like it was a disney channel type problem. It's infuriating to be told "have you tried communicating these issues" like it's a novel concept when I've made it clear communication is a dead end for over 20 minutes before he actually listened. It's annoying, because he's never acted this flaky before and it's annoying to try and do anything with him. I was trying to teach him CivV one time and he just wouldn't listen and complained I was making it "too complicated" by talking about how culture policies work. And my other friends have little patience either, it's like their natural curiosity died unless it's a recent thing or something from their childhood. I'm not asking for philosophers or auteurs, but I think it's worrisome when I get called smart for trying to read old manga or a story based game because "it's too many words and pages." But what can you do, they're still my friends and I love them, I just wish I could find someone like me.
 
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I made it to New Orleans. Listening to live blues and drinking fake whiskey.

It's been a rough year. Lost almost everything. But I've accomplished a lot. Quit drinking, changed careers, climbed a mountain, ran a half marathon. Faced a whole lot of demons. Started over. And I'm in a really good position now, all things considered; I'm not happy with where my life is, but I have some idea of where I want to be, and I have a clear path forward to get there. It feels like the end of Bloodborne, like I've transcended from being the golden God-King of broken, bad people to the lowliest larval slug of a good person. And I have to remind myself that that's better.

Happy New Year y'all. Thanks for the laughs, and the reassurance that there are other sane people out there.
 
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Ugh I'm really not ready to start working again on Tuesday. Not to mention enduring three months of cold and darkness, likelihood of losing more elderly relatives, probably having to look for a new job because I'm not sold on this one anymore, sigh. Why can't it ever be easy? I just want to retire already like old people do.

Well hopefully this new year won't suck as much as I'm afraid it will.
 
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My phone battery died, I got it plugged it but it won't turn on yet

Edit: force rebooted and now it's on and charging
 
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I'm terrified of the passing of every year. I, in my mortality, get older but the happy tomorrow never comes, society drifts further into my postmodernist nightmare, I keep having to discard my dreams and find new ones because my constricting lifespan means certain wishes I had never could come to be no matter how hard I work.

I remember the hubbub about year 2k, I rolled my eyes and correct told everyone nothing was gonna fucking happen. Nowadays, though, things aren't overblown.
 
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I had a really good New Year’s Eve with some very based friends. It feels good to be feeling better, I just hope it continues.

But now with my thread tax out of the way…

I just wanted to wish all you thread regulars & newbies a Happy New Year. This little wholesome slice of the Mango Ranch has really shown me some awesome people who are the exact opposite of what everyone claims we are.

May you all have the year that you deserve, wishing yall nothing but the best. Especially whoever made my new PFP for me during the Secret Santa exchange. Literally my favorite gift i got this Xmas.
 
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Happy new year! Good luck with the new year everyone!

In the meantime, besides being focused on my job and family, I've also become more absorbed in my religious studies. This includes studying philosophy and history. I do it because I enjoy it, of course. I bring this up because it reminds me how life can be less bad if you have hobbies and interests. Of course they don't fix all your problems or make them go away, but they do help you endure and deal with them better. At least, in my opinion they do. I'd go crazy if I didn't have hobbies and interests.
 
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Holidays weren't fucked for once so that's nice. I didn't get to go to a party or a bar crawl but so far the worst thing that's confirmed is a check being fucked with and that's being rectified. Overall, I barely feel anything for this year so I guess I'm just avoiding drama for the time being.
 
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I’m about to cry. I’ve been waiting for 3 hours at a clinic to get antibiotics for an infection. They short staffed today.

Edit: didn’t cry but afterwards, car tire went flat. I cried then.
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Why the shit is amoxicillin prescription only anyways? It's not a narcotic, you can't get high from it, and there's no abuse potential.
 
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