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I talked to my doctor about going off bupropion. I started it when I was at a really, really shitty job that triggered a mental breakdown, but i have been largely stable since. I want to see if i need it anymore, and if it has a hand in making me flunk all my job interviews and have difficulty finding (and keeping) work ever since i started it.
 
Given the last couple of posts, I sorta feel guilty about saying that I am still well. Coming off my blood pressure meds since that's under control now is kinda rad. Also lost some weight as part of that and am feeling pretty good about that too.

If I feel bad at all, jumping in the truck and cruising around to do errands (or just waste gas driving to nowhere in particular) with all the windows down and random music playing loud enough to be everyone else's new OST solves for a lot.

Worst case, I save whatever is bothering me up until the weekend and either go driving, fishing, shooting or just spend a day reading, drinking and grilling. I'm gonna do one of those anyway, but there are times when you can definitely feel the before/after.
 
My family annoys me, they call multiple times a day to ask retarded questions, like how to spell a word and get annoyed if I'm in the middle of something.

Started job hunting and most places I've interviewed near my house seem to be stuck in the 80s or early 90s.
 
Mentally I am 9/10
Physically I'm 3/10

My body is worn out. I can barely walk some days. Walking with a cane sucks. I am in pain every minute of the day. Arthritis all over except upper body. I refuse to let it drag me down, but I sure don't like it. Drugs don't work BTW.

I try not to let it affect how I treat others. Try to stay in a good mood. Taking it out on others won't help anyway.
 
I am sick of being abandoned for no reason.
There is a reason but you refuse to learn and change how you act. You're either very young or lolcow material.
If i win enough money in the lottery to pay off all my debts and have some left over I think i'll move to a different country.
Which country?
Drugs don't work BTW.
Takes a while to find the right care plan. There are things that can help and you shouldn't give up and tolerate it at max pain all the time.
 
My boss (good lad) complimented me, and I quite have a good day as well. My mentality has bettered significantly and I started to feel very positive, more than before. We kept in touch with her as she attends her daughter's graduation in Canada for 2 weeks. I am so happy for them. Not to mention, I am preparing a drawing for myself as a self-birthday present in June 9 (nice!) and 29 days ahead to welcome our first child. And then at June 24 is where I come and reunite with my brother at my city's international airport. We might as well even celebrate an arrival feast for him and his girlfriend, as well as vacations. I'm in a very good mood lately, even after heavy exercises.
 
When you talk to people who are trying to find a way to get/stay high on their vices, they often only say "I need help" and when you start going "here's a bus pass, here's food and clothes, let's brainstorm where you can spend the night" you can see the impatience in them because they don't want THAT help, they need MONEY to get DRUNK like NOW. Even when I worked at the homeless shelter I had a crackhead bring me tools he stole from his employer and beg me to buy them off him for "any amount, a great deal" and when I said no, he offered to sell me his foodstamps. Next he flashed a (fake) gun to try to intimidate me and I said gtfo. He ran around telling everyone this same thing until eventually he got money for that rock. Pretty much every week a woman would offer sex for money or to "come home with me" because there's a real variety of homeless woman that stays housed by "going home" with random men.

I like beer much but having home is more important. Been homeless many years ago if you focus on beer above all else you fucking pussy; not meant for live. When you homeless you want live, no matter what, and you accept gived help because no choice otherwise. You dont want die. Use gov resources and be smart
 
everything fucking gay. can't find job, not hear from interview... nothing.

im not pussy, wont give up but it tireing...
I feel ya brother, I’m not depressed but I’m in a constant state of
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It suck too because it feels like there’s nowhere to turn to for a pick me up because the doomer mentality has hit all corners of the web (even the, dare I say…. Normies)
 
I hate the intuitive eating people from the bottom of my heart
Intuitive eating is a crock of shit, wether you are a fatty or try to gain. I come from the opposite direction of yours, i could just eat all day and also enjoy cooking a lot, God knows only hard drug addiction keeps me relatively svelte. Fluctuating wildly from anywhere between 75kg to 90kg depending on if i am actively using or on a tolerance break. Currently i am not using and have gained 5kg in under two weeks, it's fucking ridiculous.

Have you looked into high caloric drinks like Ensure, stuff they give to anorexic people? I heard they taste like shit but they could be an alternative to that "Peanuts every 30 minutes" stuff, pretty sure you can order it from Amazon.
and people have the nerve to say "I wish I had YOUR problem" because most of my family is amerimutt fat.
Yeah, fuck this. Patronizing bullshit noise.
One that half the people on this site will nod and agree with me on, and half the people will call me an idiot for.
Now you made me really curious.
 
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Have you looked into high caloric drinks like Ensure
I drink so many it's not even funny, and I do buy them usaully by the case through amazon. I cycle through brands because I get sick of them pretty fast, and so someday I want to make some sort of ultra-comprehensive review guide.

Like anything else, it's kinda rough that the cheap ones are basically pure goyslop (literally glucose syrup + soy protein + canola oil) and the ones that are better for you with better protein sources are expensive enough to make your eyes bleed. It's one thing if you're just trying to get calories into grandma after surgery so that she doesn't die, but I'm otherwise a physically active young guy and it's not good to eat goyslop all day everyday for years, it makes me worry about developing chronic illnesses from lack of real foods. But idk I'm figuring it out as I get older and more money to afford a better diet lol.


Something I realized is that I LOVE the korean style of "banchan." I am probably butchering what this actually is, but how it worked is that my table ordered some big meat plate, but it came with unlimited tiny side dishes and our table looked like the picture below. Compared to when everyone has a single big plate and it's obvious I am barely eating mine and servers start to harass you about it, it was wonderful to be able to taste a bunch of food and I didn't feel left out. They kept bringing more and more tiny dishes. HIGHLY recommend if you have a legit korean place. It was a lot of fun.
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