How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Stilgar of Troon]

Ehhh... At this point, I'd welcome a crisis, just to give me something to focus on. "Disconnected" doesn't even cover it.

 

[Juan But Not Forgotten]

I never had friends in my life. I can't understand this sentiment.

Friends are overrated.

Actually I don't the energy even to live anymore.

That's because you don't do anything. Start doing something and energy will appear.

 

[FuckedUp]

Last weekend my non-Jewish parent and I visited their youngest brother's family on Long Island. Almost never see them, so I was fully expecting to spill my spaghetti when they inevitably brought up COVID, not me clarifying that I already know all about it when getting handed their custom-made booklet about the truth behind case numbers.

Was completely surreal to be able to say "the pandemic's over when Bill Gates says it is" and get "no, Fauci lol" instead of "...what do you mean", and Tucker Carlson instead of John Oliver playing on the TV, all while my parent stayed silent like I've done at family gatherings for years whenever my parents and other relatives went off about Drumpf and the big bad alt-right.

They said I could be able to stay over at their place during my semester off, which I'd actually like to do. Actually forgot to take my Xanax while there and didn't even feel anxious.

 

[DeadFish]

Going through hell. Life is full of surprises and often nasty ones

 

[Jason Blaha's Hat]

Coming off of SSRIs after being on them for about eight years. The withdrawals are unbearable, even when slowly backing off of the dose. Never felt this bad in my life.

 

[BOONES]

I'm having an mid life... I dont fuckin know man, I'm moving homes, I'm unsatisfied with work, lost my desire for relationships (friends and love), too much on my mind to tend to my youtube channel, hell sometimes I get writers block shitposting, yeah shitposting! That takes like maybe 10% brainpower. I'm not depressed either, just really fuckin confused.

I dunno what to do man, I'm hoping after I move that all this'll blow over. Atleast I can look forward to Black Friday, gonna grab myself a sweet rig I saved two years for. Maybe then I'll actually feel the motivation.

I feel like I've said too much but hey that's what this threads for so, feels good to get it out.

 

[Quantum Diabetes]

Pretty good. I've gotten tons of free food, somebody gave me a fuckton of girl scout cookies they couldn't sell.
I've lost quite a few bad neighbors, my section of the building is almost empty so I'm having a good time with that.

If there was something on the first floor with baby kittens and labrador puppies to go visit I'd go do that right now

 

[Enne]

I posted here before when stuff was kinda bad which it might still be but it feels a bit more promising that stuff might be okay for a bit, I've also met someone nice recently who's in the next state over who I can play video games with and maybe meet eventually if stuff goes well which I'm looking forward to. Gonna cut back on drinking since I'm feeling a bit better (I'll miss drunk Valorant) and I got something to be hopeful about. I was referred to a psychologist as well but he's cancelled on me 3 separate times so I've yet to see him despite being recommended like 2 months ago but I'm not feeling too bad about it at the moment, kinda unsure if I even want to go to him since I'm kinda hesitant about telling people about some of the stuff I got issues with.

Hope all you frends are doing well and if not I hope stuff gets better.

Coming off of SSRIs after being on them for about eight years. The withdrawals are unbearable, even when slowly backing off of the dose. Never felt this bad in my life.

I quit SSRIs once after about 6 months but I just dropped them entirely since they were messing with my sleep I figured out since my poor sleep eventually got way worse, I kept feeling these shock kinda feelings constantly which I think was whenever I had anxious feelings and my mood swings were just wild. My issues with dropping it lasted around a month but I hope it gets a bit easier soon frend.

 

[The Sauce Boss]

Job acquired. It's a real good one too, with actual advancement opportunities AND tuition assistance.

 

[LightDragonman1]

Honestly, I can't help but feel like a complete waste of space.

I'm almost 27, yet I still live with my parents, don't even have a driver's license, most I have is a very basic college degree, and am currently stuck working as a lot associate. I've basically wasted most of my 20s, and I feel like there's not much hope for me in terms of my future. Even if I wanted to pursue some of my ideas, I feel like it's too late given how old I am now.

 

[Carnavoyeur]

I didn't get the promotion I wanted because the company cut the position. They kept a full time position in the department open, so I took it in hopes that they'll add the lead position back eventually. I don't know if it was a good decision, but whatever.

The weather is in the 100s-110s all week and there's a wildfire out east that's making the air quality even more unbearable. I want to leave California. This state really is just godawful and getting worse.

 

[soft kitty]

My investments are in the shitter right now. This whole thing was a waste of time. But I"m not taking the loss. I'll hodl on until it rebounds then I'm getting my fucking money back.

 

[Overcast]

Honestly, I can't help but feel like a complete waste of space.

I'm almost 27, yet I still live with my parents, don't even have a driver's license, most I have is a very basic college degree, and am currently stuck working as a lot associate. I've basically wasted most of my 20s, and I feel like there's not much hope for me in terms of my future. Even if I wanted to pursue some of my ideas, I feel like it's too late given how old I am now.

It’s never too late my dude. I myself am 28, have only been on my own for almost a year now and am just now going for my license.

You can do it.

 

[The Fool]

I think after over a decade of software development that I'm just uninterested in it as a hobby.

Like when I was a kid, it was more fun. More of an adventure. Now I'm just irritated by it. It's like that one jerkcity comic, "if I have to learn one more screwy scripting language". There's just so much shit you have to know to develop something by yourself these days, no matter what it is. All these goddamn languages and methodologies and paradigms and libraries and frameworks and tools and platforms, it's driving me insane. I've done this for over 10 years, making game engines, chatbots, websites, constantly forgetting shit and having to re-learn it, like Entity Framework for one. I can't even count how many times I had to look up how to configure that.

I'm not sure what else to do with myself now. I'm accepting that I need to let go a part of me that I developed for over a decade, but that still leaves a gaping hole in my life. Maybe I'll get into linguistics, or designing hardware. I had a lot of fun following Ben Eater's computer build and recreating it in Logisim.

 

[soft kitty]

I'm annoyed. I was having a normal day until I got that "one" customer.

More annoyed at myself than anything. I should've handled it better but I didn't expect her to argue with me. And then she has the nerve to say "it's no big deal". Really, bitch? Then what the fuck are you arguing with me for?

 

[CashMoney!]

I am relieved and proud of myself. I finished my first assignment for uni and I am expecting full marks after sweating bullets while doing it for the last two days.

 

[Haramburger]

I'm tired of shitposting here at 4 in the fucking morning to nobody instead of getting sleep so that I could be up at 6AM biking and playing Pokemon Go while the weather's still nice. To think of all those Seedots that have gone uncaught, like tears in the rain...

 

[AMERICA]

I'm tired of shitposting here at 4 in the fucking morning to nobody instead of getting sleep so that I could be up at 6AM biking and playing Pokemon Go while the weather's still nice. To think of all those Seedots that have gone uncaught, like tears in the rain...

Right? Why the fuck can't I fall sleep, especially when the weather's been so perfect.

 

[Haramburger]

Right? Why the fuck can't I fall sleep, especially when the weather's been so perfect.

Give me coordinates, going to try a quick nap and I'll astral project to you and scare your cats. Animals HATE that shit.

 

[Juan But Not Forgotten]

I think after over a decade of software development that I'm just uninterested in it as a hobby.

Like when I was a kid, it was more fun. More of an adventure. Now I'm just irritated by it. It's like that one jerkcity comic, "if I have to learn one more screwy scripting language". There's just so much shit you have to know to develop something by yourself these days, no matter what it is. All these goddamn languages and methodologies and paradigms and libraries and frameworks and tools and platforms, it's driving me insane. I've done this for over 10 years, making game engines, chatbots, websites, constantly forgetting shit and having to re-learn it, like Entity Framework for one. I can't even count how many times I had to look up how to configure that.

I'm not sure what else to do with myself now. I'm accepting that I need to let go a part of me that I developed for over a decade, but that still leaves a gaping hole in my life. Maybe I'll get into linguistics, or designing hardware. I had a lot of fun following Ben Eater's computer build and recreating it in Logisim.

I've read this and now my day is ruined.