How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Flavius Claudius Julianus]

sounds like it? if you can get one cheap and fully clean it it's worth a shot.

I checked my insurance which will cover up to $1,000 for a cpap, and the clinic that has my results charges $3,000 for a cpap. I ended up buying a used one off facebook marketplace for $150, a cube shaped Fisher&Paykel SleepStyle. right now my partner is sterilizing all the removable bits in a vinegar bath he heats with a sous vide, but it looks like I'm missing parts of the mask assembly that came with it so i'm using my partner's spare mask until I get a new one. came with a nose only mask but I sometimes wake up with a dry mouth so I probably need a full mask anyways.

I'm gonna do a deep dive tomorrow, thanks for the detailed information.

Any chance I can check in/get some updates next week when you're in the swing? Interested to hear updates.

 

[Betonhaus]

I'm gonna do a deep dive tomorrow, thanks for the detailed information.

Any chance I can check in/get some updates next week when you're in the swing? Interested to hear updates.

sure. I just found that there's a "secret" clinical menu where you adjust things like the pressure, where you'r doctor or specialist would configure but if you buy one yourself it's up to you to figure out what you need to set it to.

I factory reset mine and set everything to defaults, I'll have to adjust the pressure and humidity up or down as needed

 

[isalaide]

We went to the royal garden party today and because I am a midget I couldn't see the King over all the big people's heads

But I did manage to see the Duchess of Edinburgh through a tree.

And the cakes and ice cream were lovely.

 

[LeChampion1992]

If I either has ten grand or a job again soon I would be golden atm. I hate being unemployed and looking for a job anons even though it's only been a week I hate it.

 

[Catman from cat town]

Finally got an eye exam and surprisingly, I don’t need that strong of a prescription. -0.75 was the highest number I need while my sister is like -2.0 or something so not too bad compared to my folks.

I somewhat feel like I should go without glasses because it’s not too bad but I remember the eye migraines and how annoyed I got trying to read the aisle signs while shopping.

 

[Mesh Gear Fox]

nconsistent sleep, lower stamina, and difficulty focusing at work.

I started CPAP last January and it made a huge difference in the way I felt. I was just exhausted all the time, and now I feel normal again.

I factory reset mine and set everything to defaults, I'll have to adjust the pressure and humidity up or down as needed

You really need a second sleep study, called a titration study where they figure out the best pressure settings and what kind of mask you need to wear. Fortunately, I'm able to use just a nasal mask (nasal pillows). Choosing your own settings isn't the greatest way to do things, since your sleep clinician needs to be the one to make those decisions. I know you don't have a ton of money, but the wrong settings won't give you the best treatment.

 

[NaggotFigger]

Recently done babysitting my son, he was sleeping peacefully and I did stop him from crying twice, my gremlin was sleeping with my wife next to him since he was needing someone close to him by the crib. I have not give him my phone, or even my wife's; as we just tend to him for some hours before he needs to nap. He is currently close to 1 month old now, so we need our time to be close to each other, if not, he would cry a lot. But once I started drawing for him, he immediately fell in awe with my work, even if it is cringeworthy or not.

My boy wants to be an aspiring artist like his dada when he grew up. Not to mention! When we were on a trip to the Mekong Delta, I did draw, and my co-worker's baby was shocked and in awe when I was drawing on my phone; and when I call my cousin's 12-month old daughter by her name adorably like calling a pet out, she laughed a lot and coos in joy. Children are a joy to take care with, as long you are not retarded to the point you turn them into self-entitled iPad kids.

 

[Flavius Claudius Julianus]

sure. I just found that there's a "secret" clinical menu where you adjust things like the pressure, where you'r doctor or specialist would configure but if you buy one yourself it's up to you to figure out what you need to set it to.

I factory reset mine and set everything to defaults, I'll have to adjust the pressure and humidity up or down as needed

BRB setting mine to K-pop idol farts.

In all seriousness, that's interesting. It never occurred to me but it does make sense, different people will have different issues with their breathing, so the machine needs to accommodate that.

 

[Betonhaus]

BRB setting mine to K-pop idol farts.

In all seriousness, that's interesting. It never occurred to me but it does make sense, different people will have different issues with their breathing, so the machine needs to accommodate that.

At about the 7 minute mark they enter the clinical menu for the model i have. I admit i don't really know the difference between cpap and auto mode but it has some important settings hidden.

the comments directed me to OSCAR, which is an open source software for reading the sleep logging file

 

[isalaide]

My father got in touch this morning.

He wants to 'borrow' (note: he has never paid anyone back without a court order, ever) fifty grand.

He wants to borrow fifty grand. From me. It is a fucking testament to the scale of the fucking brainwashing of my family of origin that the jawdropping nature of this request doesn't seem to have penetrated his fucking brain.

My husband thinks I should agree to do it if he agrees to turn [relative] into the cops first. I'm actively considering that proposal. Well, no. The kids have gone off with my father in law and I'm actively getting day drunk.

Fuck absolutely everything. I will not deal with this shit any more. I need to find out if I can get some kind of restraining order or something. I will not do this anymore.

 

[Triple Flutz]

It's been stupidly hot and the fire ants have been trying their best to get in the house for relief from the heat and to scout for food sources. It's in great shape and I am very meticulous about my cleaning, so it's just scouts as opposed to a row of ants getting in to a discovered food source, but it gives me this sick feeling whenever I see one. I hate to whine about something like this since it's kind of just something you have to deal with when you live in the area, but my husband kindly offered to spray again this weekend so I'm hoping we see a reduction in numbers. I'm also going to try out diatomaceous earth at potential entry points just to further discourage exploration in our home. It's worse this year than the previous ones for some reason, we've only ever had to spray once every summer and it's already our second and it's only July. Again, this is just me being a Northerner and being precious about a normal quantity of ants, but I fucking hate these things and I react really badly to their sting as I've had the pleasure to find out a few years ago when I accidentally stepped on one of their mounds out at the country club. I swear I'll have a chimpout if I wake up to getting stung in bed or something equally vexing lmao.

 

[Betonhaus]

I feel a little different, but I'm not sure yet if it's just placebo or something more. I'm still unmotivated but I feel like I'm a little more awake and thinking clearly.

 

[bliblblblbbllb]

All my friends are being really nice to me since my family member is dying. They're all 5-10 years older than me and I think I really benefit that most of them have already had a major family death.

It's getting really upsetting that I don't know if we're talking days, weeks, or months. I get the feeling that the doctors have a much better sense but are simply not telling me. He keeps having episodes of not breathing and bad blood pressure/heart issues where if he were on hospice or not in the hospital he would certainly die, but instead they give him lots of drugs and he recovers.


They have him on other drugs that are supposed to improve the general situation, but I can't quite tell if they think it'll actually stop him from having these nearly-dying episodes, or if they're just prolonging his life. I've tried to ask but they just keep using the broad phrase "Make him feel better."
Does anyone know if this is code for something?
For example, they changed a bunch of his medicine and put him on different ones. I asked what the changes were for and how these ones were different, and they just said "We're going to see if it makes him feel better."

 

[Irregardless]

My Dad's cancer is back. It wasn't/isn't late stage, or more serious type like brain or lung cancer, and it also isn't as bad as it was before. They caught it while checking to see the status of his previous cancer treatments and noticed that the tumors came out of remission and grown. I don't think he's going to die from this, but the bigger issue is it's too fucking early to be having to worry about these kinds of things. He's not even 60 yet, and we've got to worry about this stuff. My dad was in his 50s by the time my grandfather passed, and I don't think he really started worrying about him until he was in his 40s. Yet here I am, still years away from being 30, coming to the realization that every time my parents call now, it could be news about something wrong with my dad.

At the end of the day, like I said, I don't think this will be what does him in, but what I fear is more likely, is the beginning of future issues that my whole family and I just shouldn't be having to worry about yet.

 

[Mesh Gear Fox]

"We're going to see if it makes him feel better."

You need to ask them for specifics. Just saying "he'll feel better" doesn't mean shit. You have a right to know exactly what's going on. I've never been offended when a patient or family member asks me for more information.

 

[DeutscheKatze]

if my work shedule stays unchanged.. i just realized it will be 3 weeks 6days, no day off i usually have

oh well

I hope everyone is doing good
happy murrica day tomorrow
pls no one get shot, drink lots of water
enjoy family time

still very happy and thankful that wolfman is in my life, my sunshine

gotta keep going on, keep trying to get healthier and improve myself
randomly realized too that since beginning of march i dont bite my nails anymore, keep em almond shaped, black
even if they crack during work i just regrow n care
250 +- Days sober

 

[dick brain]

They say that the Anglo has this unique Faustian drive to explore and I think that is why we enjoy the country and nature seemingly more than any other race.

I wish I still had the meme of half a dozen tweets asking why white people climb mountains and the one response of "Because there are no niggers up there."

It's been stupidly hot and the fire ants have been trying their best to get in the house for relief from the heat and to scout for food sources. It's in great shape and I am very meticulous about my cleaning, so it's just scouts as opposed to a row of ants getting in to a discovered food source, but it gives me this sick feeling whenever I see one. I hate to whine about something like this since it's kind of just something you have to deal with when you live in the area, but my husband kindly offered to spray again this weekend so I'm hoping we see a reduction in numbers. I'm also going to try out diatomaceous earth at potential entry points just to further discourage exploration in our home. It's worse this year than the previous ones for some reason, we've only ever had to spray once every summer and it's already our second and it's only July. Again, this is just me being a Northerner and being precious about a normal quantity of ants, but I fucking hate these things and I react really badly to their sting as I've had the pleasure to find out a few years ago when I accidentally stepped on one of their mounds out at the country club. I swear I'll have a chimpout if I wake up to getting stung in bed or something equally vexing lmao.

I wish I had your problems.

pls no one get shot

Don't tell me how to celebrate.

Anyway, I shitcanned my counselor last week and I feel a lot better. It wasn't helpful anymore, she was actively ignoring many of the things I was expressing and contradicting a lot of the points in a book that has been extremely helpful. I think probably my life has just been so uniquely gay and retarded that few people have relevant experience or helpful advice, and I'm probably out-of-book as far as the counselor/therapist script goes and I just have to figure it out on my own and stop giving a fuck what other people think about it. I'll probably look for other counselors who specifically have experience with this book/school of thought because it can't hurt to try but I'm not in a hurry.

Also I finally mounted a mirror that I've had laying around and realized I look pretty fucking good after a year of attempting suicide every gym session. I'm in no place to date and done with casual sex so it means nothing but still a nice reminder.

 

[Unnecessary Surgery Land]

I feel like my brain is restricting myself from doing things and I can’t figure out why. It feels very constipated.

I really wanna fix that. And without drugs.
I dunno maybe alcohol would help actually. When I (rarely) drink my ego tends to be less aggressive and I can just get things done without questioning myself.

Too anxious to develop a habit of that though

 

[soft breathing]

Got some bad news that I might have washed down with a few too many substances.
I'm sad. I feel like a failure. My head hurts.
And now I go wallow in self-pity for the rest of the week.

Take care of yourselves, Kiwis. Life sucks.

 

[Jonah Hill poster]

It’s been a week and a half and my sleeping schedule is all sort of out of whack due to focusing on work and personal skills. I’m trying to fix that, but it has been rough for me. Either way, I hope something changes soon, but I can’t just force it to go away.