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A little good news for once. Mint Ulyana's issues seem to have vanished by switching from Cinnamon to XFCE. Apparently Cinnamon does not like AMD drivers. Also, my RAM sticks arrived 4 days early, so I might get Win10 to lolcalmdown too.
 
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Sped Xing said:
I just got new contact lenses, and Inkeep trying to put my glasses on, and breathing weird so my mask doesn't fog my contacts

Why are brains so stupid?
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It's kind of freaky how quickly the brain picks up certain habits. I find myself occasionally trying to push nonexistent glasses back up the bridge of my nose when I go out with mask on and glasses off.
 
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Honestly at the end if my rope with this covid bullshit. Tired of being isolated, tired if watching the one family member I care about suffer because she swallows everything she sees on the news and is literally terrified to even answer the door or go grocery shopping. And now that she can't go anywhere watching more and more and more news...
While I think covid is bullshit I still leash myself for her sake of mind.
8 months of this. 8. FUcking. Months.
I'm a fairly introverted person and I'm going mad.
We've missed 2 funerals, are cancelling Thanksgiving and likely Christmas (Wich is a HUGE thing to said family member) and nothing I tell her will calm her.

meanwhile blm riots, antifa riots, Dems are celebrating en mass for a biden win, and while I couldn't go to the funerals of loved ones, a nigger who held a gun to a pregnant womans stomach and ODd because he swallowed his stash got a gold fucking casket and a nationally televised funeral.

I'm trying really, REALLY hard to keep my mind off of things and taking care of myself (eating better, exercising, working on art) but I feel myself slipping. Seeing people going out to grab ice cream with their kids wearing cute little cartoon print masks is just insane.

I hadn't seen my own mother since this started and I had to wear a mask to talk to my fucking mom 6 feet away today because every one of them are terrified of this covid shit. (Except their 80+ yo neighbor. Bless her she's always been a tough old hag and I love her to death)

I've been trying to come to the farms less, obsessively prune my twitter, etc just to avoid all the blm, antifa, election shit, and covid drama but it's still so exhausting.

We adopted a cat just a few weeks before this all started and idk what I'd do without this lil fucker ...
 
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Duncan Hills Coffee said:
I hadn't thought of enlisting primarily because I just graduated college and all the family members that have served are encouraging me to go the officer route because, as they put it, I can actually use my degree, whereas if I enlist I won't be able to act with my degree, at least not for a while. And honestly, I kinda like that because it would mean my degree is worth something. I think it's worth noting that I'm thinking of going into the Air Force, which from what I hear likes its college graduates.

Also worth noting that they enlisted instead of going OTS right out of the gate, so they've probably got a different set of experiences.

I have heard horror stories about people royally fucking up and the UCMJ going after them, so there's no way I'm going to fuck around with them.
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I'm a college grad and I enjoy being enlisted. You don't really use your degree in the military anyway if you aren't an engineer or in a direct commission career field (doctor, lawyer, etc.).

One of my classmates from college is an infantry officer these days. You know what his degree was in? English.
Motherfucker convinced the US Army to pay for his education so he could breeze through his undergrad reading poetry and classic literature. All so he could be a professional doorkicker and lead a platoon of fellow 11 Bangbangs.
Aside from public speaking and professional writing, I can guarantee you he isn't using his degree for shit as an infantry officer.

I've toyed with getting a commission, the Mrs. and my folks have been hounding me for years to get one. If I were, I would go to the civil engineering section or stay in maintenance as a maintenance officer. In CE I would be more apt to use aspects of my undergrad whereas in MXG I would be relying on my enlisted experience. Point being, Uncle Sam only cares that you have a BA or BS and the capacity to lead. You'll get trained on everything he needs you to know about your field.
 
It is a very stupid system that a BA in Native American Archaeology makes you a superior being somehow.

My college didn't offer a degree in "locate, close with, and destroy the enemy by fire and maneuver." I guess learning the Iliad by heart is close enough.
 
Disappointed in where I graduated from university. Very progressive school, 60%+ women and the girls were extremely stuck up in comparison to girls I've met in LA/San Francisco for some context. I feel like I missed out on spending time with better people.
 
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Women are awful. You know how I know that? If you are talking to a woman and you say "women are the worst," she will probably agree with you. Contrast with saying "black people are terrible" to a black person.

Women < Negroes QED
 
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I am doing much better than I was. My father is sick right now and I am sad to see him suffering; to see him so anxious because of the exponential rise in disease. There's a new meaning to things I did not understand before.
Life is meant to be lived and people are meant to be loved. There is no "better" or "worse", just perspective. I know I love him very much, and that I love the world very much, even if it is not very nice right now. I am a little sad I cannot carry everybody else's struggles. I hope all of you have better days tomorrow.
 
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I've had several surgeries before so I recognize the phase I'm in. The worst pain and whatnot is over, but healing is progressing at such a snail's pace right now that it feels like I'll never get fully better. I feel like I won't be normal again. I know it's not true, in a few weeks or months I will be fine and the soreness will be a distant memory again. But for now I'm a little depressed, and achy. School isn't helping, as it's nearly final season at my university. At least classes are online.

I'm reminded of my last surgery, when I was in this phase and stumbled across an obscure blog by a lady detailing her life while having cystic fibrosis (or some other serious chronic illness). She was frank about her problems, while showing how much she enjoyed living through it all. It was a sporadically updated blog with seemingly little audience but it really affected me. It made me realize that in a way I was being overdramatic, and to appreciate that I'll be healthy again when I recover. Not everyone can say the same.
 
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Same company that rejected me for the talent pool apparently didn't get the fucking message, or the person in question had my info on hand and just now dragged her ass to the keyboard to ask me to interview.

I would like to think she will not make that mistake twice.
 
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Improving my job application material, but the posts aren't popping up anymore and sending mails to companies myself isn't exactly more promising, as I both need to hit/create a need to employ me, as well as somehow convince my limited experience is still promising.

In reality, I apply for jobs an hour a day, yet spend the remaining 14-15 thinking about something out of my hands. It's not fun.
 
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Pressure washing my house in order to re-caulk and paint it for sale, I find that most of this wood wasn't rotten at all; just dirty.

Only now does it occur to me that my barbeque pit is upwind of my white house.

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Anyway, it's nice to be wrong, and nice to be on my ideal vacation-- puttering around the house fixing things.
 
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Today I got my Salvation Army angel from the university tree. It opened yesterday but I was unable to get to campus until today. I planned on getting a little boy but I ended up with a girl because the pickings were so slim. Her "wishes" are sloth stuff and art supplies. This spoke to me so I adopted her (what angel trees call picking). Shhh...I gotta focus. I'm shifting into sloth mode.

Also today I got a letter in the mail from my community college asking if I'd like to participate in the 2021 graduation ceremony since I didn't get to for 2020. They said they would do this last summer but I wasn't holding my breath. When I saw this I'm not gonna like I almost started crying. Still not holding my breath though because Joepedo lockdowns.
 
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