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Earlier today I opened the fridge to find a moth had somehow gotten inside. He was still alive so I picked him up and released him outside. He flew away.

I also cut my elbow area shaving my arms; it is more like road rash and its constantly hurting because it's on my elbow skin (and therefore always stretching). War. War never changes.
 
Feeling pretty good actually, weight is down to 171.8lbs from 236lbs in Feb/March. Had five amazing late spring like days here in Ottawa, its 63F now. tomorrow will be 66F. Been a treat to go and walk in shorts again, perfect temperature not too hot or cold and sunny.
 
Being self-employed is a weird world. Even if you’re doing creative work — really, especially if you’re doing creative work — you’ve got to push yourself and make sure you get something done every single day. I’m a wagie with some creative stuff I’m working on as a hobby, and even that can be extremely easy to wind up putting off unless I find ways to dedicate myself. Work itself can be weird as hell, because even if you tell yourself that you hate doing it and you’d rather be doing something else, you might find that you’ll be directionless without that constant strict structure and responsibility. Working from home can suck because it’s easy to get away with slacking off, only to discover that slacking winds up making you feel even shittier at day’s end than than if you’d been busting your ass. Psychology is weird like that; if you’re not doing something useful then you can easily wind up feeling useless.

Keep at it, fam. Sometimes the only way to stop being lazy is to force yourself to stop.
Yeah, in theory it's not too dissimilar from the contractor stuff I kinda do. But man, oh man. Both the set up I am in sucks and frankly it's really hard to get new clients. Especially now.
Construction is usually a thing that will be kicked in the rear end by a recession, especially if you focus on private people not firms.

I certainly need to train discipline. It's a skill on it's own for sure.
 
Every now and then I start up the job hunt again (this year's turned me into a horribly lazy slob so I haven't been tackling it nearly as hard as I should be). I find interesting jobs and internships, but then I end up thinking about becoming a military officer. I come from a military family and something about that life appeals to me: getting to travel the world, making connections, maintaining stability, having decent job security, all while serving my country. But it isn't something I want to rush into, so I end up thinking myself in circles all while I stare at these other viable job opportunities.

I've wasted the entire year like this, and the only thing lighting a fire under my ass is the onset of student loans in the new year.
 
All is well, just got retraining orders. Gonna be a grand old time down at Sheppard.

Every now and then I start up the job hunt again (this year's turned me into a horribly lazy slob so I haven't been tackling it nearly as hard as I should be). I find interesting jobs and internships, but then I end up thinking about becoming a military officer. I come from a military family and something about that life appeals to me: getting to travel the world, making connections, maintaining stability, having decent job security, all while serving my country. But it isn't something I want to rush into, so I end up thinking myself in circles all while I stare at these other viable job opportunities.

I've wasted the entire year like this, and the only thing lighting a fire under my ass is the onset of student loans in the new year.
From an enlisted man I can tell you that accepting a commission shouldn't be taken lightly. No one respects a fresh butterbar, doubly so if said butterbar is only in it for a job. You have to serve as an example for enlisted folk in both character and actions. No one will take a sloppy Lieutenant seriously when they start grilling Airman Snuffy or Private Johnson about dress and appearance standards. No one will take Ensign BagO'Donuts seriously on PT. No one will respect a chronically late O1.

Also remember that in terms of respect and competence your senior enlisted are superior to you and won't take an uppity Lt. with one year of service barking at them about rank kindly. Until you hit Captain (O3 Lieutenant if Navy) your job is essentially paper bitch unless you're a Platoon Leader. Even then, you'll still be a paper bitch when at garrison or out of combat. Treat your junior enlisted and NCOs well and they'll make sure things run smoothly for you. Don't and you'll have fires to constantly have put out.
 
All is well, just got retraining orders. Gonna be a grand old time down at Sheppard.


From an enlisted man I can tell you that accepting a commission shouldn't be taken lightly. No one respects a fresh butterbar, doubly so if said butterbar is only in it for a job. You have to serve as an example for enlisted folk in both character and actions. No one will take a sloppy Lieutenant seriously when they start grilling Airman Snuffy or Private Johnson about dress and appearance standards. No one will take Ensign BagO'Donuts seriously on PT. No one will respect a chronically late O1.

Also remember that in terms of respect and competence your senior enlisted are superior to you and won't take an uppity Lt. with one year of service barking at them about rank kindly. Until you hit Captain (O3 Lieutenant if Navy) your job is essentially paper bitch unless you're a Platoon Leader. Even then, you'll still be a paper bitch when at garrison or out of combat. Treat your junior enlisted and NCOs well and they'll make sure things run smoothly for you. Don't and you'll have fires to constantly have put out.
I'm a rule follower to a T, so I'm not too worried about enforcing rules I don't follow. I'm also not an uppity kind of person, if you ask me to do something I'll go ahead and do it.

However I basically have no experience looking over other people and I'm pretty meek in general so that's a bit worrying to me
 
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Had a talk with family my dad currently on vacation in the Dominican republic despite the covid, he's who I pay rent too said not to worry too much about it still paid it for him hope the exchange rate can buy him some good rum and a nice night out there. Talked with my ma may be going to her place for my brother's birthday dinner tommorow always nice to see them. Talked with my widow aunt, hard to believe it's been a month since my uncle *name withheld* died her screams as her husband and my uncle was given his last sermon and we said our goodbyes still haunts me and keeps replaying in my mind like a bad rerun that just won't stop. That aside she's doing alright her kids aka my cousins are doing well in college, or hs football and I'm sure they're making their dad proud wherever he is
 
I'm a rule follower to a T, so I'm not too worried about enforcing rules I don't follow. I'm also not an uppity kind of person, if you ask me to do something I'll go ahead and do it.

However I basically have no experience looking over other people and I'm pretty meek in general so that's a bit worrying to me
If you lack leadership experience then enlist. Enlisted folk respect officers that ascend to the post from the enlisted ranks. In the Air Force we call them "Mustangs", the Army calls them "Green to Gold" iirc, not so sure about Navy/Marine Corps At best you'll go through OTS if you pass the Officer Qualifying Test. The AFOQT only allows for two lifetime chances, take it seriously. and have an honorable service career, at worst you'll get a taste of leadership as an enlisted, decide against it, and get an honorable discharge after your contract is up.

Whatever you do, don't think you can maneuver around the UCMJ. Those JAG lawyers - and OSI agents if Air Force - can and will fuck you up. A dishonorable discharge is like a felony. It will make many things, like purchasing a firearm or getting a loan, much harder. Don't fuck around or you'll soon find out if you do.
 
If you lack leadership experience then enlist. Enlisted folk respect officers that ascend to the post from the enlisted ranks. In the Air Force we call them "Mustangs", the Army calls them "Green to Gold" iirc, not so sure about Navy/Marine Corps At best you'll go through OTS if you pass the Officer Qualifying Test. The AFOQT only allows for two lifetime chances, take it seriously. and have an honorable service career, at worst you'll get a taste of leadership as an enlisted, decide against it, and get an honorable discharge after your contract is up.

Whatever you do, don't think you can maneuver around the UCMJ. Those JAG lawyers - and OSI agents if Air Force - can and will fuck you up. A dishonorable discharge is like a felony. It will make many things, like purchasing a firearm or getting a loan, much harder. Don't fuck around or you'll soon find out if you do.
I hadn't thought of enlisting primarily because I just graduated college and all the family members that have served are encouraging me to go the officer route because, as they put it, I can actually use my degree, whereas if I enlist I won't be able to act with my degree, at least not for a while. And honestly, I kinda like that because it would mean my degree is worth something. I think it's worth noting that I'm thinking of going into the Air Force, which from what I hear likes its college graduates.

Also worth noting that they enlisted instead of going OTS right out of the gate, so they've probably got a different set of experiences.

I have heard horror stories about people royally fucking up and the UCMJ going after them, so there's no way I'm going to fuck around with them.
 
Feeling pretty good actually, weight is down to 171.8lbs from 236lbs in Feb/March. Had five amazing late spring like days here in Ottawa, its 63F now. tomorrow will be 66F. Been a treat to go and walk in shorts again, perfect temperature not too hot or cold and sunny.

63 F is about the temperature at which I start wearing long sleeves. Canadians are such strange creatures.

I hadn't thought of enlisting primarily because I just graduated college and all the family members that have served are encouraging me to go the officer route because, as they put it, I can actually use my degree, whereas if I enlist I won't be able to act with my degree, at least not for a while. And honestly, I kinda like that because it would mean my degree is worth something. I think it's worth noting that I'm thinking of going into the Air Force, which from what I hear likes its college graduates.

Also worth noting that they enlisted instead of going OTS right out of the gate, so they've probably got a different set of experiences.

I have heard horror stories about people royally fucking up and the UCMJ going after them, so there's no way I'm going to fuck around with them.

The pedant in me wants to say that the UCMJ is just a body of text and can't "go after" anyone.

My human side says don't join the military. It sucks.
 
> uni is holding a food drive for the uni food pantry
> food pantry is for students in need of course
> wants things like ramen, jerky, cereal, baby food (for parent students)
> want to donate as usual
> go to grocery store and get a lot of stuff from the list
> while on the way to uni to drop it off, get excited thinking about making a toy basket for the uni Salvation Army drive
> park in a parking lot closer to drop off area
> go drop it off, then go get a coffee from the campus coffee shop
> all in all was out of car maybe 10 minutes
> get back in my car
> there's a yellow envelope on my windshield
> heythatsnew.jpg
> get out and see what it is
> it's a $20 parking ticket, apparently I parked in an employee parking spot
> didn't see any big signs and I've seen students park here before
> never gotten any type of ticket before ever
> mfw
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Everything's been cleared for me to head down and see my folks over Thanksgiving. Whole family won't be able to come this time around, due to different reasons for different people, but it hopefully will be an awesome time regardless. Live free or die.
My human side says don't join the military. It sucks.
One of the worst fucking things I've ever heard about the US Army is that they have their own suicide hotline and it gets so backed up that people have killed themselves while on hold.
 
Everything's been cleared for me to head down and see my folks over Thanksgiving. Whole family won't be able to come this time around, due to different reasons for different people, but it hopefully will be an awesome time regardless. Live free or die.

One of the worst fucking things I've ever heard about the US Army is that they have their own suicide hotline and it gets so backed up that people have killed themselves while on hold.
Little do I know of the Army, but in the USMC infantry, the standard procedure for someone admitting they were having suicidal thoughts was to remove them from all duties, imsult them publically, and then take away any privacy by ordering other Marines to stand "suicide watch." I mean, I guess if they only kill themselves after they get kicked out it's not the Corps' problem anymore.

I remember going in with an idea that life would be challenging, with stern senior personnel demanding the utmost out of me, bad food, hard work, and all for meaningful goals.

What I found was a bunch of jumped-up faggots abusing their whipping boys and mollycoddling their favorites, widespread ineptitude and inability to overcome any challenge not to be solved by screaming, cursing, or whining.

I had thought it would be hard, but it was rarely challenging except in a "don't tell the ill-bred puppy of an NCO to go fuck himself" sort of way. While it's true that the benefits and lack of necessary expenses besides weekly haircuts and a cell phone made it more profitable than it looks on paper, it amounts to considerably less than getting a CDL or Air Conditioner certs or any number of other options which don't involve dealing with cowards who abuse anyone who legally cannot reply and fawn over anyone placed above them in rank.

Plus, for years afterwards, you will see your friends who voiced much the same opinion when you were both in post "Oohrah" on facebook, their profile pictures them prancing about in blues. "Thank me for my service."

Uncommon faggotry is a common vice in the US military. I recommend a hard pass. There are better ways to pay for trade school.

EDIT: The "bad food" isn't always true, however. Some Navy chow halls are to die for. And base bars are generally good places.
 
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Little do I know of the Army, but in the USMC infantry, the standard procedure for someone admitting they were having suicidal thoughts was to remove them from all duties, imsult them publically, and then take away any privacy by ordering other Marines to stand "suicide watch." I mean, I guess if they only kill themselves after they get kicked out it's not the Corps' problem anymore.

I remember going in with an idea that life would be challenging, with stern senior personnel demanding the utmost out of me, bad food, hard work, and all for meaningful goals.

What I found was a bunch of jumped-up faggots abusing their whipping boys and mollycoddling their favorites, widespread ineptitude and inability to overcome any challenge not to be solved by screaming, cursing, or whining.

I had thought it would be hard, but it was rarely challenging except in a "don't tell the ill-bred puppy of an NCO to go fuck himself" sort of way. While it's true that the benefits and lack of necessary expenses besides weekly haircuts and a cell phone made it more profitable than it looks on paper, it amounts to considerably less than getting a CDL or Air Conditioner certs or any number of other options which don't involve dealing with cowards who abuse anyone who legally cannot reply and fawn over anyone placed above them in rank.

Plus, for years afterwards, you will see your friends who voiced much the same opinion when you were both in post "Oohrah" on facebook, their profile pictures them prancing about in blues. "Thank me for my service."

Uncommon faggotry is a common vice in the US military. I recommend a hard pass. There are better ways to pay for trade school.

EDIT: The "bad food" isn't always true, however. Some Navy chow halls are to die for. And base bars are generally good places.
My knowledge of military life is mostly informed by a family member who enlisted, worked their way up to the rank of O2 or something, did a tour, and their life was pure fucking hell almost from the moment of enlisting. Army is the kind of shithole where an unofficial slogan of the infantry is "Embrace The Suck." Absolutely fucking everything sucks, in huge part because everybody is a fucking idiot and politics are fucking everywhere and every single fucking thing you do has a bureaucrat's cock jammed into the process.
 
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Follow up appointments for my dental surgery that was last week. Said my healing looks really good. I hope so, I've been doing everything I can to recover (cleaning area, taking vitamins and meds, etc.). Have a dime sized spot of numbness on my chin, but my surgeon says I'm super lucky that's all. Apparently they "threaded a needle" avoiding the nerves around my lips. The numbness after past surgeries have all gone away so I'm not too worried. Still achy.

I want real food.
 
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