How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

It's not even winter here yet (though it's close) and I can already feel the seasonal depression creeping in. The shorter days. It throws me off-by 7:00 I'm ready for bed but I still stick it out until 10:30 or 11:00 because that's what my internal clock is most used to and trying to turn in earlier is usually unsuccessful.
 
Ehm, no. I don't think we live in a time when you can't say "fuck it" to the ongoing discourse in your country and be perfectly fine (believe me, I know). Well, unless you live in some islamic wartorn quasi state, where you will be executed. But hey, could be worse, you could be born female.
Maybe not but people focus way too much on dumb national level bullshit that not only doesn't even directly affect them but they can do nothing about anyway, then get depressed, angry and feel helpless about it, when if they did stuff locally, whatever it is (preferably not burning down shit), they might actually see some actual impact on stuff that matters.
 
Another month, another run-in with someone who initially seems like a normal person who then completely blows me off as if "Hey, (question about shared interest)" triggered a script in the cell carrier service that replaces everything I say with "Hey sexy hubba send pecs and peen I promise I love you forever".

Perhaps my mistake is treating gay guys like human beings. Maybe they'll respond positively to the Thirsty Indian Sex Pest approach. This bears experimenting.
 
And you're still going on the internet to brag about offing yourself? You're a jerk.
Compared to what I've already been called, you really think "jerk" is going to register?
 
Compared to what I've already been called, you really think "jerk" is going to register?
You seem to assume I'm trying to hurt your feelings.

You should move past the egoism which causes that assumption.
 
Compared to what I've already been called, you really think "jerk" is going to register?
listen man. I've been there. I've tried actually. I was only 14. And you know what? It wasn't fucking worth it. It wasn't worth hurting everyone else, regardless of if I liked them or not. And sometimes? I still feel like, maybe, death would be better. But I now know it's not. It's really not. I've got a girlfriend now, I'm learning to drive! And, the biggest driving force of mine to stay alive? Spite. You've got people to prove wrong. Stay alive if not to spite them. Stay alive to spite yourself even! I know you've got this.
 
Gotta catch a train home first thing tomorrow morning for the holiday. I'm bringing a cast iron pan I fucked up seasoning so I can toss it in a bonfire, burn my aborted seasoning attempt off, and start anew. Also my old man has a load of weed butter he made that I'm looking forward to trying.
 
  • Like
Reactions: Mesh Gear Fox
What would your wife think if you killed yourself?
Relieved. She can finally be with someone who can give her a kid. That's been her goal all this time. Besides, she can remarry and not get a complete fuck up.
You seem to assume I'm trying to hurt your feelings.
Then why'd you bother saying it?
listen man. I've been there. I've tried actually. I was only 14. And you know what? It wasn't fucking worth it. It wasn't worth hurting everyone else, regardless of if I liked them or not. And sometimes? I still feel like, maybe, death would be better. But I now know it's not. It's really not. I've got a girlfriend now, I'm learning to drive! And, the biggest driving force of mine to stay alive? Spite. You've got people to prove wrong. Stay alive if not to spite them. Stay alive to spite yourself even! I know you've got this.
I appreciate your sentiment, but this is doing not just them but the whole world a favor.
 
Relieved. She can finally be with someone who can give her a kid. That's been her goal all this time. Besides, she can remarry and not get a complete fuck up.
I seriously doubt you're that much of a fuckup and have anyone who cares about you. I mean what the fuck, do a flip, I know I told you not to, but you are approaching the point of just attention whoring at this point.

Nobody here actually cares. Most of us just mocked the fuck out of the suicide of Richard Kyanka, who many of us had personally (Internet-wise) interacted with him at some point for 20 years or more.

So shit or get off the pot. And livestream it if you do. Just quit being a little bitch.
 
I seriously doubt you're that much of a fuckup and have anyone who cares about you. I mean what the fuck, do a flip, I know I told you not to, but you are approaching the point of just attention whoring at this point.

Nobody here actually cares. Most of us just mocked the fuck out of the suicide of Richard Kyanka, who many of us had personally (Internet-wise) interacted with him at some point for 20 years or more.

So shit or get off the pot. And livestream it if you do. Just quit being a little bitch.
Ok.
 
  • Optimistic
Reactions: Sped Xing
Relieved. She can finally be with someone who can give her a kid. That's been her goal all this time. Besides, she can remarry and not get a complete fuck up.

Then why'd you bother saying it?

I appreciate your sentiment, but this is doing not just them but the whole world a favor.
Out of curiosity, what were your hobbies?
 
  • Thunk-Provoking
Reactions: Blamo and Sped Xing
i probably have tooth resorption because my family never got me in the common habit of brushing my teeth daily + too depressed to
this is maybe the 2nd health problem that's come up because i'm just too fucking empty to do anything (:_(i don't wanna be lazy anymore
 
Relieved. She can finally be with someone who can give her a kid. That's been her goal all this time. Besides, she can remarry and not get a complete fuck up.
I don't see why would she stay with you if she only waited for you to die and find someone else. Seems like a waste of time with goals like these, so you're probably wrong. Have you tried asking her if she would be better without you?
 
Last edited:
Back