Getting the covid vaccine will alleviate those symptoms, cutie....
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So? Just ignore politics, it will save you a lot of mental health. And you didn't answer the other questions.
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Pardon the Rant Kiwis. Ive got nowhere else to go rn.
2021 has been a shit year for me. Financial trash, I lost an Aunt, lost a cat young. My fathers cancer progressed. But the sewage icing on the shit cake was that early in feb my GF of 8 1/2 years left me
Not to power lvl, but im 25. I met her when I was 16, she was 15. We dated all thru highschool and college. She always had severe depression, and I spent many, many nights holding her and stopping her from hurting herself, telling her the voices werent real, etc. She grew out of that in early college. It was an extremely loving and compassionate relationship and we fully expected to spend our lives together, had a savings account for a house together (I lived alone while she lived wi her parents) etc. I changed jobs to be more successful and support her and all of my moves regarding my career had her in mind.
Come to mid 2020, and we had minor issues. I was working pretty hard and was bummed out. She was busy with college, we couldn't see eaxh other much and when we did it was sex, movies, food and cuddling wjth the occasional date. Around November we had a talk about it and we promised to be better to each other and focus more. I made the effort and she kinda did too. I planned to propose to her mid 2021.
Keep in mind she went to school for art and had been getting a bit feminist-y. Donated to BLM, etc. She was also using some buzzwords. Chalked it up to college and didn't think about it.
In January she started to really be cold. I knew we were both busy. She ended up telling me (via text of all things) that she needed space to focus on school and wanted to take a break, as well as focus on bettering us. I begrudgingly obliged and made the effort to be better. I barely heard from her.
About a month in I come to find out shes been seeing a coworker since about 2 weeks after our breakup. Swore up and down she never cheated, which by all evidence seems true. But i had my doubts. She said she was really worried I just wanted her as a housewife baby factory or some shit and wouldnt let her follow her career. I havent really spoken to her since, and have since been with a few hookups, and found another GF who I am happy with.
But the pain persists. Because I just cant fathom someone throwing away that much time and love together because of a combination of me being gloomy and college pumping shit into their head, after I did so much for her in the same situation. When I changed careers for her, changed my life for her. Etc.
But what gets me even more is that now I look at my current GF, and I just keep thinking what if.
What if it happens again? What if I spend all my life and time marrying this woman, moving out of state (current plan) with her and one day its "eh, not really feeling it because you've been in the dumps a bit due to work. Bye". And I cant shake that feeling. Not after my experience. And so here I sit on the shitter at my GF's house because I couldn't keep laying in bed next to her with my mind reeling.
Sorry for rant. I think this is the right thread.
2021 has been a shit year for me. Financial trash, I lost an Aunt, lost a cat young. My fathers cancer progressed. But the sewage icing on the shit cake was that early in feb my GF of 8 1/2 years left me
Not to power lvl, but im 25. I met her when I was 16, she was 15. We dated all thru highschool and college. She always had severe depression, and I spent many, many nights holding her and stopping her from hurting herself, telling her the voices werent real, etc. She grew out of that in early college. It was an extremely loving and compassionate relationship and we fully expected to spend our lives together, had a savings account for a house together (I lived alone while she lived wi her parents) etc. I changed jobs to be more successful and support her and all of my moves regarding my career had her in mind.
Come to mid 2020, and we had minor issues. I was working pretty hard and was bummed out. She was busy with college, we couldn't see eaxh other much and when we did it was sex, movies, food and cuddling wjth the occasional date. Around November we had a talk about it and we promised to be better to each other and focus more. I made the effort and she kinda did too. I planned to propose to her mid 2021.
Keep in mind she went to school for art and had been getting a bit feminist-y. Donated to BLM, etc. She was also using some buzzwords. Chalked it up to college and didn't think about it.
In January she started to really be cold. I knew we were both busy. She ended up telling me (via text of all things) that she needed space to focus on school and wanted to take a break, as well as focus on bettering us. I begrudgingly obliged and made the effort to be better. I barely heard from her.
About a month in I come to find out shes been seeing a coworker since about 2 weeks after our breakup. Swore up and down she never cheated, which by all evidence seems true. But i had my doubts. She said she was really worried I just wanted her as a housewife baby factory or some shit and wouldnt let her follow her career. I havent really spoken to her since, and have since been with a few hookups, and found another GF who I am happy with.
But the pain persists. Because I just cant fathom someone throwing away that much time and love together because of a combination of me being gloomy and college pumping shit into their head, after I did so much for her in the same situation. When I changed careers for her, changed my life for her. Etc.
But what gets me even more is that now I look at my current GF, and I just keep thinking what if.
What if it happens again? What if I spend all my life and time marrying this woman, moving out of state (current plan) with her and one day its "eh, not really feeling it because you've been in the dumps a bit due to work. Bye". And I cant shake that feeling. Not after my experience. And so here I sit on the shitter at my GF's house because I couldn't keep laying in bed next to her with my mind reeling.
Sorry for rant. I think this is the right thread.
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I thought it was pretty clear.
I wouldn't think so either, but they've said so. And what's the word of a libtard coomer?
You can ignore politics, but it won't ignore you. Learned that the hard way.
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Ehm, no. I don't think we live in a time when you can't say "fuck it" to the ongoing discourse in your country and be perfectly fine (believe me, I know). Well, unless you live in some islamic wartorn quasi state, where you will be executed. But hey, could be worse, you could be born female.
Who are "they"? Every member of that community or just a bunch of them? And really what stops you from enjoying it without those fucks? And who are you referring to as "libtard coomer"?
True, but not entirely. Yes, you will be affected by the retarded decisions of your government, however, you can save a lot of strength by ignoring their shouting matches and Special Olympics around them. When it's about to start raining, you don't try to stop the rain, you look for a shelter or an umbrella.
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The people who matter.
I don't like to think I'm ruining things. I don't like to stay where I'm not welcome.
Me.
Think of this as looking for shelter then. Like I said, I know I can't or even should stop the show, so I'll step off the stage for the betters.
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Seriously don't do that dude. It's not like I can actually stop you or anything but do you seriously want to join the faggy little club Richard "Lowtax" Kyanka is in?
Just don't.
As for you though you actually should, just shut the fuck up faggot.
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Yes I meant to quote @Frank West who is someone who really shouldn't off himself.
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That's overgeneralization. If they think you are a "libtard coomer", then they probably didn't matter much to begin with.
Well, don't if it's not true.
No, since because it's raining you want to quit weather as a whole.
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I have severe mental illness but iced coffee and chinese food keeps me alive.
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You're talking to someone who's Antifa in his heart and can't even get basic facts on topics he's passionate about correct. Kyanka is a fucking saint by contrast.
Does that mean they're wrong?
I try not to, but it's so easy to do so.
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Maybe, that's the problem. You are taking things way too emotionally.
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So much self apathy, it's almost like you're trying to convince yourself that you want to kill yourself. I get it, the world sucks. There's no such thing as a happy pill and every day is scarier than the last, life sucks.
My genuine advice? Don't pay attention to politics. Get a girlfriend and a hobby. Cooking is always a fun thing.
Also drink water.
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Most importantly this.
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Possibly, but it's already worked. And that doesnt' mean it's not true.
Even if you don't, they pay attention to you.
Married. Been so for 16 years.
I'm not welcome in them anymore.
Been trying to. It's good while it lasts at least, being able to get a proper New Orleans dish is almost like alchemical sorcery gone RIGHT.
Already do. Over 2 pints of regular drinking water a day. That's in between lemonade, Coke, and skim milk.
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Why the FUCK does the hedgehog make me itchy. What genetic lottery did I lose??