How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[JosephStalin]

This and that here. Had some aggravations, basically things I didn't cause and could do little about, but things are largely subsiding there.

Medical stuff continues. Had eye exam, new glasses coming. More appointments. Seem to have several every month now. The fatigue has improved, not as much, far less often. Keep spreading tasks out to minimize chance of being hit with fatigue if I need to do something important.

Last week learned my pal who'd been let go in early September will start a new job Monday. Meant a lot to hear the news.

A reminder - when you start feeling overwhelmed/crushed/depressed, just take things one day at a time, take matters one issue at a time. When shit starts hitting me try to remember that. With even a little respite can handle all the shit, so I make that respite.

 

[A Grey Cat]

went to the store fore medicine and the shelves where almost bare. I thought I would be far and away from the supply chain issues...boy was I wrong. Still managed to get what i needed but had to pay through the nose for name brand products. They had almost nothing generic store brand left.

 

[Jonah Hill poster]

Even though I’m getting my undergrad certificate later this year, I realized that I’ve been somewhat neglecting my computer programming reference books in the last few days. Due to being in the house mostly this week, I’ve realized that this must end and I’m going back to the basics reading the C programming language.

I’ll probably move up to Visual Basic and .NET programming soon just for memory’s sake. It keeps my mind busy when you’re not too focused on current event matters.

 

[gampboonerisms]

Been drinking a lot more recently. Been thinking about stopping again.
Saw a bum fight today. One dude tackled another straight off his skateboard and beat him until he was crying like a bitch. Apparently, skaterman flashed or drew a knife on him and brawler wasnt taking that shit lol.
Got some new pens, had a nice lunch. Besides the drinking, things have been going ok.

I've decided to use this month to go on no-spend streaks. I want to see how many days I can go without spending so much as a dime on anything.

This sounds like an interesting concept. Hows it going for you? I cant seem to get by without paying for a drink at a vending machine.

 

[0ctober lust]

I've been doing good the past little while, me and my husband have been able to drive further than usual recently because the timing belt in our truck is now finally fixed. Both of us are not as stressed now and also more couple time! I missed getting alot of cuddles and kisses from him.

(picture related, basically how we've been.)

 

[Yamamura]

I recently rewatched Fight Club while the forum was down. It sort of made me revaluate life and everything in a way. Without getting too philosophical I've tried to adopt the way of thinking:

No fear. No distractions. The ability to let that which does not matter truly slide.

It made sense in a weird Taoist/stoic sort of way. To stop getting bothered by the things that you cannot control and stop trying to worry about or achieve the ideal perfect and just let the chips fall where they may. If it happens so be it.

 

[Dick in a Folgers Coffee]

I recently rewatched Fight Club while the forum was down. It sort of made me revaluate life and everything in a way. Without getting too philosophical I've tried to adopt the way of thinking:

It made sense in a weird Taoist/stoic sort of way. To stop getting bothered by the things that you cannot control and stop trying to worry about or achieve the ideal perfect and just let the chips fall where they may. If it happens so be it.

It's a little like the leaves on the river exercise a few MHW I've gone to have suggested. You acknowledge it's there and you let it float away.

 

[$80 Nude Haircut]

This sounds like an interesting concept. Hows it going for you? I cant seem to get by without paying for a drink at a vending machine.

Virtually impossible. I've been doing it for 3 days but everything costs money. Drying things from my freezer & carrying bottled water helps. I've been visiting local gardens, exercising and visiting my local library. Beyond that you have to be a sort of shut-in.

 

[Polarity]

Rent is going way the fuck up this December. By a suspiciously large sum. A slap in the fucking face, considering the deplorable condition of this shithole. Numerous issues that haven't been rectified despite my constant complaining. I won't be able to swing the increase, so I have no choice but to move. That doesn't bother me-I've been wanting to get the fuck out of here for quite some time-but with there being virtually no availability in my area, it's sure to be a headache. I've had it with this shitty ass system. It's all a joke.

When mortgage rates fall, homes become expensive and rents remain expensive. When mortgage rates go up, homes stay expensive and rents become even more expensive.

Hell of a system we have here.

 

[AUTOEXEC2.BAT]

I had a rough work week last week, getting up at 7am, heading straight to work and not coming home until around 8pm.
I was hoping the weekend would be nice. I asked my husband if he wanted to do anything, but he didn't really seem to want to make concrete plans. I suggested maybe going to the national park but he shrugged, didn't come up with anything himself though.
On Saturday I started by doing chores to get them out of the way before I could do something more fun. I made brownies, but undercooked them slightly due to using a 8x8. I felt really bad about this since I'm really insecure about my baking skills. I then spent the afternoon arguing with my husband because I wasn't feeling valued, instead of supporting me though he went off to see friends and didn't come back until after midnight. That coupled with messing up the brownies left me feeling pretty bad. I spent the rest of the night getting high on my own and watching Ancient Aliens (not that I believe that shit but it's hilarious when you're high).

Today was even worse because he again spent the whole afternoon arguing with me and he left to see friends again after I expressed that I'd like to spend time with him and after he said he'd only be gone on Saturday. I've just been in bed since then, doing nothing. I feel awful, I work so hard for the whole week and still manage to find time to get groceries and do the household chores. It would've been nice to spend time with my husband, he knows the weekend is the only time I'm actually available.. Maybe I'm being too demanding.

I'm still exhausted, and I'll probably take tomorrow off to hopefully do something fun, I dont know what yet.

 

[Vingle]

I feel a bit weird now.
The last few days, I've been stomping food down my stomach. As I had a little panic over going down a little in weight. I do feel better than the first day I began my force feeding. Still bloated af though.
Anyway, only slept about 2 hours this night. Part of it has to do with me waiting for a package in the mail, which didn't come of course. Which led to me not falling asleep again.
Did chat with customer support at the mail too, the cunt gave me textbook answer on how my package is sent. When I asked about if they have registered an attempt at delivery this morning. Because they have access to more tracking information there, than what a private person has. Didn't fucking bother to answer the wannabe chatbot.

 

[Starscreams Cape]

Gotta say that I really missed this place. Now that we're sort of (knock on wood) stable I am pretty happy.

 

[soft breathing]

I'm tired of people and the permanent drama they bring into my life.
Maybe I just attract the weirdos. I don't know.

It's weird, but I'm glad the farms are back. It's the only place where interacting with people and reading what people have to say doesn't drain me.

 

[Spl00gies]

 

[Smaug's Smokey Hole 2]

I've been doing good except I forgot a day which is worrisome, we have the dementia in our family and whenever I blank on the PIN for a device or card I am prepared to jump in front of a train. I will never experience a natural death, I hope, and that's a good thing!

Got a call from a lady that was selling an identity protection kind of service and it was embarrassing how openly the flowchart worked so I messed with her a bit, if it wasn't so blatant and more more human I might have gone for their service.

 

[Neurotypical Mantis]

i got stuck in the middle of drama between a lolcow and her a-logs, and for the first time in my life i was able to say "this isn't worth my time, this is your guys's drama battle" and turned off the phone to live free of mental illness.
neuro mantis character arc time.

 

[PinstripeLuns]

I really sympathize with guys nowadays.
Especially the white males as they have been blamed on the cause of society's ills.

Men are awesome, and should be supported.
Guys rock.

Handmaiden.

Anyways. Moved into news digs and keep losing track of time. Can't remember when I last ate and can't tell if I'm hungry or bored. I keep applying for new jobs daily but no bites yet. Hoping things work out.

 

[Ughubughughughughughghlug]

Winning a really big award in my program (like, best in my group) on a really fortuitous day when I was having a bad day up to that point

 

[Nikes_JustDoIt]

Just happy to be finally back on the farms.

 

[Sundae]

Feeling down right now. Had to have my dog put down today. She was 12 years old, took her to the vet for a check-up, while they were x-raying her they found that she had a tumor in her intestines that had spread to her lungs. It was decided that putting her down would be the humane option, so we went with that.

I hate that she's gone, but at least she didn't suffer. At least I have the memories.

Hug your pets, kiwis, take care of them and enjoy every moment you can with them.