How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

Super depressed, I hate where I live because I have no friends but at the same time my friends who live decently far away invite me to cool stuff I have to make an effort to get to and have to make an effort to make schedules work.

Where I live is miserable for meeting new people. There's not a lot of people my age, there's not a lot to do, and it's basically a sub-urban hell. Even worse is people seem to lack consistency, so for example there aren't many regulars at the gym. What do people do for fun? There's a couple summer activities that are actually nice, but for the most part people don't go out much, lots of hard drug use, and some people make the travel work.
 
Feeling pretty great actually. Money's good. Planning a two-week vacation on a beach in a few months. Making fantastic progress getting back into shape, estimating another three months until I'm in a really good spot. Doing some baking for the holidays and getting to see parts of the family who don't annoy me. Just had a relaxing massage over the weekend.
 
Recently I have made the decision to go to schooling at a community college. My major? Information Technology. (i.e. The A+, Network+, Security+ prep and learning Linux and shit.) It's most likely going to be a 6 or 8 month commitment since I'm pursuing a Certificate of Achievement, which hopefully is better than nothing. On top of that I've been painfully trying to learn Python as well.
 
I've been feeling down too. Tried reading some of the old cartoon network comics DC put out a decade ago on readcomiconline (which makes me wonder why I still buy physical printed comics at all) tried watching a movie I liked, even tried to remind myself things can only go up from here.


Sometimes I feel like I should go crawl back into that basement with the bucket toilet, laundry sink, and mobile hot spot on my phone the only source of internet. I didn't ask to be here and sometimes I feel like I don't deserve it. I feel like what I deserve is to live like a troll (a mythological one) in some hole for being such an irresponsible fool. It's my cross to bear and I'm just passing it off to others.
 
First holiday with a newborn. It’s cool, love her so much and am happy to have birthed her. Dudes I am so exhausted holy shit. Never have had such a small amount of sleep before. It’s gonna be a Chinese takeout day with me baby and daddy. Her grandma will visit in the morning and bring coffee tho so that’s nice. 2 hours of sleep is what I’m going off of right now. Happy Thanksgiving lads n ladettes!
 
I broke my special Joffreys coffee mug that I bought when I went to Florida a few years back. I really want to replace it but It is no longer listed on their website and the only one I can find is on ebay… and will cost me about £70 plus import. :(

On a positive note, I am almost a week into my new weight loss plan. I have lost 3lbs already and I managed to jog for 10 minutes straight… which after not having done any form of running etc for years after an injury (and also currently being the fattest I have ever been) I am actually pretty chuffed about!
 
I'm hoping for better days soon. Just found out I have a heart condition and have to get (unrelated) surgery in a few days. I dont think it'll be too major but I'm pretty nervous and feeling alone.

Positive note: still have a 4.0 after one year in college! I never thought I'd have the opportunity to go at all, so that's pretty cool. It feels like a decent accomplishment.
 
Doing pretty well.

After almost a year of working out regularly and eating both healthier and more in general, I've gained twenty pounds and am currently over 170. Had to get new pants as my old ones were too tight on me.

I also got to spend time with my sister's family during Thanksgiving. I pretty much spent all day playing with my soon to be five year old niece and loved every minute of it. The little girl is pretty much one of the greatest joys in my life.
 
I went to a friends place yesterday. Wanted to wait until I got my new jeans, as the one I have is a bit too tight. But he asked me, so I went anyway.

Felt like the alcohol had less of a impact of me now and I'm not tired now the day after. Since duh, I'm bigger now.
Anyway, the night bus was packed and I felt disgusted by all of these normies. So yea, not thinking I'm going out anytime soon again.
 
I’m currently in my last semester of University and I’m feeling really stressed. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel yet I still have a couple huge assignments plus my final exams to get to it. One thing I’ve noticed about myself is that when I’m really stressed I compulsively drink lots of water... Anyways I’m just really looking forward to being done school and starting the next chapter of my life.
 
I have the flu or some kind of bug right now. I've definitely felt worse before but it's still really annoying. My fever has gone down though so I hope that means I'm on the mend. I have a really annoying dry cough though. I would rather not miss work tomorrow but if I am still sick I think it's shitty to go in and spread my disease.
 
Of course, I received the jeans I talked about in the last post, today. That's typical.
 
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