How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

I'm in somewhat of a post-Christmas malaise in which I find myself tired but not sleepy. While I had a wonderful Christmas with family and greatly enjoy the time off, the world seems to come to a bit of a standstill and it really throws me off of my routine. Absolutely nothing is quite normal and I become restless in the bizarre Christmas timewarp as I wait for things to return to normalcy. Maddeningly, ever so slowly. It's a feeling that I find to be very much unique to Christmas, and without fail is an annual visitor of mine that comes home for the holidays.

Thankfully, it does give me a bit of time to reflect on our Lord and Savior. I'm always a bit disappointed in myself that I'm part of the societal problem to the extent that I play into the consumerist and secular aspects of Christmas. I probably spend a bit more on loved ones than is necessary and focus a bit too much on Santa and candy canes and lights as opposed to Jesus. At the same time, I'm grateful for the thought to help me keep in mind the true meaning of the holiest of all days, to do better, and that I'm forgiven for my shortcomings on the matter.
 
The holidays are always rough, but I’m holding up pretty well.

Just wanted to pop in and wish all my friendly farmers a Merry Christmas, (((Happy Hanukkah))), festive Kwanzaa, a mighty Festivus or whatever the hell else I can’t be assed to list.

Wishing you and yours all the best.
 
this was the 1st christmas in a long time that wasnt fraught with arguing and overall depression, so i am very thankful for this. the kid is holding his own, everyone got nice presents, my husband and i really talked things out..it was good.
i hope each and every one of you had a good christmas, and i hope we all have an even better new years! :heart-full:
 
feel very uncertain about next year, i am not motivated or have the energy to really change or adapt to radical change anymore and feel indiferent towards dying. I've been more relaxed than usual because i kinda don't care about anything anymore and worrying is kinda pointless and too late for most things that usually worry me, just existing shouldn't feel like such a burden all the time.
 
Finishing up a 3 year legal matter against some bad.... bad.... people...
Though I could not pull down The Fist of an Angry God on them...
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I'm mostly satisfied with the results. Just remember...
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Yea... I did something good. :woo:
 
It's been rough. Caught the cold going around the UK and was in bed for about three days and the entire family was comatose for about a week. Mom's mercifully recovering from Belle's Palsy but it looks like we're having a somewhat limited Christmas this year thanks to just how sick we've all been.
Same. Struck down Christmas day, though in retrospect it was probably building up to five days prior. End of third day here, I feel like I'm only just turning the corner. Very annoying, as my Christmas break has been me mostly lying in bed like a spastic retard so far. By the time I'm fully righted, it'll be back to work...

Browsing apartments in my city again, and it's no less bleak than it was 6 months ago. Utter shitboxes going for prices that would have been dystopian and laughable even two years ago. I'm gonna have to make the move at some point as I want to put this current property on the market. Even in the short term, that's a sizeable portion of income I don't look forward to setting alight and throwing down the swanny.
 
I've had a good week. Taking some time off work, spending time with family I don't necessarily like that much but don't see very often. I'm surrounded by people addicted to their own misery. It's always good to take stock of things and not let people like that draw you in. Get outside. Get some fresh air. Let some sunlight in your eyes. Walk a few miles every day. You'd be surprised at how much little things help.
 
Had a very nice Christmas. Three day weekend coming up, and another date next Friday.

I dropped $250 on one of those massage guns, because my back and neck have become stiff as a tree trunk from jockeying a desk.

Worth every penny. I've jackhammered out years' worth of muscle knots. I feel awesome.
 
I just quit all my streaming services and I feel great doing so. From now on its the high seas all the way for me. Too bad HBO already took 30 bucks from me. Oh well I only wish I had done this last might before that happened.

Either way it feels very liberating no longer having to worry about being charged for movies and TV anymore. I think I'm gonna go a enjoy the unseasonably nice weather for a bit.
 
I had to pick up something from Walmart and I saw the robotic janitor cleaning the floors. I had a nice chuckle. Tick tick Jannies your time is coming.
 
Also forgot to mention my rent is paid up for the month of January with credit for February. Also one less thing to worry about.....for now.
 
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