How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Cultured Xeno]

I am a little concerned with the state of education and how much people know here in the U.S.

I was going through checkout today and the cashier said "Thank you for your service". I told her I am not in the military and asked why she thought that. She pointed to my shirt (picture below).

I would like to think that people would at least know which countries the U.S fought in WW2. I am convinced that people wouldn't know what a swastika is if Nazi wasn't the go to term for someone you don't like.

 

[Inafune Fanfiction]

Found that motivation waxes and wanes when it comes to personal projects. Some days I make progress in leaps and bounds and others I don't feel like doing anything at all. So I just do 1 or 2 small additions to make some kind of progress that day. Then I still feel disappointed that I didn't do more after bug fixing what I just made.

 

[Dona Morte]

Been finding family all over the world.
On one hand more people to talk to on the other do I really want to involve mysef with drama with some aunt from Pakistan?
Meanwhile closer family blames me for the deteriorating relationship with mom even after this woman is not on this world anymore.
Sometimes I cannot win.

 

[TexNash]

Doing well enough. Wishing C\2022 E3 (ZTF) would swing around and smash into Earth, but otherwise five by five.

 

[Napoleon Bonerfart]

I read a lovely Sonic the Hedgehog fanfic in which Shadow calls the National Childhood Development Hotline for BDSM guidelines so not to trigger Tail's repressed memories of childhood abuse.

 

[Arianne Chan]

I feel good, i don't have any stupid homework to do anymore, i can rest now

 

[Rome's rightful successor]

I feel ok, been having a sore back for the past day or two though.

 

[Muu]

Was told that it's extremely likely that I have ASD and ADHD, but that it will be at least two years until I can get diagnosed (and thereby discuss treatment options).

You're on the farms so mystery solved.

But I want to get ADHD test myself for pisce of mind but the waiting for what could be nothing is stopping me.

I just want a reason for the way that I am.

 

[A Grey Cat]

I feel good, i don't have any stupid homework to do anymore, i can rest now

I...really hope you're in college with homework...or at the very least a high school senior.


Personally I feel great since I left streaming I've found a few sites that offer plenty of movies and TV. Especially since paid services are removing content anyways.

 

[Arianne Chan]

I...really hope you're in college with homework...or at the very least a high school senior.


Personally I feel great since I left streaming I've found a few sites that offer plenty of movies and TV. Especially since paid services are removing content anyways.

I'm in college

 

[ShiftyBoi]

I feel okay. Tomorrow I'm going to hang out with my friend I haven't hung out with in a while. Excited for that.

Soon I have to go back to my old college job, where I can't draw, or have a moments peace of mind.

College is sapping all the joy out of drawing. But if I'm not assigned something I don't have any motivation to do it.
Reminds me of this scene from Chulip.

I know we're all supposed to get a job and stuff, but when your craft is your only hope of employment, it really sucks all the joy out of it.

 

[MerriedxReldnahc]

I've had a cold for over a week, my town just got wrecked with a flood, expecting to be hit with bomb cyclone pt 2, BUT I am making pulled pork today so I'm happy

 

[Sexy Senior Citizen]

I'm doing pretty okay, thanks for asking.

 

[Ughubughughughughughghlug]

I am a little concerned with the state of education and how much people know here in the U.S.

I was going through checkout today and the cashier said "Thank you for your service". I told her I am not in the military and asked why she thought that. She pointed to my shirt (picture below).

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I would like to think that people would at least know which countries the U.S fought in WW2. I am convinced that people wouldn't know what a swastika is if Nazi wasn't the go to term for someone you don't like.

The woman might have not known one bit of chink gobbledy gook from another and thought it had something to do with Vietnam. She should have kicked your ass for wearing treasonous Japshit.

 

[Abella]

I’m ready for the baby to get here and to get done with school.

 

[Wormy]

 

[Foltest]

Been sick the whole week.
Have fallen behind on my studies and this has been an important week for assigment.
fuck.

 

[Shadfan666xxx000]

I've found myself turning to prayer more recently and it has been therapeutic. More therapeutic than anything else I've tried to find for myself in the past 2 years. I've found myself breaking down inside and turning all of the rants and insults into prayer and it works very well. I'll never be a good christian (I suspect some of the things I wish for will be fulfilled by the devil before Jesus has a thought to it) but all the pleas for sex, alcohol and the curses I want cast on my enemies and obstacles feels good, if only because I can admit my weakness and darker thoughts without it feeling like a total waste of my breath.

 

[Wormy]

I'm getting progressively drunk, playing a depressing classic rock record, and have a loaded shotgun. Tonight's either going to be really sad, or really sad AND interesting.

 

[Ughubughughughughughghlug]

I've found myself turning to prayer more recently and it has been therapeutic. More therapeutic than anything else I've tried to find for myself in the past 2 years. I've found myself breaking down inside and turning all of the rants and insults into prayer and it works very well. I'll never be a good christian (I suspect some of the things I wish for will be fulfilled by the devil before Jesus has a thought to it) but all the pleas for sex, alcohol and the curses I want cast on my enemies and obstacles feels good, if only because I can admit my weakness and darker thoughts without it feeling like a total waste of my breath.

Depending on how you pray it can pretty much be the same as therapy. I don't care about religious formalities, so I often pray lounging in front of my shrine (crucifixes and a painting of Jesus I got from a neighbor), legs outstretched and back against a cabinet. My prayers tend to be structured as thanksgiving, then penitence, then supplication. But if there's an issue I might monologue about it at length. One day I realized that it was basically a one-sided therapy session, because when talking in that manner I'd tend to talk myself into admitting things about my internal state, having revelations, etc.


Since getting back to school from Winter break I've felt myself meltdown. I went on antidepressants about two months ago. Seemed to work, but stuff always seems to work for a few weeks before it stops working. I found over the break that I was feeling less anger and anxiety, but I was feeling a lot more deep sadness. But in general I was pleased to be home. Now I feel the deep sadness mainly, except when playing games, and even when walking around campus or in a restaurant (out to eat) I'll feel so sad that it's like I can barely move. Today I slept in until 1 PM, and I feel little desire to do anything but just play games and talk about games. Before I got my gaming desktop this Christmas I couldn't really play (only had a bad laptop), so a large chunk of it is just restarting a hobby, but I can tell there is a sharp escapist aspect to it, and my older routines, like reading, no longer interest me at all. And I feel a longing to give up on my career and move back home, even if it was to just work in a bank or as a teacher and live with my parents.