How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

My grandmother passed this morning. 96 years old, hell of a run. Full life, got to see her children and grandchildren grow up, and even lived to see the early years of some great-grandchildren. She'd been ailing for some time, but after beating the coof back around Thanksgiving, her body was just spent. All done. She wasn't conscious when she went, and she wasn't in pain, so I suppose I can be thankful for that. And I got to talk to her on the phone last week. But I'm still depressed.
 
Having my first drink in two weeks. Since I drink a lot in a sitting when I drink, I figured I'd better take a break for the sake of my liver. Luckily, while I'm happy to have a drink again, I didn't get alcohol cravings while I wasn't drinking, so at least I'm not a complete alcoholic.

Studying for my next test. It's much shorter than my last one. Once I've got my qualification I'll probably wait table for a few months in the summer before going back to study for the next level of qualifications. Living with my parents gives me more time to study since I don't have to get a job and pay rent, but I still want to give back a bit when I have time to, and since I'm planning on taking a short break between courses, I figure I should at least try to earn my keep.
 
I have all my books, all my comics, all my video games including the ones downloaded off my console, I have the whole internet to watch whatever tv and movies I want and even with that I still have a box of dvds/blu rays to watch all of which are things that I thought were lost forever when I moved out. Yet I feel...disinterested in all of that. I tried reading and I managed to get through one Lovecraft story, I started playing that Indiana Jones game from 2003 (which I wanted and loved when I finally did get it back than.) but lost interest then looked at the games in my console library and didn't feel like playing any of them.


Now I'm here in the how you doing thread posting about it. I'm not saying I feel depressed or even bored just...disinterested in things. Like something just doesn't feel right.


Well tomorrow's my day off and aside laundry and cleaning the apartment not much to do but take it easy.



Also my stomach hurts, I think its the aspirin.
 
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Now I'm here in the how you doing thread posting about it. I'm not saying I feel depressed or even bored just...disinterested in things. Like something just doesn't feel right.
Well tomorrow's my day off and aside laundry and cleaning the apartment not much to do but take it easy.
Clean the apartment today, build from grouchy to pro-level cleaning. Not just washing up. Sweep twice, vaccuum twice, mop twice, give every knob a handle a scrub.
Tomorrow will be a truly free day, you will wake up happy knowing that you no longer have to do anything of that shit and you should try to capitalize on that moment and go outside.
 
New co-worker's a goddamn manchild, and he's technically not done anything wrong that I can use to foist him on someone else. I guess I'm stuck fielding his dumb questions about Chinese cartoons for a while.
 
Husband and I are both sick and it's really hard for me to rest when I need to because I'm used to managing a household with a bunch of young children and I know all too well how quickly tasks build up when you don't take care of them as soon as they become a concern. I get frazzled whenever we're both sick because I have to choose between impeding my healing process by attending to all cleaning and most parenting duties as usual or letting things fall off for a few days so I can rest and then having an amount of work that seems insurmountable once I'm better. reeeeeeeeeee soup will cure me
 
Husband and I are both sick and it's really hard for me to rest when I need to because I'm used to managing a household with a bunch of young children and I know all too well how quickly tasks build up when you don't take care of them as soon as they become a concern. I get frazzled whenever we're both sick because I have to choose between impeding my healing process by attending to all cleaning and most parenting duties as usual or letting things fall off for a few days so I can rest and then having an amount of work that seems insurmountable once I'm better. reeeeeeeeeee soup will cure me
How old/big are the children? Can you trap them under a laundry basket? Do you own a Nintendo Switch? You can slide it in there when they're trapped...
 
How old/big are the children? Can you trap them under a laundry basket? Do you own a Nintendo Switch? You can slide it in there when they're trapped...
Good advice, but they're all under school age and at different life stages and too small to be into video games so it's a lot to manage. My MIL is an angel and offered to take the big kids for a sleepover though, so thankfully for youngest Flutz, the laundry basket will remain in the bedroom.
 
Feeling better since last time. Just checked my federal refund and if all goes well it should be in the day before next week's payday. Sure I'll still have rent and my internet bill to pay off but I'm gonna use the windfall (again assuming all goes well and it arrives on time) to start a nest egg.

No more splurging it on myself but I'm gonna buckle down and start saving with it.....well ok maybe I'll have a little fun with half of it but the smaller half....maybe.
 
I'm still sick and now my snot is spidermaning, You know how he shoots webs? You know how in the first movie he couldn't really control it? Well, I woke up, sat up, blew my nose and the snot ricocheted off the tissue down to my crotch and it looked like a spiderman thing. Lesson learned, keep it tighter under the nose. Later that day I held the tissue tight to prevent that, blew my nose, the snot ricocheted up into my hair. Good times.
 
PL and I apologize for it:

My best friend from high school called me yesterday and told me that her brother had been tragically killed in a car accident. He was young, brilliant and the world is now a little more dim due to his passing. My heart breaks for her and her parents. I have had to bury a sibling and much like how my love for them became a part of me so did the grief and sorrow carve itself into the foundation of my soul, it never fades entirely. I hate the she has to go through this pain, I hate that the world and fate can seem so cold and meaningless.....
 
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