Went off on my Mom while texting, little dispute about something I did at work, and now I am dreading how I'm going to face up to it. I just want to be home.
I just feel like my life is collapsing around me and it's my own fault. I came up with this loophole, I realized that I don't technically have to pass any of my classes as long as I just do the bare minimum of my job and fulfill a few other obligations. The obvious downside of this ballsy strategy is if my overlords say "no, just because it confirms to the official regulations that doesn't mean you can just bugger off and stop showing up, you're out of here." But I feel like I'm completely shot and can't take any more of class, even if it's a tiny bit of work compared to what I used to do, and my resentment is so high, I need out of here but I don't have any kind of job set up. I had struggled with my feelings here for like a year and a half, and I didn't even like it before then, but since Winter ended the spirit in me has just been snuffed out like a candle, the simple act of walking across that campus feels like I'm weighed down with chains and the things I used to do don't interest me.
