How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Agarathium1066]

Lost an animal who I've lived with for over a decade. He was losing control of his body, in pain, and had begun hiding out from everyone and everything else. So it was clearly time but its still draining and sad. He's badly missed.

 

[AnOminous]

It's hard to get published. I'd try submitting it to multiple editors and get more feedback. You don't want to rely on the advice on one person.

You also might want to take some of the advice and improve it. Disregard anything that's obviously just off-base but give it some thought.

 

[Overcast]

That's seriously the best thing you can get as a writer. It stings, but you won't know what flaws to work on without it. It's sort of why fanfic writing (while it may be good to get in practice) is really ultimately terrible for your development, because most fanfic sites are a ludicrous hugbox where people just melt down when criticized about anything.

Oh definitely. Honestly, I was definitely expecting to get critiqued for my technical skills (which I still need to work on), and I knew the profesional world of writing wouldn't mess around. (Most of the time) I just wasn't expecting the editor I had to be so... frustrated sounding? It's almost like Gordon Ramsey scolding you for almost sending out raw meat. It stings quite a bit, but at the end of the day, you know he is right.

Since I last posted, I reflected a bit on the critique and realized that the direction I was taking the story probably wasn't the best way for it to go. I was going for something more experimental and I think the editor probably wasn't realizing what I was trying to do. As some of the problems he had were actually intentional on my part. If he did, he certainly didn't like it. Probably didn't help my technical skills got in the way too.

I realized that the way my story is either

A. Too ambitious for my current skill level.

or B. Interesting from a writer's perspective, but probably not palatable for a reading audience.

I have noticed that the stuff he didn't really cover or critique too much happened to be my favorite parts of my story. So, I'm thinking of just doing the whole thing over and taking a more simple approach focusing entirely on those aspects. Which is fine, I realize I'm still far away from publishing anything and I need to practice more. And just writing something regardless if you're planning on publishing or not is fairly relaxing for me.

It's hard to get published. I'd try submitting it to multiple editors and get more feedback. You don't want to rely on the advice on one person.

I would, but editors aren't cheap. Or at least this one wasn't.

 

[KID NAMED SCHWARMAPUNK]

I really wish my shithole of a country fires off the nukes already...

 

[Stan]

Been working on a book for the past few months and sent it to an editor. Got his evaluation a couple days and he absolutely tore it to shreds.

I guess it's to be expected when writing, but I can't help but feel incredibly discouraged and frustrated with myself.

Don’t be, it’s hard enough to get people to read ones writing and harder still that they paid enough attention to roast you.

If he did that he must believe the work has potential to become better. You just need to try again; maybe that means writing a new story or maybe that means fixing up your old one.

 

[Christmas Leftover]

I guess it's to be expected when writing, but I can't help but feel incredibly discouraged and frustrated with myself.

Years ago I won a state writing competition with a collection of short stories and used that to ease my way into a publishing deal. I was too young and had high expectations so was VERY disappointed to receive so many no's. When a editor said yes and published my novel I was already depressed thinking how stupid and incompetent I was. Never wrote anything again and regret it. It takes more than months, keep writing.

Lost an animal who I've lived with for over a decade.

I'm sorry for your loss.

One of my parents is a narcissist that collects pets like they are things, can't explain how soul crushing it is to be a child seeing your friends dying from neglect being unable to do anything about it. When I left home I promised to never get a pet because the trauma and pain of having one needing care would make me literally go insane.

 

[thebigjoel]

Checkpoint 4/20/2023

My birthday has come around once again. Got myself some books and a nice microphone. If all else fails, at least I'm alive and have a memelord-esque birthday.

 

[Betonhaus]

i had gotten some birthday money last week and used it for a really nice watch for special occasions, but now that I have it I'm not really vibing with it so I'm going to return it as the money could be better used elsewhere.

 

[AnOminous]

I have been operating in absolute retard mode this entire week and can't seem to do anything without fucking it up royally.

(Yeah yeah I know what's new.)

 

[TIM4EUS]

OCD is fucking me up lately, it was hard to even write this

 

[Yamamura]

It's almost Friday and I'm looking forward to hiking out to my secluded spot to have a not Bud Light and watch the sunset by the lake after work.

 

[Stan]

Today was a nice day. I wish I could have gotten outside more. Work was easy. I took my dog for a walk after dinner. I’m worried about my friend though. He says he’s started to cut himself again: and I’m remote so there’s not much I can do but pray on it and try to be supportive on Discord.

The high point of my day was probably loading up the food pantry bin with four boxes of brownie mix and two cans of store brand Nutella. The low point was when I found out the liquor store didn’t have my preferred brand of wine back in stock yet.

 

[Nikes_JustDoIt]

Pretty happy my school semester is done hooray, however, it's either a misentering of my program or trying to get more cash out of me I've one class to do over the summer before I finally graduate.

 

[thebigjoel]

Today was a nice day. I wish I could have gotten outside more. Work was easy. I took my dog for a walk after dinner. I’m worried about my friend though. He says he’s started to cut himself again: and I’m remote so there’s not much I can do but pray on it and try to be supportive on Discord.

The high point of my day was probably loading up the food pantry bin with four boxes of brownie mix and two cans of store brand Nutella. The low point was when I found out the liquor store didn’t have my preferred brand of wine back in stock yet.

Always be sure to appreciate the smaller things in life. For some, it's all they got. Sorry to hear about your friend, just make sure you're there whenever he needs you, and be sure to stay positive. Giving up is the worst you can do.

 

[conodont]

I have encountered levels of mental retardation so high that the vast majority of Kiwi Farms looks like pondering intellectuals in comparison

 

[Mesh Gear Fox]

OCD is fucking me up lately, it was hard to even write this

I feel your pain. I hate how all these people make OCD sound like some quirky thing, but it fucking sucks. It gets so bad sometimes its debilitating. Nothing quirky or fun about that.

 

[ForgedBlades]

Mom was hospitalized overnight due to stroke symptoms. Thankfully all the tests came back clean and the symptoms subsided after she was admitted. I guess they think it was related to her chronic headache problems. Such a goddamn miserable feeling being five hours away when stuff like that goes down. All day I've been trying to come to the grips with the fact that my parents are in their mid-60s and sooner rather than later I'm likely going to have to deal with these types of situations regularly. Fuck death.

 

[Mesh Gear Fox]

Mom was hospitalized overnight due to stroke symptoms.

Mesh Mom just had a TIA (mini-stroke) and spent a few days in the hospital. She's been having so many health problems lately. It's so difficult watching your parents grow old and frail. Mine are in their 70s now and it scares me knowing they won't be around much longer.

 

[Betonhaus]

Books 2 and 3 of the series I wanted came in, but I realized I accidentally bought a paperback instead of a hardcover for book 3. Since hardcovers on Amazon are over $250 new I traweled eBay more carefully this time and nabbed on for $30.

I should've been paying closer attention to this series as I loved the first book as if I had been buying them from Amazon as they came out the new copies would only be $30 each and not hundreds. I did get book 4 for a good price though.

 

[Stan]

Mesh Mom just had a TIA (mini-stroke) and spent a few days in the hospital. She's been having so many health problems lately. It's so difficult watching your parents grow old and frail. Mine are in their 70s now and it scares me knowing they won't be around much longer.

My grandma is in this same position; we talk about her health and I’m always getting news like “don’t be alarmed, but she has symptoms of vertigo and the doctors think she could have a heart attack if they don’t keep her for observation over the weekend and change her meds.” She used to love to sew, but between macular degeneration and the vertigo she can’t.

She’s 85 but it still feels too soon for this to be the end of her story. Her own mom made it past 100 dammit! Sometimes I feel scared to talk to her because it reminds me of the impending loss… what dysfunctional anticipatory grief that is, avoiding her because I’m afraid she will die soon. I’m sure I’ll regret it in years to come.