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Welcome to the world of insomnia mah brutha. Sucks, doesn't it?
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Without my 50 mg of melatonin, 150 mg of OTC sleeping pills, 8 bags of chamomile tea, and a high-velocity fan blowing on me and producing sweet white noise, I wouldn't be able to sleep at all. I do this every night too.
I know that's fucked up and horrifying, but that's my reality. Please don't end up like me. If you're already like that, then like @AnOminous said welcome to the club.
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My personal preference is pink noise. Sleep is still nearly impossible. I like (actually not) how being asleep, even in dreams, is so much like being awake.
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When my posting gets weird, I'm either wineposting or insomniaposting. I have a natural tendency towards the late hours of the night. When the weather is nice sometimes I wander around in the dark.
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Until you mentioned it, I had no idea pink noise was a thing. Thanks for sharing that! I might try it sometime.
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I really don't wanna turn into one of those antiwork idiots, but the crushing existential dread of having to come back to my job on monday is making it very tempting
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I think you just have to enjoy the moment and try new things, man. Marvel movies aren't deep, but they're fun. Hanging out with friends and family in cool restaurants and bars, or even dives, is fun. Socializing is about shared experience, but you have to be open to what other people bring to the table, even when it's wildly outside your experience.
You can have a friend who the basis of your friendship is just running or the gym. You can join a D&D group. You can volunteer at a soup kitchen. There are a lot of avenues to socialize.
As for how I am doing: Hot. My bed gets so hot at night. Also I am looking forward to a run in the morning followed by a blunt. I am positively rubbing my hands together Mr. Burns style at the thought.
Geddy Lee's Fee and See
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I'm genuinely looking to settle down soon, but I have no idea where to start. Dating apps are a no go if you want a lasting relationship, in-person clubs don't exist or don't contain any women at all. Church girls are cute, but they seem you have no real drive or ambition in life, which I find very unattractive (mind I'm not talking about girlbossing it. I'm just talking about how they don't seem to have any real hobbies or interests), plus I doubt that we'd have much in common past our faith School doesn't really work since I don't want to entangle my education/work with my personal life.
It's been this way for awhile now and while I am feeling generally good, there's that existential ache of just wanting a woman in your life who has similar values and goals in life, who understands, supports and loves you just as much as you wish to understand, support and love her and generally is as good of a friend as a lover. I am so tired at this point.
Literally the only thing I can think of is to pray about it, but even then I kinda wonder what the point of that is, since I feel that I've been praying for me to meet some woman like that for awhile. It's like that song Heartless Scat by Ningen-Isu: I've been single for too long. I could manage to go through high school and college without bothering to date just because in both of those periods of my life, I had a close small circle of friends to keep ourselves company and do fun shit with. Now that I'm getting close to 30, my friends and I have moved and my social circle has shrunk drastically, I'm really starting to feel that desire for female companionship and I'm starting to regret not doing it sooner.
Apologies if this is TMI. I just needed to vent a bit.
Edit: Typo and the title to that song was wrong. Also added a link to it.
It's been this way for awhile now and while I am feeling generally good, there's that existential ache of just wanting a woman in your life who has similar values and goals in life, who understands, supports and loves you just as much as you wish to understand, support and love her and generally is as good of a friend as a lover. I am so tired at this point.
Literally the only thing I can think of is to pray about it, but even then I kinda wonder what the point of that is, since I feel that I've been praying for me to meet some woman like that for awhile. It's like that song Heartless Scat by Ningen-Isu: I've been single for too long. I could manage to go through high school and college without bothering to date just because in both of those periods of my life, I had a close small circle of friends to keep ourselves company and do fun shit with. Now that I'm getting close to 30, my friends and I have moved and my social circle has shrunk drastically, I'm really starting to feel that desire for female companionship and I'm starting to regret not doing it sooner.
Apologies if this is TMI. I just needed to vent a bit.
Edit: Typo and the title to that song was wrong. Also added a link to it.
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Marvel movies are cringe, not fun. They're completely predictable, are made to sell toys, and are full of politically-correct faggotry and, well, they reinforce the rest of our horrible pop culture.
I've been to bars. Nobody says anything of value. Most millennials that voice an opinion do so comfortably because it's woke. You can get thrown out of bars now for being un-PC. Anyway, people all congregate in their little groups these days and nobody wants to socialize with a stranger, let alone a man--they're there for women. There really aren't that many avenues as you think, especially if you're trying to avoid the worst parts of today's world.
Most natural thing to vent about in the world. Unfortunately, there's little value in the modern woman to make the search worth it. They truly are vapid animals, by and large.
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I had bad bouts of it before, non-drug related, but it's been a while since it was this bad. I ended up dozing off at around 10AM, and now i feel like a truck rolled over me, plans for the day are fucked. I had shitty sleep as long as i can remember, most probably not helped by drinking my life away for most of my young adult life. I seldom drink now but no matter how little i imbibe, normal sleeping becomes impossible.
I got tinnitus on both ears, so loud that even the doctors i visited in the past commented on it after measuring it (i remember being surprised that it was possible to do that, they put some big ass microphone thing in your ear) and white noise has been my faithful companion for more than a decade. I don't depend on it as much as i used to, most of the time i can sleep just fine without it now, but it took ages to get to this point. Melatonin did fuck all for me, though.
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I'll take the mention of Ningen Isu to vent a tiny bit:
My best buddy has been trying to get me into Ningen Isu, but I just can't. Everything I see about them, especially that video @Geddy Lee's Fee and See posted, looks and sounds like something someone would do to parody that genre of music.
I can't bring myself to tell him "sorry bro it fucking sucks"
My best buddy has been trying to get me into Ningen Isu, but I just can't. Everything I see about them, especially that video @Geddy Lee's Fee and See posted, looks and sounds like something someone would do to parody that genre of music.
I can't bring myself to tell him "sorry bro it fucking sucks"
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A few ways. One way is to be an autistic who craves routine and eats at the same local establishments, to the point where people recognize you, it's also good for getting the hookup on food and all that.
If you have interests (sports, vidya, card games, music, comedy, etc.), actually go out of your way to find places and events that cater to these interests, though in this situation, I would bring a previously acquired friend, in case stuff doesn't work out or the event is lame.
I also found a couple coworkers that I don't mind hanging out with outside of a work setting, I've gone to parties and bars with them and found that I actually enjoy spending time with them, and then you just meet people through people. You can argue that its not true everlasting friendship (TM) or whatever, but honestly, it's made it easier to get out and touch grass more.
It may not be the answer you want to hear, but dumbasses are an inevitability, and they always have been. Part of navigating the social world is sorting through people who you jive with and don't, but I would also be careful in dismissing people right off the bat; many cool people I've met seemed bland or retarded initially. When I used to party (hard), the dude's house I would hang out at was like this "roulette wheel", where you didn't know what kind of individual you would get. You'd meet some assholes for sure, but everyone now and then you would make a connection with a person over similar interests. Don't know if I would recommend partying too hard, especially to an seeming introvert, such as yourself lol.
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Melatonin will do nothing for more severe insomnia, but less is more. I only take a small nibble of liquid melatonin.
I'm sort of happy that I made a small increase on my leg press today. Think I took more reps than normal at the squats. More like perfecting the form until I'm ready to increase the weight.
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I don't care. I just do it because I'm bored. At the very least I get some background noise.
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I only really like that song. They're the definition of alright at best. I think Boris and X Japan are better Japanese metal bands in terms of their music output and how they differentiate themselves from other Japanese bands.
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I'm worried I'm gonna end up with plastic knees before I'm 50, and wishing I could afford a couple cortisone injections, because my insurance fucking blows.
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My husband and I met through a mutual hobby. It's not like either one of us needed to share said hobby within a relationship, but we naturally grew closer due to it. Is this an option for you? We would never have met if not for our shared interest, and we're several kids in and have a very stable, harmonious, loving marriage. I'm married for long enough that I don't have dating app experience as they weren't quite as mainstream when I was looking for a partner, but they legitimately sound like a nightmare and from what single friends have told me, I'd avoid them like the plague.
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finally got a job interview but by some horrible twist of fate it was from one of 4 (of the many many more) jobs I applied to that have hour-long commutes
i'm not complaining; I'm going to that interview anyways and I will fucking ace it, but I find it a very funny monkey's paw
also want a break from the farms and the internet in general because it's bumming me out but i've got duties that require me to be online until at least the end of the year so I'll have to wait
gonna try splicing up what would've been a large hiatus into a few days here and there where I completely isolate from screens and go pet snakes or something instead
i'm not complaining; I'm going to that interview anyways and I will fucking ace it, but I find it a very funny monkey's paw
also want a break from the farms and the internet in general because it's bumming me out but i've got duties that require me to be online until at least the end of the year so I'll have to wait
gonna try splicing up what would've been a large hiatus into a few days here and there where I completely isolate from screens and go pet snakes or something instead
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I know exactly how you feel, work just feels like a waste of time. It's soul-crushing, dealing with mundane problems and people. I wouldn't do it if I had another way of making money, and my job's not even that bad. I just feel like I'm constantly burnt-out.
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I think so. I'm really into playing the bass guitar. Right now, I'm looking for local spots to play music (contemporary or otherwise in town). I think that genuinely is the only real way I can find some sort of woman in my life at my current state of life, but even if I don't, I know I will at least meet like-minded friends to talk to, which will at least make me a bit less stir-crazy.
Yeah, I genuinely think they are contributed to the absolute ruination of gender relations in the paat decade. I think they could have been useful over a couple decades ago for young professionals like me, the fact of the matter is people use it for hookups and short term relationships versus more long term ones nowadays (even if some people do manage to find some despite the odds). The way the developers that make these programs is basically like the way Youtube qorks nowadays, where they make sure you are forced to search for something good to consume and when you do you get a dopamine rush that forces you to get excited but you will inevitably come back when that goes away. The only problem is at least with Youtube, despite being the algorithm being what it is, you are consuming videos, not romantic partners. With dating apps, they are essentially using our psychology and basic biological needs against us for profit, which ai find kind of evil. At least with Youtube, you can technically turn it off and find some alternative since it's not really a fundamental need to listen to video game reviews, mualsic or lectures. I refuse to be used like that and I wish more people would see how harmful these dating programs are in general.