How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[DenseDeerFather]

Assuming you're in America or Canada, get married overseas where close-knit extended family is still a thing. Not joking. You will get the family you never had, if you marry into a good one. It's not like in America in many places.

Unfortunately, I'm Eurotrash.

I do hope that when/if I get out of my apathy towards dating, I hope to find someone with a lovely extended family. That would be nice.

Always had bit of a bad habit of internally imagining friends' families as my own. I am already halfway there, I suppose.

 

[Black Hole Vacation]

Last night I realised that even when I feel overwhelmingly suicidally depressed my face has no expression.
If I try and force an expression of sadness or anger I can feel my eyes start to water but I generally yawn, cut off my brain from my emotions then can't get it back.

 

[Flavius Claudius Julianus]

Suffering through a chest cold at the moment, managed to get through the work week in one piece. I should give up smoking.

In other news, I've somewhat officially taken over the role of 'keeper of the family annals' from my great aunt, who is nearing her eighties. I started with my great-great-grandfather's photographs and WW1 medals, including his 'dead man's penny' (memorial bronze plaque given to the deceased's next of kin.)

I've replaced the ribbons with the official articles, sourced the original death records online, and edited one of the few photographs I have of the man. Died in action in France, barely older than I am now - wife and two children left behind. I've ordered a very high quality replica of the 'memorial scroll' and cleaned up the bronzes as best as possible.

It only makes the Islamification of the UK all the more tragic.

 

[Abraham Lincoln]

Niggers everywhere.

 

[spaztocate9000]

I've been stressed and not sleeping great. Hopefully that changes tonight. A good night's sleep makes such a difference.

 

[The Feline Solution]

Day 6 of quitting cigarettes, vaping, the lot. I got a packet of nicotine gum here to tide me over the worst cravings and it's working surprisingly well. Also kicked every other habit i have for over a month now, going full Straight Edge faggot. Even started completely clean eating again, went from 90kg to 84kg in under a month and having one motherfucker of a cheat meal right now, 3k calorie breakfast, full-on slop.
Life is still pretty much in shambles and i feel my mid-life crisis looming but i try to at least somewhat combat all the bad shit i left going on for way too long.

 

[anustart76]

I think my boss is more or less trying to bully me to get me to quit at this point. No hard evidence but based on her behavior lately, it's the only conclusion I can come to. I'm beginning to dread talking to her, even though I know it's not like she can actually do anything to me besides bitch and moan. Even firing me will likely take her months.

In good news, I had a really great conversation with a recruiter from what sounds like a really nice company to work for. He was really interested in the work I've done over the years. Pray for me, I'm really hoping this one comes through.

 

[boofit]

age, you cannot escape but the clarity the knowledge the understanding are a blessing (yes that big of a word)

 

[Dieter Laser]

IIRC, there have been a number of largish group studies done that indicated that even with drug assistance, you can't really meaningfully shift your personal circadian rhythm.

I have given up trying, am continually sleep deprived, and hate everyone for unreasonably wanting to be awake during daylight

I fear this is true. I’ve tried literally every natural and chemical method available and nothing changes it long term. I can force it for a few days, but I end up feeling like complete shit.

My body just won’t let me fall asleep until 5-6am, that’s just how it is. Doesn’t affect my life so I’m kinda over worrying about it, but I do wish I had more control over it.

But dabbing helps make it bearable.

 

[dick brain]

Anyone have any fancy insomnia remedies?

IIRC, there have been a number of largish group studies done that indicated that even with drug assistance, you can't really meaningfully shift your personal circadian rhythm.

I have given up trying, am continually sleep deprived, and hate everyone for unreasonably wanting to be awake during daylight

I fear this is true. I’ve tried literally every natural and chemical method available and nothing changes it long term. I can force it for a few days, but I end up feeling like complete shit.

My body just won’t let me fall asleep until 5-6am, that’s just how it is. Doesn’t affect my life so I’m kinda over worrying about it, but I do wish I had more control over it.

But dabbing helps make it bearable.

https://m.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLPNW_gerXa4MgnHtb1c65IoKEctR_eZPJ

 

[GuitarRevi]

 

[DenseDeerFather]

I think my boss is more or less trying to bully me to get me to quit at this point. No hard evidence but based on her behavior lately, it's the only conclusion I can come to. I'm beginning to dread talking to her, even though I know it's not like she can actually do anything to me besides bitch and moan. Even firing me will likely take her months.

Now I don't know where you're based but could you possibly launch a formal complain about her behavior?

 

[Jonah Hill poster]

For me, the last few days were a mix of different emotions that would make me think that I was mentally unwell. It all started when I half-jokingly took an I.Q. test on this website, and it said that I have an IQ of 75.

Now, I’m wondering how many people take these things seriously because for once, I was actually bummed out.

 

[Blue Miaplacidus]

My dog just ate my ~400USD Sennheiser HD 660S headset. I am angry, and I want to old yeller my dog. This is the first time he's ever chewed anything that wasn't rawhide or rope.

 

[Harbinger of Kali Yuga]

https://m.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLPNW_gerXa4MgnHtb1c65IoKEctR_eZPJ

Thanks, I'll check these videos out later. I thought I had good sleep last night but I've had massive brain fog all day and want to curl down in bed and can't but my brain is buzzing too much. I'm feeling pretty weird. My appetite has crashed, too, which also may be why I have zero energy.

 

[Claus]

I'm doing alright I guess. Just got new glasses today. They're bifocals so I'm having a bit of trouble getting used to them, as focusing my eyes from far to near and vice versa makes me woozy. I'm just chilling right now. Got home from work about five minutes ago. Debating with myself whether to actually cook a decent dinner or just have some frozen slop to hit my calorie goal for the day.

 

[LonesomeDud]

I have a long run tomorrow. If I have sex, I will be exhausted.

This girl is walking around in cheetah print. That's how bad she wants to be spotted around your boy. Away with you, evil essence draining witch!

But you know, come back tomorrow.

 

[Friend of Dorothy Parker]

My punkass ex-husband just announced to our children - in college - that effective immediately he will no longer be contributing to their educations or other expenses. Nothing.

That's right - he did not even have the balls to discuss it with me, but made our children carry his water.

His fucking wine collection could pay for at least half of it. Or sell the fucking house he won't be living in because he will be living in paid housing elsewhere. Or the car he won't need because that will also be covered for him.

I am beyond furious. Trying to keep from pressing send on a text wishing him a soon, extended, and painful death.

 

[LonesomeDud]

My punkass ex-husband just announced to our children - in college - that effective immediately he will no longer be contributing to their educations or other expenses. Nothing.

That's right - he did not even have the balls to discuss it with me, but made our children carry his water.

His fucking wine collection could pay for at least half of it. Or sell the fucking house he won't be living in because he will be living in paid housing elsewhere. Or the car he won't need because that will also be covered for him.

I am beyond furious. Trying to keep from pressing send on a text wishing him a soon, extended, and painful death.

Your ex-husband is a bitch.

 

[Friend of Dorothy Parker]

Your ex-husband is a bitch.

Thank you. Yes, he is.

Did I mention I paid off HIS $5-figure student loan debt (for his third degree; his father paid for his undergrad and then useless masters') ? When I was 26 and he was fucking 40 years old?

I know hate and resentment is not good, but I hate him. He is fucking garbage.