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I have chronic back pains, my boyfriend of a year broke up with me, I don't make that much money anymore, I haven't gotten a decent nights sleep in about 3 months (2 to 4 hours a night) and my favorite vidya series is ran by incompetent blowhards.

I'm not well, but I could be worse, I guess.
 
I wonder if your records have been mixed up with someone else's with the same name. Yeeeees, that shouldn't happen, but in practice, GP support staff aren't always the best about filing.

It seems inexplicable otherwise that there's some sort of live CAMHS referral for you at your age, and that you're being diagnosed with trich when you say you don't pull.

It genuinely sounds like that stuff might relate to another patient. You can make a subject access request under the Data Protection Act to receive a copy of your medical records. You might want to think abut doing that so that you can see what is actually in there and what appears to be going on. You'd need to make one request to your GP, and another to the NHS trust that holds your hospital records.
Welllllll about that.

Went to see the private doctor today and thanks to the referral from the paramedic he had a copy of my medical records. We also showed him the letter that informed me that I was being discharged and he saw red when he learned that the reason was because "Trust protocols had changed".

Turns out he'd formerly worked on the NHS and knew exactly what certain terms meant. He told us in the politest way possible that he didn't understand why they'd stopped my treatment and the NHS was telling me that I was costing them too much and therefore have dropped me from treatments in favor of cheaper "therapy" options. The doctor basically guided me through what I would need to do to file a complaint with PALS, and is going to write up a letter to help back us up when we contact them. Should they not be able to give a valid reason for dropping my treatment and my GP surgery deny giving me said treatment then we take it to the next phase.

So yeah. Turns out I'm being medically gaslit. Hooray.
 
Out of state to help my aunt because she is recovering from a surgery. We went to the ER to check out a foot pain and swelling, now the hospital wants to monitor them since she show signs of heart problems. I’m probably going to take more time off work to help her, thankfully my boss understands so no big deal on that end.

Being out here is relaxing and I’m having fun showing my aunt funny pictures on my phone. However, I gotta update my mom on the situation but she’s currently sick and I really don’t want to update her just yet.
 
You should probably get that checked out because you might have a severe allergy to something you never thought about before, and just a little bit of it triggered that response. It could be an anaphylactic shock situation if you accidentally eat a lot of whatever it is. Unless it's something really weird they probably have a screen for it.
I just had an allergen panel a few months ago. It was a confusing process but point being, they didn't really find anything. There wasn't really a good follow up and it was just a lot of money and time for not much result.


Today I'm have a big issue of jealousy.
They hired this guy, he was late his first three shifts.... so they promote him to be my superviser.

Now, I never got a single minute of training. I was totally expected to figure it all out myself.

They had a lady come from another facility just to spend the day with him and train him.... in all the shit I already know. Stuff so basic as in, "you can save your leftover veggies to add to soup!" Because he's clueless.
And I can just tell he's going to run around the kitchen acting like he's hot shit and knows it all. Because he knows 1/10th what I do.

Also a death in the family today. Just makes me angry. Jealous, angry, unappreciated.
 
Our vacation is over and we had the best time, so grateful for this time with family, the kids are already talking about going back so they seem to have enjoyed it quite a bit!
This is around the time of my birthday, and I tend to get really melancholic this time of year. I'm not too sure why, I've been like this since my mid-teens, and I'm definitely not one to worry about getting older since my ducks are in a row, I'm extremely happy about my station in life, our family is complete and I don't have to worry about things like finding a spouse/fertility/the integrity of my gametes and whatnot, etc. so every year granted is a blessing and one I'm grateful to experience- it's just that I wrestle with the weirdest emotional numbness for a week or two before my birthday, and feel almost guilty for greeting another year when it feels like so many good people around me have died untimely and early deaths through no fault of their own.
I'll be fixed in a few days, but I'm having a weird time right now.
 
they didn't really find anything. There wasn't really a good follow up and it was just a lot of money and time for not much result.
It’s either you react or you don’t. When I did it my back looked like a topographical map of the Rockies so you are probably fine.it was actually so bad that the sharpie marks that the lady drew on my back to mark what sector was what actually fused together and any info she wrote was complete lost.
 
It’s either you react or you don’t. When I did it my back looked like a topographical map of the Rockies so you are probably fine.it was actually so bad that the sharpie marks that the lady drew on my back to mark what sector was what actually fused together and any info she wrote was complete lost.
Yeah but why does my lips and throat keep going red and swelling up while I burst into hives over my entire body? I don't care if I get bumps during a test or not. I wanted practical insight on how to not keep having allergic reactions. It cost a lot of money, but the only insight I got was "I dunno lol." They told me that having a negative test didn't even mean I wasn't allergic to anything. If they told me there was a chance they'd get no info from this test, I wouldn't have spent 700 dollars to get it.

It's been happening every few months but I haven't found a link. They didn't even give me any recommendations for what to do if it happens again besides "go to the ER lol".

I am just frustrated. I hate any time I have to play this game with doctors of "after I give you tons of money and you experiment on me, will anything have actually changed for me and my condition?" I know they aren't miracle workers or burger cooks, but when all the time and money ends up meaning jack, I still get this feeling of "I want my money back". It's just maddening.....


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Yeah but why does my lips and throat keep going red and swelling up while I burst into hives over my entire body? I don't care if I get bumps during a test or not. I wanted practical insight on how to not keep having allergic reactions.
I don't know myself personally but with my mom she gets like that with high amounts of salt and sugar, I don't know exactly what you had that specific night though/what you have been having.

In any case sorry for the loss of your cash and time when dealing with doctors. It is super irritating that they haven't given you an answer for anything. Some tips though because it sounded like they bearly gave you any 1. always carry benadryl it can save you a trip from the hospital and 2. if your having a reaction like that stick your face into some cold water or use an ice pack, its even helped me when I was close to near death. if you are also experiencing near death be sure you keep moving because last time I was wheeled into a hospital via wheel chair I almost didn't make it (unless you can't stand anymore). I was fading into darkness, while the archangels took me. (Sorry I wanted to make this funny again)
 
Really worried about one of my kids. Trying not to be intimidated by fear and worry so I can be effective. But things are complicated, and possibly really bad.

In better kid news, my youngest interviewed for a summer job and did so well they said to apply for a more senior position and basically did the interview for that position in this initial interview.

Also sad about my departed doggo today. It's been a year and a half, and I still can't think about him. I compartmentalize hard, because it really is just too much...but he's turned up in a dream or two lately, so I think that this is a positive, that my brain is loosening a bit, maybe.
 
Conflicted, while I love working has a diesel tech, I've come to point where my body can't keep up with anymore, and I'm preparing for exiting, I'm thinking of going into IT field, but it seems super saturated, and I'm not much good for sales.
IT is very saturated and full of pajeets, it'll be tough to find work like that. Is it possible you can branch into something similar like automotive or naval tech, or to upgrade to a more senior position where you manage diesel techs or something?
 
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