How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[eatler]

I'm getting up to 30 mph on it. I'm kind of impressed at that, as an old dude.

What kind of bike?

 

[AnOminous]

What kind of bike?

Just a normal one.

 

[Angel Dust 2]

Went to a lake this weekend and burned the ever loving shit out of my back and shoulders - Yes I wore sunscreen, still burned. Been real fun since then

 

[Betonhaus]

Every time I think it would be nice to go outside and do something healthy the weather turns shitty.

 

[gorgoroth7134]

Spoiler: conclusion

Not hungover. Just kinda numb.

 

[Friend of Dorothy Parker]

I'm getting up to 30 mph on it. I'm kind of impressed at that, as an old dude.

On the flats? That's fast!

 

[The Feline Solution]

You can tell it's nearing summer by the accordion music coming from the gypsy house across the street. Not to mention the dealers loitering in front of my house. One cunt even started greeting me because my girlfriend bought a couple of times from him, i told her not to shit where we eat. I hate the fucking summers here, you'd think this is Bangkok or Hong Kong by the noise level. We are not even close to a major street or anything, it's just the fucking muslim scum on the street all fucking day and night. It's still less ruckus than last year but it's only May and temperatures are still coldish at night.
Fuck this city and everyone in it, first and foremost myself for not moving to a different area when it was still possible, just read 99.2% of all room in this city is rented out but Germany insists on importing more scum here. Where the fuck are all these indians coming from i am wondering lately. Why all in the big city when the rural areas are dying? I often visit the quarter i grew up in on the other side of the city and it's unrecognizable compared to my childhood, the area got more fucked than the one i am currently in, it used to be really nice. Let the whole fucking bug hive burn, i am often fantasizing coming home and finding the whole block in ruins, OKC bombing Timmy McVeigh style. Shit would be cathartic, i wouldn't even be mad not having a home anymore.

Apart from that i am swell.

 

[eatler]

You can tell it's nearing summer by the accordion music coming from the gypsy house across the street.

@AgendaPoster please stop harassing The Feline Solution, thank you.

 

[AgendaPoster]

@AgendaPoster please stop harassing The Feline Solution, thank you.

I think he's male so...

 

[draggs]

@AgendaPoster please stop harassing The Feline Solution, thank you.

That's not harassment. Wait until the wagons show up, the fent addict cousins and their fent addict horses (also their lovers) puking and shidding everywhere

 

[The Feline Solution]

Warning: absolutely the longest post I'll ever write on the Farms ahead.

Part 1 sounds like a brutal case of oneitis. Happens to the best of us, had that with my very first girlfriend aeons ago and i still think of the bitch sometimes, mainly because i did not get to hit that, even though i left the (kidshit) relationship not completely without sexual experiences. I eventually just cut any and all contact and reading your stuff i'd urge you to do the same. All that grief isn't worth the few good times, especially if it's just a friend and not a girlfriend.

Regarding Part 2:

It's finally hit me I need to like myself, respect myself

That is a very big one and something i struggle with, too. From what you wrote you seem like you got some life experience, are able to self-reflect and are not going through life ignorant. I can't tell you how to do it because, as said, i struggle with it, too, and haven't completely figured it out myself but work on the self-respect thing, tirelessly so. It's bound to work out sometime, at least that is what i hope for for myself.

Edit:

You get used to it.

Word. I feel like i never had a restful night of sleep in my life. Full blown insomnia for a couple of days again now, probably because i am not using for a while, also again. I used to envy people who sleep well, to an almost manic degree, but that stopped ages ago. Like with all the other annoying but not deadly ailments i have (Tinnitus in both ears, fucked back, newest addition being a fucked-up nerve in my left arm leading to numbness and loss of grip strength, already had the MRT and waiting for a neurologist appointment in June blah blah blah bitch bitch bitch) learned to live with it, as much as it sucks at times.

 

[AnOminous]

On the flats? That's fast!

No, downhill. It's still fun though.

@AgendaPoster please stop harassing The Feline Solution, thank you.

@AgendaPoster needs to quit being so MEAN!

 

[Friend of Dorothy Parker]

No, downhill. It's still fun though.

Terrifying, more like! I've seen more than one cyclist take a header at 30+, and though not involving severe injury (mostly road rash and a mangled bike), it was still dramatic (and painful). I'd be less anxious on flat terrain (lol as if I'd sustain 30), but I'm a chicken and flutter my brakes going downhill, no matter how actually slow I'm going.

(And I actually agree with you that the speed is fun. I've just had to admit to myself that I don't have the nerve for too much of it. Annoying of me, to me.)

 

[Ibanez RG 350EX]

This morning I had to lay down the law with my neighbor who I let use my garage and tools for his various projects in exchange for him doing stuff for me occasionally. He and his kid had left tools all over, dragged in one of those giant mechanic's tool drawers, a huge commercial grade shop vac as well as a bunch of other shit, and just generally trashed my previously nice, uncluttered workspace and just left it there.

I'm super lenient about what they do as long as they clean up after themselves. I don't like to be the bad guy, but I feel like they were taking advantage of my generosity.

(And to their credit, they came home and cleaned up their messes as well as everything else SPOTLESSLY this evening.)

 

[doomocract]

New cat die... I bring him to vet, i try medications for him, he die any way.

i think i cursed somehow. Fuck i miss have cats

 

[Mayor Cody Travers]

New cat die... I bring him to vet, i try medications for him, he die any way.

i think i cursed somehow. Fuck i miss have cats

Listen, if you were there for him up to the end, he knew it and he loved you for it. Trust me on that. They know.

Believe me on that. If you took him from a shelter or saved him from the wild, he knew he got a blessing, and though this happened, he got to die with love and thus peace. You gave him happiness.

 

[Sneedker Pimp]

I'm fine other than my bitch acting retarded IRL. Online, I'm MATI. So tired of the dicksucking sycophants and broomniggers with USI. It's a retard forum, not a cult, you stupid faggots

 

[Super Dilator Duel 3D]

I'm fine other than my bitch acting retarded IRL. Online, I'm MATI. So tired of the dicksucking sycophants and broomniggers with USI. It's a retard forum, not a cult, you stupid faggots

so which homosexual banned user are you a sock of

 

[Sneedker Pimp]

so which homosexual banned user are you a sock of

I lurked for two years before joining.
Cope harder instead of engaging with my words, gay nerd

 

[Xenomorph]

Passed out in the bathroom and hit my head off the bathroom counter and has a seizure a few days ago got a huge cut and knot on my forehead. .
Mentally I feel nothing right now..just work eat sleep, the physical pain from my condition caused me to get up to 80mgs of oxy in one shot before calling 911 to be helped with potential kidney failure.
Oh, and I will be needing a kidney transplant. Yay me.