How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

get an air compressor and blast air down your sink drain? get a drain snake?
It's a clay gully/pipe opening, and I've heard any invasive/pressure tools are a hard no, unless you want to make an inexpensive problem extremely expensive.

Snake tool/articulated wand is my backup if tomorrow doesn't go as planned. Shit, I just plan on using an old curtain pole depending on the depth before the bend.

No separate waste water drain due to the age of the property, so everything from the dishwasher drain to the shower seems to flow into the same Y-pipe.
 
Got a kitten now. Wasn't really planning on it. Coworker said they wandered up in his backyard and was seeing if any of us could take one in. Bought a bunch of cat stuff and picked him up. Was full of energy all afternoon but must have drained his batteries, he curled up in a ball and fell asleep on my chest. Gonna take him in to the vet Monday to make sure all is kosher.

All of my friends are spread to the winds doing life now which makes it harder for us all to talk like we used to. My siblings are starting their own careers and my parents are traveling a lot now that they're both fully retired so I've been pretty lonely lately, having something around to interact with and take care of will be a nice change of pace.
 
Rather, I was expressing in this thread that the content on the farms sometimes gets me down.
What did you expect? It's a thread where people share if they are OK or not. Rarely people are so happy that they want to share it with the world. Heh, I personally could've shared way more grievances I've got, but power leveling here is just asking for trouble.
 
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Been having a tough time with mental health. I spent the better part of a year approaching it like an auto repair or an injury, like something I could just work hard to fix and then move on from. But I'm coming to terms with the fact that it's probably something I'm going to have to attend to very regularly forever. Which means instead of a work-life balance I have to figure out a work-work-life balance. Which really sucks because I really, really just want to be normal. I had a really good job earlier this year and had to give it up because it was causing me to neglect my mental health, which made me unable to do my job well, and I just fucking hate that this is a problem I have for no good reason. I find myself jealous of combat vets because at least their trauma came with something to be proud of, meanwhile I'm just a human shelter dog. It feels like I'm missing a limb.

Taking some comfort in flipping back through my journal and seeing how much progress I've made in just a few months. Trying to be okay with slow/incremental progress.

I'm tempted to just take retard pills so I can't worry or feel anymore and bumble through life like a normie/NPC/zogbot/whatever.
 
Snake tool/articulated wand is my backup if tomorrow doesn't go as planned. Shit, I just plan on using an old curtain pole depending on the depth before the bend.
Start here. You know what you need to use and you're doing everything else first. Right tool for the right job.
Been having a tough time with mental health. I spent the better part of a year approaching it like an auto repair or an injury, like something I could just work hard to fix and then move on from. But I'm coming to terms with the fact that it's probably something I'm going to have to attend to very regularly forever. Which means instead of a work-life balance I have to figure out a work-work-life balance. Which really sucks because I really, really just want to be normal. I had a really good job earlier this year and had to give it up because it was causing me to neglect my mental health, which made me unable to do my job well, and I just fucking hate that this is a problem I have for no good reason. I find myself jealous of combat vets because at least their trauma came with something to be proud of, meanwhile I'm just a human shelter dog. It feels like I'm missing a limb.

Taking some comfort in flipping back through my journal and seeing how much progress I've made in just a few months. Trying to be okay with slow/incremental progress.

I'm tempted to just take retard pills so I can't worry or feel anymore and bumble through life like a normie/NPC/zogbot/whatever.
Working on your mental health shouldn't be a chore. You don't need to constantly work on it unless you're mismanaging it to begin with. People with serious mental health issues relating to trauma do best when they're settle into a comfortable life style that naturally helps balance them. Any time you're spending on actively fixing your mental health means you're focused on it which creates more issues. If you feel yourself slipping take the time to process through it and get your footing before moving on with life and putting your issues to the back of your mind.
Every day I wake up, realize there's no point in things, then go back to sleep until the evening.
Get a pencil sharpener. You can add points to lots of things with one of those.
 
Yesterday I went to my friend's apartment for his housewarming party as well to celebrate his and another friend's birthday.
As well yesterday was huge for me since I completed 30 full days of nofap /noporn, I would not say I am cleaned yet but it was a massive step forward in curbing a bad addiction.
Does that include watching stuff you and a partner have filmed together? Just wondering.
 
Yesterday I went to my friend's apartment for his housewarming party as well to celebrate his and another friend's birthday.
As well yesterday was huge for me since I completed 30 full days of nofap /noporn, I would not say I am cleaned yet but it was a massive step forward in curbing a bad addiction.
Congrats! Keep up.
 
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On the 29th a mutual friend alerted me they told the ex girl/ex-bestie how well I had been doing lately and told me in turn she was proud of me and really happy I landed on my feet. Also that the idea was inevitably floated on speaking again by me, and mutual said he was sure she wouldn't mind that. This, I assure you, came absolutely outta nowhere.

Not going to lie. At first it was a big esteem boost to hear that! But later as the weekend progressed the old hopes of normalizing things welled up and absolutely wrecked me since I couldn't actually do that that very moment, and made me think way too much of her for the weekend when I was FINALLY pushing forward. I'm finally getting over it of sorts today but I didn't realize how much it hurt to think on it all over again. Yes, I would love to reconcile, but I also both want to get that over with than cling to hope or wonder when that happens or even could. I still don't want to be or feel shadowed by her even if I'd love to start fresh all over again as friends. I would like to state I have zero issue with the mutual, who legitimately roots for us to reconcile and is trying to be a good friend to both of us, and he admitted that he was tired of being middleman between us, which leads to me wondering if she's asked on me in the past couple months...

Bluh. I was doing great lately too. I don't want to fall back into my usual obsessions or depressions when it comes to people or myself. I want to keep focusing on the new job and once feeling secure on it, finding social hobbies in addition to my time with the shelter and fitness goals.
 
I would like another weekend, please.

My mood is on one of its upwards swings and I'm feeling motivated and inspired for the first time in a long time but I have a load of work shite filling my foseeable future.
Life is just a series of too-short unproductive weekends then back to work to wait -with pathetic optimism - for the next weekend. I need to do something creative and meaningful beyond work. I can't just tread water like this for the rest of my working life.
 
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