How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Carnavoyeur]

Tonight I ate shit on my driveway walking my almost 3 month old puppy. I had downed 4 tall boys on an empty stomach as soon as I got home from work. I broke my glasses, shredded my face, hands and shoulder. The puppy is fine.

Hi, I'm Jamila, and I'm an alcoholic. I can't do this anymore. I was so close to taking her a little further down the road and this could have happened near traffic, but she took me up the driveway instead. We could have both been seriously injured or killed if I didn't follow her.

I don't want to drown my sorrows anymore. I don't want to make myself numb. It doesn't even help for more than a few hours. I want to play with my puppy and watch her grow up.

 

[Mr. ShadowCreek]

Not good to be honest. My dad's being put on hospice. He got throat cancer back in December and has just gotten worse since. While he had a surgery back in early March and has been taking treatment for a couple months it looks like it was too late. That combined with everything that could have gone wrong. It messed up his voice making it raspy. He had to get scan after scan before the surgery wasting time as the cancer grew. After the surgery he got a hematoma almost died the day after due to an idiot doctor being clumsy. He was on a ventilator for a week which caused a feeding tube having to be put in him. The doctors put the tube in poorly and some other moron doctors released him when he had an infection and had to go back to the hospital. After all that he came come but it's been hell since trying to take care of him. He sleeps most of the time, has trouble walking, and the cancer might be in his brain as he has trouble remembering now. Because of this we know it's time. He probably only has weeks left if that. I made him a special Fathers Day card rather than buy one. He's only in his late 60s. His father lived to be 90 and his grandfather lived to be 96 despite both having health problems so we thought he had a chance for a while. This whole ordeal has hurt by faith in doctors. Every time they touched him, they only made it worse. We're praying he goes in his sleep soon. At least all the suffering will be gone.

 

[3deadniggers]

Now I'm just considering getting the shit I need for my gaming laptop's display rig and a low-to-mid tier 3D printer for around the same price (and maybe a little more) as the $849 USD Enchant Key I was eyeballing.

You can get a good 3D printer for half that. Depending on what type you want it can be even cheaper.

Tonight I ate shit on my driveway walking my almost 3 month old puppy. I had downed 4 tall boys on an empty stomach as soon as I got home from work. I broke my glasses, shredded my face, hands and shoulder. The puppy is fine.

Hi, I'm Jamila, and I'm an alcoholic. I can't do this anymore. I was so close to taking her a little further down the road and this could have happened near traffic, but she took me up the driveway instead. We could have both been seriously injured or killed if I didn't follow her.

I don't want to drown my sorrows anymore. I don't want to make myself numb. It doesn't even help for more than a few hours. I want to play with my puppy and watch her grow up.

Puppies will pull you over until you teach them to walk with you. You should have a no alcohol when the puppy is involved rule. She's going to get bigger and stronger over the next few months and she's going to need tard wrangling. Don't put her at risk by being a degenerate alchy. She deserves better and you're putting her in danger. If you can't stop drinking find another home for her. She needs someone to lead her and make her into the best she can be, she doesn't need someone unable to lead themselves.

 

[The Feline Solution]

I'm about to stab my upstairs neighbour. Nigger sits alone in his apartment like the friendless cunt that he is and shouts at, what i assume, video games he's playing and the walls are paper thin. Just shouted at him to keep his cunt mouth shut and he's silent now but this shit agitates me, not the first time i am getting into it with him. I really fucking hate this kind of behaviour, manners never cost anyone nothing. Cunt also greets me and looks down when i meet him in the stairwell, fully knowing i am the one shouting abuse at him. Bitchmade.

 

[Betonhaus]

Do you ever think of all the windows of opportunities that fly by without you ever knowing about them? Not just things like buying a lottery ticket at just the right time for the algorithm to spit out a winning ticket, but things like chatting with a random person on the street who just happens to know someone looking to hire for your dream job, or there being a demand for a type of job you would enjoy if you had started working towards that career path?

 

[The Feline Solution]

Do you ever think of all the windows of opportunities that fly by without you ever knowing about them?

I know it's easier said than done but no, not anymore. Shit just makes you unhappy and solves nothing, you can't go back in time and change things or load an old save game and try a different path (i know how peak reddit this sounds, i am cringing just writing it down). That said, i sympathize with your situation regarding jobs a lot, i remember when you started writing about it ITT and it all seems kind of as dire as on my end and i live on the other side of the world. Globo Homo in full effect, everywhere it's the same.

Edit: Shit, i am kinda lying when i say "no, not anymore". Shit pops up in my mind occassionaly but i don't beat myself up over it anymore.

 

[eatler]

Do you ever think of all the windows of opportunities that fly by without you ever knowing about them? Not just things like buying a lottery ticket at just the right time for the algorithm to spit out a winning ticket, but things like chatting with a random person on the street who just happens to know someone looking to hire for your dream job, or there being a demand for a type of job you would enjoy if you had started working towards that career path?

I’ve adopted the white girl way of thinking where I just accept that it wasn’t meant for me. I just hope things go so bad that I go full meth tank rampage.

 

[CowPox]

Playful sex kittens
Study one another's frame
Before the fun starts

 

[Betonhaus]

I’ve adopted the white girl way of thinking where I just accept that it wasn’t meant for me. I just hope things go so bad that I go full meth tank rampage.

That's the thing, how am I supposed to know if I should give up on a potential path as "wasn't meant to be" when it could've been possible if I worked at it a little more? I just don't know.

Either way, I'm having my first day of practical training for school bus driving, where the instructor is showing me the pre-checks and driving me around. Tomorrow I'll be driving a little, I'm not sure if I'm ready but I'll get there.

 

[eatler]

sex kittens

After the catler fiasco I never want to see “sex” and “kitten” in the same sentence

*UWU* *sticks fork into toaster*

 

[Kit Marz]

I'm starting to feel better. There's a young woman in my weeknight religion class that would always flirt with me and when I would put something together for the other students, she would always be the first to volunteer to help.

I hadn't seen her for a while and when I did see her, I was in a relationship. She's joined my church congregation on Sunday and she got excited to see me and wanted to catch up. I don't think anything will happen between us, it's just nice to feel wanted again after a couple of bad break ups recently.

 

[Catman from cat town]

I was playing bg3 today and had to stop because I couldn’t focus on the text for the dialogue options and it was starting to cause a headache. After thinking about how it’s been hard to read road signs at a distance and the increase of headaches, I’m starting to accept that I’m probably going nearsighted and will need reading glasses.

 

[OrionBalls]

Finally, the disaster job is done. (That doesn't mean the disaster is done, only that I have no more work to do.) Thank goodness. Grateful to everyone who helped the town in its time of need. Now it's time to pay forward the blessings.

 

[Archeops]

You can get a good 3D printer for half that. Depending on what type you want it can be even cheaper.

I know, I’ve been looking at the suggestions given to me in the 3D Printing thread we have. i’m technically trying to juggle the price of the 3D printer with the price of the other shit I’ll need for the display rig (a monitor that’s better than my laptop’s screen, speakers, keyboard, mouse, etc.) within that price range. I can probably throw in an additional $150 USD but that’s pushing it.

 

[Shitted Scaredless]

Finally feeling a bit better sick wise. However I am unfortunately banished up to grandmas again as mom's having another off day. That's ok, I don't mind giving her space when she needs, but I guess it stings a little, feeling like I'm not good enough to help.

On an unrelated note, can anyone else not edit their posts or am I just in kiwi tard time out? The way the sites been running for me it could honestly be either.

 

[3deadniggers]

Do you ever think of all the windows of opportunities that fly by without you ever knowing about them? Not just things like buying a lottery ticket at just the right time for the algorithm to spit out a winning ticket, but things like chatting with a random person on the street who just happens to know someone looking to hire for your dream job, or there being a demand for a type of job you would enjoy if you had started working towards that career path?

The grass is always greener on the other side. If you cling to maybes and could haves you will end up neglecting your life. You have to go with what is happening and hope it's the right path. Doesn't mean you don't try to steer where you go but you can't control life as much as you would like to. If you can find something comfortable (especially in clown world) then that's good enough. Don't act for perfection, just for being content.

 

[The Feline Solution]

On an unrelated note, can anyone else not edit their posts or am I just in kiwi tard time out? The way the sites been running for me it could honestly be either.

Works on my end

I was playing bg3 today and had to stop because I couldn’t focus on the text for the dialogue options and it was starting to cause a headache. After thinking about how it’s been hard to read road signs at a distance and the increase of headaches, I’m starting to accept that I’m probably going nearsighted and will need reading glasses.

Definitely glasses time. I'm looking at buying new ones right now because my eyesight is getting worse and worse and the subtitles on my big-screen TV are starting to get blurry again. If you get headaches trying to read stuff you should get glasses, period. I used to get brutal migraines (still do, just much less frequent) and a major trigger was staring at my monitor reading too small font for prolonged amounts of time. Fuck any dev that doesn't implement font size settings in their game. And TAA, especially when it is the only AA option, that blurry, smeared shit always makes me wonder if my eyes are fucking with me.

 

[Shitted Scaredless]

Curses! I've been sent to tard jail!

Guess I just need to very carefully watch my spelling for a bit.

 

[AnOminous]

Works on my end

Definitely glasses time. I'm looking at buying new ones right now because my eyesight is getting worse and worse and the subtitles on my big-screen TV are starting to get blurry again. If you get headaches trying to read stuff you should get glasses, period. I used to get brutal migraines (still do, just much less frequent) and a major trigger was staring at my monitor reading too small font for prolonged amounts of time. Fuck any dev that doesn't implement font size settings in their game. And TAA, especially when it is the only AA option, that blurry, smeared shit always makes me wonder if my eyes are fucking with me.

I'm glad I'm nearsighted, because I have no problem reading text. In fact, wearing glasses makes it unreadable. I mainly wear them for driving because my far vision sucks.

Curses! I've been sent to tard jail!

Guess I just need to very carefully watch my spelling for a bit.

There's a pretty short time for editing your posts because many cowards were trying to escape the stupid things they said yesterday.

If you can't edit something right after you posted it, maybe you're in tard jail.

 

[The Feline Solution]

I'm glad I'm nearsighted, because I have no problem reading text. In fact, wearing glasses makes it unreadable. I mainly wear them for driving because my far vision sucks.

My eyesight is completely messed up, got corneal astygmatism (google translate, not sure if that's the correct word in english) and one eye significantly weaker than the other, i am spending a mint every time i need new glasses. Our much lauded, free universal health care of course covers nothing, you need to be practically legaly blind for getting anything covered by insurance. Can't go for contacts either because they dry my eyes out too much, i tried them in the past. Wish i could just buy these dollar store glasses to fix my shit. Not to mention i am much too vain to wear my glasses outside, i never had ones that suited me and i tried what feels like a million pairs out.