How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

It's been a few rainy days, the temperature is chilly, the sun is behind the clouds, and the lack of VItamin D and solar radiation makes me a little depressed.

On the bright side, I sanded my 3d printed phone stand in the last 2-3 days, it's all super smooth and pleasing to the touch. Plus, all the microplastics I snorted/drank in my coffee, so goood! AUGH YEAH
 
If synchronicity is a thing, it's doing a speedrun on me. I think in some good ways. I can't really be specific, except for the fact that there have been signs popping up around me that things are looking up.

If my rather weak dalliances in witchcraft mean anything it's that someone called some corners on my behalf. I wish I knew who or what to be grateful to.
 
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It's 24 hours for a normal post and like 5 minutes for a DM, isn't it?
Not sure. Most of my edits are right after I post something and notice it's retarded and either fix the retardation or delete it if it's irreparably retarded. If I notice something is retarded the next day I usually don't have the option.
I usually have my deadly cocktail for sleep issues:
I like sour cherry juice but not as a specific right before bed thing but a daily thing. It contains natural melatonin so don't overdo it if you use melatonin right before sleep. Regular consumption of it is associated with better sleep quality.
Our much lauded, free universal health care of course covers nothing, you need to be practically legaly blind for getting anything covered by insurance.
In the U.S. we now have pretty cheap options from things like Warby Parker where you can get your prescription, and have it filled for much less than at an actual glasses shop like LensCrafter. That said I recently massively overpaid for a pair of Ray-Bans with transition lenses that darken in response to sunlight so I don't have to carry around a pair of normal glasses and prescription sunglasses everywhere. My justification was it wasn't that much more expensive than just buying two pairs, one of each kind.

I considered getting the full George Romero type but decided I don't want to look like a complete lunatic.
 
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I had to put my beloved dog down on Monday. I knew it was coming but goddamn. I am not a weak man but these types of losses always take me down hard.

KF members that read this, do me a favor, please. Whatever pets you have, if you can, hug them and tell them how much better your life is because of them. Give them a treat or do something nice for them.
 
First month of job apps after a year working. I'm told finding a gig is easier if employed, but I'm hoping for an office job and I'm doing borderline janitorial work with a master's. I don't mind it, it's aight, but not knowing if I'll actually make it out haunts me. Seeing all these people treat jobs 3 time as good as 'good for now', nigga?

On a good day I'm like "what's a year or two here before a real job" but the longer I distance from my graduation, the less hope I have. I think it's mostly the lack of a side hobby to focus on. Work is my only focus.
 
Not sure. Most of my edits are right after I post something and notice it's retarded and either fix the retardation or delete it if it's irreparably retarded. If I notice something is retarded the next day I usually don't have the option.
Yeah, same for me regarding next day, that's why i assumed 24 hours. I often edit shit because of being ESL and fixing typos/grammar when i notice errors.

Thread tax: Bought something over Amazon, which i seldom do, went for the Prime option because they offered one week for 99 cents, packet should've been here around noon. Got up at 9AM, tracked the package "We tried to give you your package and are sorry that we missed you". Nigger most certainly did not ring my doorbell and this is far from the first time this happened, i am fuming. It's something where i have to sign at receival so they can't even give it to a neighbour. "We will try the next day" yeah, fuck you. The missus will be thrilled when she gets up because it's something she ordered and which she was hyped for receiving today. Fuck me, fuck them. My mood is in the shitter and i didn't even have coffee yet.
I am not a weak man but these types of losses always take me down hard.
That's the normal reaction, nothing weak about it. I was absolutely devastated when my dog died and i've never even entertained the idea of getting another dog after its death. I'm dreading the day my cat buys it and i am almost certain i will never get another pet after that. Pet death hits hard, my condolences.
 
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That said I recently massively overpaid for a pair of Ray-Bans with transition lenses that darken in response to sunlight so I don't have to carry around a pair of normal glasses and prescription sunglasses everywhere. My justification was it wasn't that much more expensive than just buying two pairs, one of each kind.
If you've saved yourself the energy of not having to fumble between two pairs of glasses, it isn't overpaying.

I had to put my beloved dog down on Monday. I knew it was coming but goddamn. I am not a weak man but these types of losses always take me down hard.
Dude, those losses make the toughest bastards break. It's okay to not be okay with it.
 
Update on the antibiotic: I took too many pills over the course of 3 days as a precaution in case the pain returned. It hasn't, but the meds also had an unintended effect - my sacroiliitis got a lot better, to the point where I don't need painkillers or the cooling balm anymore. The inflammation was almost entirely curbed, now I just need to see if it's going to get better on its own if I decide to take it easy for a while or will I need a pill or two a week. I still get sharp pain jolts when standing up or sitting down too fast or rolling over in bed, but it's nowhere near as bad as it used to be, especially right after the accident which had me literaly howling in bed due to the excruciating pain.
 
I hope this doesn't fall under PL/TMI, but I've finally found supplements/medication that seems to help with a few issues I've been struggling with lately.

So I'm feeling pretty good & quite hopeful, honestly.
Ah yeah, Cialis does work wonders I've heard.


Update on the antibiotic: I took too many pills over the course of 3 days as a precaution in case the pain returned. It hasn't, but the meds also had an unintended effect - my sacroiliitis got a lot better, to the point where I don't need painkillers or the cooling balm anymore. The inflammation was almost entirely curbed, now I just need to see if it's going to get better on its own if I decide to take it easy for a while or will I need a pill or two a week. I still get sharp pain jolts when standing up or sitting down too fast or rolling over in bed, but it's nowhere near as bad as it used to be, especially right after the accident which had me literaly howling in bed due to the excruciating pain.
Don't get addicted.
 
Despite spending here so much time, for weeks I had this urge to share how I feel about the last 2 years of my life. Even though it wouldn't let to me getting doxed since my internet presence is next to none and what's left I learned to hide better thanks to this website, still it would be a large chunk of my personal life and it would not be smart to share it here. But to be honest I have a hard time keeping it to myself since I barely have anyone left to share it with.

Otherwise things seem to be relatively ok. Take care, people.
 
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