How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[WTBOnlineFather]

My rent is going up and I'm getting irritated by the impracticality of my living situation. I have until the end of the month to break off my rental and then I'll be forced to find something better within the 3 month period. Gonna be a huge pain in the ass to look for a different place and move all my junk but I know I'll be glad I did it when it's over.

 

[KSachiko77]

Fucking utility company. The fuckers are trying to muscle me into installing some new system I don't care about or something (I already paid my bill this month) and in order to muscle me out into talking to them because I didn't answer the doorbell and I guess they realized I was there, they turned off my water and they're loitering on the curb outside my house. This is pissing me off, and I got the urge to strangle whatever McKinsey prick suggested this approach instead of leaving me a goddamn note and I'll turn the water back on when they leave most likely.

 

[KSachiko77]

Ok, false alarm, I just spoke with the utility company. One of my neighbors Saud there was a leak in my backyard and it turns out that I left a hose running for a while. I turned off the hose and poke with the technician and it's all good.

 

[Shitted Scaredless]

Sent the email. If I don't hear back in a couple days I'll call or text. But it was the email on the business card, so it's probably a place to send cover letters, I think. I'm doing the thing. I'm doing the damn thing.

 

[Pissmaster]

please don't ever type like a 2000s LiveJournal poster ever again.

I'm going to and you can't stop me!

 

[JanuaryViolet]

Anybody else imagine that the flap of their ears is the sound of their little peanut brain rattling around or just me?

When mine do that I always ask if they're cleared for takeoff.
Other stuff: Work isn't sucking that much but this is the first day this week I've been able to actually leave on time.

 

[truffle frog]

No antidepressants though. I'd like not to gain weight.

There are lots of anti depressants and anxiety meds out there it's about trial and error and finding what works for you don't let the stigma get in the way of mind health. I'd avoid Prozac tho

 

[Ravier Xavenblood]

3 rounds of interviews only to be rejected. Defeated by life once again. Guess I'll just rot in my semi rural shithole for another year while I can only see my GF every other month.

 

[Betonhaus]

B.C. is on fire and we now have to break out the HEPA air filters and keep the windows closed again.

 

[HyperboreanRightsActivist]

slack

Gosh, I'm tired of slack meetings...

 

[PaleTay]

Watching the Boogie drama is funny but he really reminds me of a fatter but way better adjusted version of my mom. None of my other relatives were much better either, some aunts and uncles were worse but I didn't see them often.

 

[Juan But Not Forgotten]

Changed my job. Already hate it. Can't go back. Take care.

 

[Meriasek]

Got a new job this year which is basically my dream job, moved to a new city and while it's a big city I somehow actually like it, got a surprisingly nice place to live with my gf (got a garden and very nice and friendly neighborhood kitties), and things are generally pretty ok rn.
Still, I'm depressed and worried about the state of basically everything, but it's manageable. I'm determined to do my job to the best of my abilities and enjoy life as much as possible before the general decline makes things too bad.

 

[The Feline Solution]

No antidepressants though. I'd like not to gain weight.

There are lots of anti depressants and anxiety meds out there it's about trial and error and finding what works for you don't let the stigma get in the way of mind health. I'd avoid Prozac tho

I've been on most every zog pill in existance (except Wellbutrin, which most likely would've fixed my shit, seeing how it's an amphetamine. Ever since i started using illegal amphetamine all of my symptoms have disappeared. Not just lessened, they are gone. I learned adult ADD, for which i don't have a diagnosis, gets often confused with clinical depression, which is my official diagnosis. So-called "double depression", dysthymia with long depressive episodes.) at one time or another, from tricyclics to SSRIs and SNRIs, even some off-label shit like Lamotrigine, and i gained weight like a motherfucker on every single one of them.
If you value your waist line (and as a man, your libido), don't get on them. At my heaviest i was 107kg/235 pounds, when i usually hover around the 80kg/176 pounds mark, like now. That was in combination with lithium though, which i never should've been on but some smart-ass doctor thought it would be fine to put "bi-polar" in my patient file, even though i never had a single manic episode in my whole life. There exist photos from that time, from my sisters wedding, where even my own mother didn't recognize who that fatass sitting next to her was when we were looking at them a while ago.

Zog pills should always be the very last choice to resort to and i hate how psychs throw around prescriptions for these like they are candy. I still have lasting damage from this shit even after being completely off any for around 10 years. Pure poison IMO.

 

[DenseDeerFather]

One of these shitty things is listening to the arab couple upstairs having a fight right now at half past 10AM and wondering "will they or won't they kill each other this time?". Both parts annoying and funny, i don't understand why this retard isn't just closing his window before he's losing his mind. I can hear every word and so can the whole street. Unhinged

I seriously hope they don't have kids. Also you'd think that Arabs with their boner for honor and family values would reel their insanity in but alas now I remember watching an Arab couple arguing in the middle of the street in a very active and busy city.

Ended with the woman smacking a phone out of the man's hand and it careened to the ground, smashing into pieces.

He had to scour around for bits.

Watching the Boogie drama is funny but he really reminds me of a fatter but way better adjusted version of my mom. None of my other relatives were much better either, some aunts and uncles were worse but I didn't see them often.

Man I guess I'm doing the lol cow business bad then because just listening to Boogie makes me kinda MATI. But listening to Muta, Jim and even Wings and Destiny of all people lay into him is fucking funny.

Keem should let Wings go bad cop on Boogie until the end of time. Let the battle of the land whales commence!

amphetamine

Which reminds me of my weird feeling I initially got when I was prescribed methylphenidate for ADD. It's the meth part.

But in actuality it's been super helpful for me. I can certainly feel a difference between the days where I take the pill and the days where I don't with the latter turning my brain into a pretzel.

Maybe if I had it during my school days I wouldn't have had such a hard time.

I learned adult ADD, for which i don't have a diagnosis, gets often confused with clinical depression,

Which reminds me, I was told that personality disorders in women is often misdiagnosed and they are just autistic.

It is in general extremely difficult to diagnose women with ADHD much less ADD too

 

[James Howlett]

Job is steady and I'm very much appreciated for what I do for my company. I have a nice little house I'm renting that has a garage and two modes of transportation sitting it. That being said, I have a housekeeper coming in 24 hours, and about 400 lbs. of garbage I need to move because my drinking is once again, out of control.

 

[The Feline Solution]

I seriously hope they don't have kids

They don't, else i've would've called the cops myself already. Younger couple, late twenties, early 30's the most. I talked to dude before, nice enough guy, just severly mentally ill. He doesn't even sound human when he starts shouting. They also talk in english to each other for some reason, i know for a fact they're both palestinian.

Also you'd think that Arabs with their boner for honor and family values would reel their insanity in

My exact same thinking, they both behave extremely shameful and way too public when it comes to that. I suspect they get off in some way to their fighting.

Which reminds me of my weird feeling I initially got when I was prescribed methylphenidate for ADD.

Same shit as amphetamines basically, just less potent. The buzz from abusing it is the same as from Speed.

But in actuality it's been super helpful for me. I can certainly feel a difference between the days where I take the pill and the days where I don't with the latter turning my brain into a pretzel.

Same for me, even when i am not actively using, at least for a certain time. Orders my thinking and makes things going onaround me much more palatable. It's what got me looking into adult ADD and stuff when i initially started using in COVID lockdown times. Not gonna lie about how i take it for therapeutical reasons, though, i quite like the buzz, very much a kind of background drug that gets you high but still leaves you functioning. Still takes its toll on mind and body like every other drug.

 

[⋖ cørdion ⋗]

3 rounds of interviews only to be rejected. Defeated by life once again. Guess I'll just rot in my semi rural shithole for another year while I can only see my GF every other month.

I read this type of shit and go "You faggots get interviews?". I know it doesn't matter cause if I do get an interview, chances are I'm up there in the top 3, but at least landing interviews mean you're generally attractive in one capacity or another. On a similar note: Just learned that 2 people have gone through my workplace with the same degree. Guess they should've prefaced it with "you'll be unemployed, and your only employment chances are in relation to generally having been through university and working since 18, not your actual degree".

I fear I have to stoop to an 'actual' dogshit job to get a foot in anywhere, but surely a master's of any kind qualifies you to be a phone pick-upper at a municipality house somewhere. It's the specific thing they meme about; humanities type graduates getting a cozy meaningless unfireable job in the public sector. Mingle around and end up senior something or other. Shit, I found an old classmate with a degree in fashion sustainability or something equally useless and she's now deep into IT, but only in terms of project management and not doing any actual IT work.

Then I take a step back and realize I don't want to wear formal to work. I want purpose. Market a fucking zoo or something. The local nature society. Not this "Uhhhh logistics is our passion" shit.

 

[soft breathing]

Had one of the biggest migraine-attacks of my life earlier today, and still feel worn out.
Lying on the floor in agony because every soft surface just makes the pain in your head even worse, not being able to sit up without throwing up, and barely able to keep the pain meds down is just not how I wanted to spend the afternoon.

Migraine sucks, I don't wish it on my worst enemy.
(ok, maybe I do)

 

[Shitted Scaredless]

Not me, but today Beatrice is getting her shit yoinked. Wish her luck. (Yes, we did end up keeping her after not being able to find anyone to take her)