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I read this type of shit and go "You faggots get interviews?". I know it doesn't matter cause if I do get an interview, chances are I'm up there in the top 3, but at least landing interviews mean you're generally attractive in one capacity or another
I live in a small town of roughly 10k. Went back to uni at 30 and got a new degree. Fucktards here won't hire me as I'm over qualified. I'll get an interview easily but then just chucked, sorry you'll be better elsewhere, think they're looking for school leavers to train up cheap as shit. Had to go self employed instead.

My personal pity party, my husband complained to the hospital 2 weeks ago that I'd heard nothing from them, turns out my cardiologist has left and his patients have been forgotten about.

I get a call Tuesday asking if I can come for an appointment tomorrow for *mumble* test... Well I don't actually know due to the mumble for what purpose and after 3 years wait I just said oh aye ok, I'm free anytime. It's cardio related anyway so can't be good. Allergic to the ECG pads and microtape so will be clawing my skin for weeks if its one of them.
 
My stinky, awful, horrible, precious baby angel dog was diagnosed with cancer today. He's 12, otherwise in perfect health. Totally blindsided by this. Had him since he was 8 weeks old, him and his siblings were found abandoned in a box during winter. He was the smallest puppy and cried for me when I set him down. I cannot imagine life without him. I'm completely and totally devastated. Please pray to a diety of your choosing for him.
 

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I read this type of shit and go "You faggots get interviews?". I know it doesn't matter cause if I do get an interview, chances are I'm up there in the top 3, but at least landing interviews mean you're generally attractive in one capacity or another. On a similar note: Just learned that 2 people have gone through my workplace with the same degree. Guess they should've prefaced it with "you'll be unemployed, and your only employment chances are in relation to generally having been through university and working since 18, not your actual degree".
Yeah, most applicants don't even make it to that stage and I only have a couple years of experience in my field. Coordinating interviews while working full time is a pain in the ass but I abuse my sick time when they want it done during my work hours.

Oh did I mention all these jobs are 4 hours away near a large city because I'm moving to be closer to my GF. I swear my life progress is nothing but overcomplicated extra steps that make me feel like the main character. So the interviews are done remotely. With all that working against me, I say I'm doing pretty damn good. My social skills are just fucked from being tired half the time though. That and sometimes I notice red flags halfway through the interview too.

Just fucking tired but I want to move and actually take a risk. I'm stagnating hard in this little town.
I fear I have to stoop to an 'actual' dogshit job to get a foot in anywhere, but surely a master's of any kind qualifies you to be a phone pick-upper at a municipality house somewhere. It's the specific thing they meme about; humanities type graduates getting a cozy meaningless unfireable job in the public sector. Mingle around and end up senior something or other. Shit, I found an old classmate with a degree in fashion sustainability or something equally useless and she's now deep into IT, but only in terms of project management and not doing any actual IT work.

Then I take a step back and realize I don't want to wear formal to work. I want purpose. Market a fucking zoo or something. The local nature society. Not this "Uhhhh logistics is our passion" shit.
Did they ever offer you any internships lol? I managed to get my position because I got just enough experience through an unpaid internship that I got through my college, and I barely even did anything except grunt work for like an hour a day.

Also I know an IT guy who has a psych degree of all things, and he's an actual technician too. Not some glorified project manager.
 
Did they ever offer you any internships lol? I managed to get my position because I got just enough experience through an unpaid internship that I got through my college, and I barely even did anything except grunt work for like an hour a day.
Any and all cases ive seen of university graduates doing internships is just straight up waste of time. I live in a relatively great country but even then we exploit the shit out of internships. I had one during university which was basically a guy and 8 unpaid interns mucking about. He had two houses and modest success despite a dogshit business idea that I offered ideas on to fix. "They literally call in with the issues to fix and you just ignore it. They give you the solution".

I don't mind working a crap gig if it means I accumulate days but I don't even do that. "Oh finding a job is easier if you're employed" sure, but the service industry? And wanting to get into an office gig? I just don't see the connection. Also only worked one year and got nothing but gaps on my resume so not like I have an alternative anyway. Point is: 2-3 years of part-time student work while studying is infinitely more important than the degree itself. I had drop-outs who worked since 18 find jobs while I don't even get interviews. Simply because they got the work ethic my parents didn't push onto me.

My government does this "Any university degree 2 IT certificates and then work for us" type of project but it's 90 mins away and again, fuck programming, but it makes me wonder how many other such things I'm missing out on. It's a hail mary that I eventually just get a job without having to re-learn for it. Friend went from call center to whatever hands-in-the-office gig in a SAAS company and now he's being put into courses and shit to get into IT for them. I'd rather that than take a bunch of courses, knowing it won't make up for resume gaps.

I work amongst handiwork folk and all ranges of office women from no qualifications but experience to multi phds, and rather than be inspired and "wow I'd love to work in such an office on third floor with a view", I go "oh, I can't even get a job here while all these braindead bimbos are literally helpless if they spill water". It's actually absurd how much fucking experience matters. "Our 58 year old bitch just left; find us another. Oh a driven and capable 26 year old? Nah that's risky".
 
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My chest x-ray and pulmonary function test were ok. But I'm still coughing. I finally got to the doctor after a month long new patient wait. As soon as I got into the office the receptionist freaked out and made me wear a mask because my last Covid test was all the way back in January. Thankfully the doctor let me take it off because she realised it was an ongoing issue and not likely Covid.

I have to see a pulmonologist and a cardiologist. I don't think anything is wrong with my heart but she says I have to since coughing can indicate problems. My chest really hurts. But I had cardiac tests a few years ago and nothing was wrong. But I had inherited risks so I'm glad I did it. Knowing is better than not knowing.

To tide me over the doctor gave me albuterol. Just take it as directed until I can get more tests done even though it's really not that helpful. It decreases the tightness in my chest but I still cough. It also makes me feel jumpy like I just had an energy drink. I got a headache from it too. Side effects can decrease or disappear with use though. It's better than feeling real tight. It's just probably not the medicine I need. Close enough for now.

Since they closed the Walgreens I have to walk almost four miles round trip to CVS. I can't waste carfare every time I have to pick something up. So I walked. Big mistake. I need to at least take the bus back. But since it's summer I have to wait until it's after 6:30 to go. Otherwise it's too hot to walk two miles. I have lupus and cannot take the heat at all.
 
I finally recovered from being sick. I've been really doing well with my own goals as a parent, wife and an individual.
But I've been giving myself such shit for looking tired. I've lost all my pregnancy weight finally so I'm happy about that... but I'm like 'bitch you look tired stop looking tired.'
Then finally my brain just said "have you considered it's because you ARE tired."
That was way too simple yet mind-blowing at the same time.

Time to fucking get some fucking fuck rest.
 
My stinky, awful, horrible, precious baby angel dog was diagnosed with cancer today. He's 12, otherwise in perfect health. Totally blindsided by this. Had him since he was 8 weeks old, him and his siblings were found abandoned in a box during winter. He was the smallest puppy and cried for me when I set him down. I cannot imagine life without him. I'm completely and totally devastated. Please pray to a diety of your choosing for him.
As a person who sees suffering all the time, my best advice: Don't let him suffer.

Easier said than done. I know how much you love him, but he needs you to make the right calls now. I'm sorry this happened.
 
As a person who sees suffering all the time, my best advice: Don't let him suffer.

Easier said than done. I know how much you love him, but he needs you to make the right calls now. I'm sorry this happened.
Thank you. Luckily right now he's still his normal annoying self but I'm prepared to make hard calls as things change. I'd rather be shattered than have him hurting. I've been trying to focus on the now and take it day by day. For now, he's soft, warm, and there's cows to be laughed at.
 
Feeling oddly guilty because I've just been vegging out all day. Of course, today I had nothing to do other than lay with my little lady here as she recovers from surgery, so we've been lazy together. But what's the point of having a lazy day if your brain won't let you actually enjoy it?
 
My stomach is crap, and I'm on a very restrictive diet. For my birthday, I really wanted something other than chicken for dinner, so a week before I asked my husband to find me something else. My husband bought something I couldn't eat, and I was so fucking disappointed. While I cooked and ate chicken for the billionth time, the rest of my family ate pork ribs which I really like to eat but can't. The whole time they were like extra vocal about how good the ribs were and I was fucking pissed. My husband just left that shit last minute and then decided that I could just eat a food that was going to make me sick for the next week because he couldn't be arsed.
 
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