How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[DavidS877]

i was thinking of getting those, tho i had no money at the time nor do i want my electric bill to spike

in the bedroom alone i have 9 of those non electric dehumidifiers, and i frequently refill them with new packages
i think its some sort of chemical salt or so

i have them scattered around in the other rooms too 1-2 depending on placement

was the best option i had at the time money wise

if i have some money on the side i think ill switch tho
they seem more powerful

Mine running in my garage averages 450W. So 324 kWh/month. For me that's about $30 USD. I keep the garage super-dry though, but it's well sealed. That's almost all heat though, so if you need heating it will offset it some.

They have another type called "Rotary Dessicant" which are quieter, and can work in lower temperatures, not really an issue for most houses. Instead of refrigerant they use the same silica gel as the little packets you can heat to re-activate but they do the same cycle. No idea if they use less power or not. I have one of those in my shed, but the shed is super well sealed and there's no human living in it adding moisture.

Luckily I can drill holes in my house for the hose so both dump their water directly outside so I don't have to empty them.

 

[Meat Target]

It's been a gud last 24 hours.

Had a great softball double-header last night. Won the first game on a walkoff single (of which I scored the winning run), then hit a double first at-bat of the second game.

Went shooting for the first time since like March today. Did better than I thought. Then went home and grilled chicken and borgars.

 

[Friend of Dorothy Parker]

i was thinking of getting those, tho i had no money at the time nor do i want my electric bill to spike

in the bedroom alone i have 9 of those non electric dehumidifiers, and i frequently refill them with new packages
i think its some sort of chemical salt or so

i have them scattered around in the other rooms too 1-2 depending on placement

was the best option i had at the time money wise

if i have some money on the side i think ill switch tho
they seem more powerful

I just ordered 2 dehumidifiers + a bunch of the non-electric sachets that are supposed to help, too. It's temporary until I get some people out to deal with the root cause [this week, I hope], which is probably going to be a 5-figure deal . It's my house, though, so I have no choice.

And as for your heartbreak, you will survive it. I just spent the better part of a week helping one of my kids through the first throes of a sudden heartbreak from the end of the first long-term relationship. Killed my soul to see my child in such pain. But if my experience is any guide, this will pass, and even if you are changed, you yourself are not done or forever-damaged. Only you know the situation and the why, but if it's over, let it be over and move forward. And if you caused the break bc you're not in a place to be good for someone, then you did the right thing letting them go.

 

[Pattern Juggler]

I'm not emo enough anymore to be suicidal, but holy crap am I not enjoying it here.

Been going on long walks since that's supposed to improve mental health, and it absolutely hasn't. Everything feels so foreign now. I don't just mean the endless hordes of literal foreigners that have been inflicted on us, or all the soulless new apartment blocks. Places from my past now feel wrong, because I know there's no going back to those days.

 

[Dieter Laser]

Got my yearly flu shot today. I’m afraid of needles so I look away and grab something with the arm that’s not getting the shot. This time I barely felt the needle and was able to look at the needle after injection. Either the pharmacist is a true pro at giving vaccines or the needles are so small that they don’t hurt as much.

I’m in the same boat you are. I cannot stand needles and I put off any flu shots for years. But the last few years I have gotten one and I haven’t felt anything. I think it’s a combination of skill and technology. I’m glad you were able to get past it.

Thread tax - things have been going well but I def had a breakdown over some upcoming vet visits. It’s 2-3k which honestly idgaf about, what set me off was just the worry involved with them not feeling 100%. Money is pretty useless in the grand scheme of things and can be replaced a lot easier than a loved one can be.

 

[Deezy]

Thread tax - things have been going well but I def had a breakdown over some upcoming vet visits. It’s 2-3k which honestly idgaf about, what set me off was just the worry involved with them not feeling 100%. Money is pretty useless in the grand scheme of things and can be replaced a lot easier than a loved one can be.

Ooof. My cat suffers from a condition that required extensive dental surgery earlier this year, so I sympathize with your worries. Your pets are so lucky to be loved so dearly.

Right now I’ve got that funny little tickle in the back of my throat that I usually get before coming down with a cold. Unsure if it’s the real thing or if I’m just dehydrated and hungover, but I’m procrastinating going to sleep because I dread finding out.

 

[Betonhaus]

My prescription safety goggles from Zenni for work finally came in, and it turns out that the pictures hid the fact that they don't seal on the bottom and sides so I can't use them. So Monday I'm shopping them back and I found a trustworthy looking site (Rx safety) that actually focuses on different types of prescription safety glasses and ordered from them, though it might be too late for them to arrive before this contract ends.

This contract has been tough and it still goes for two weeks, but it sounds like it's not a normal length and that they are usually only 3-7 days long. I think my direct supervisor is happy with me and I think I'll get invited for more contracts in the future, but I do want to get my car assessed to see if it's cheaper to repair or replace as preliminary investigation indicates that might be a close call. I may or may not get to continue with the company, and the 2x2 line boring job a friend mentioned he says I should get some more experience under my belt first.

 

[Betonhaus]

Costco had these weird frozen crustless peanut butter and jelly sandwich things and I got a box thinking it would be nice to have as the occasional snack once a day or something.

I have regrets now.

 

[The Feline Solution]

My girlfriend and I broke up, yet I'm indifferent. It was fun while it lasted, but I feel relieved rather than sad. I don't really want to try and find anyone else either. Having a girlfriend felt like a chore. I know that makes me an austist and all. I get that. But I don't feel like I lost or failed anything.

Now I'll just go back to how I lived before I had a girlfriend. And now I realize that I really am happier living how I want instead of jumping through hoops for other people's expectations. This is just my own personal take on it.

I'm feeling that. I'm together with my current girlfriend for more than ten years but i am convinced i could go back to normal without much problems and in no time should things end tommorow. I am not even worried that this might come off as cold and callous to people, i know there's some things wrong with my emotions in general. All i am certain of is that i handle things much better when i am alone compared to when i have to take care of others or, as you said, have to fit others expectations of me.

Tax:
Still sick as a dog, hope i'll be okay in the coming days, i hate how much i turn into a whiny bitch when i am sick. Birthday is coming up and for once i actually want to do something with people this year, which is a rarity.

It's been a gud last 24 hours.

Had a great softball double-header last night. Won the first game on a walkoff single (of which I scored the winning run), then hit a double first at-bat of the second game.

Went shooting for the first time since like March today. Did better than I thought. Then went home and grilled chicken and borgars.

The American Dream

Places from my past now feel wrong, because I know there's no going back to those days.

Something i am feeling hard and have been struggling with, too, lately. The past wasn't even that great for me but goddamn, i want the 90's back so bad again. Pre-Globohomo, pre-consumer grade internet. Sometimes i think the modern internet took the magic out of the world. I need to stop typing, i feel the whiny bitch energy soaring

 

[WhoBusTank69]

Places from my past now feel wrong, because I know there's no going back to those days.

If it's any consolation, people older than you felt this way about your memories too. It may be time for a new perspective, as opposed to looking for the feelings that can't be brought back.

 

[JustSomeDong]

One of my neighbors is kind of a weird "Karen" type. Half libshit winemom/half tradwife wannabe hybrid. She was in her back yard with her kids, I was up on my upper deck about to replace a light fixture, when I dropped something, and said "Fuck" rather loudly. Apparently, this is a mortal sin with her junior high aged angel children near. So I politely came down, went to the fence, apologized, but also explained they've heard far worse, and invited her to come through the gate any school morning after her kids leave, sit on my patio, and listen to her little angels at the bus stop, which is right in front of my house. I told her that her children are far saltier than my cantankerous ass could ever hope to be. And more inventive in their cursing, to which her kids guiltily grinned, which was pretty funny to me and her. To my surprise, she actually took it well, apologized for getting upset, somewhat lightly chastised her kids, and all ended pleasantly.

 

[Dean Pentel]

If any of you are suffering from addiction, depression, or grappling with a TBI, look into the research on the therapeutic effects of hallucinogens, specifically psilocybin (ibogaine and DMT also work but those are much, much more expensive typically).

Also, you know the "these edibles ain't shit" meme? You can definitely do that with psilocybin. Just trust me on that one.

I had no clue how truly therapeutic these things could be.

 

[Liquid denim]

Work has me constantly stressed. I work well in duos or trios, but a six person team is too much for me. There are times it feels you are doing everything, and times you don't do shit. Tomorrow at 2 the team has to present a powerpoint, and we are a third of the way there. It might be red bull time.
The only positive is I talked to a very nice woman as I was leaving work.

 

[equinsu_ocha]

I'm recovering from a pretty intense infection and the side effects given by the nuclear grade antibiotics I was on. Monday I have an MRI to determine if I have a type of brain tumor called a prolactinoma. It's most likely not malignant, but I may need to be on another god damn medication or consider surgery to remove it. Seriously hoping it's a nothing burger simply because I'm exhausted by all my medical bullshit as of late. I just want to be healthy and able to enjoy my life again. It's been nearly a year of testing, hospitals and medications paired with feeling horrible. I'm fucking over it. I'm tired. Let's get this shit over with pretty please.

Oh and I was diagnosed with ADHD recently which I found hysterically funny. Came out of the blue and the doctor is practically throwing legal meth at me. Not a good idea with the blood pressure issues I've been having lately, genius.

I've been trying to laugh about it all... but today I don't feel much like laughing.

Just wanted to say I don't have a tumor, and life is looking up. I'm breathing a huge sigh of relief. Still fighting with rheumatic disease but everything else is improving greatly. I have a smile on my face and things are feeling alright. Here's to everyone else here getting a little sunshine in their day.

 

[Poopy Face Tomato Nose]

Shit's been a roller coaster lately. It's like a sinking ship in a cheesy comedy movie. Hole bursts in the hull, you stick your finger in the hole to plug it, and every time you do so, a new hole pops open, leaving you covering new holes, but abandoning the previous one to plug the new one. Nothing new or life changing in the past few months, which is really boring, but in the position I'm in, also really good. Doing my time like a good little wagie and doing my best to pull myself out of the colossal shithole I managed to dig myself into.

I have a massive living situation change that is really stressing me out, and I'm not really sure I'm gonna be able to pull it off. I pray to God that the pieces will fall into place like they did at the beginning of the year.

Stressed out about smaller things as well, such as relationship status, but ultimately I'm able to get past all of that as my focus is being shifted to keeping myself alive and on the right track. Although It'd be nice.

2024 has not been kind to me this year, bros. I'm able to keep my head above the water by telling myself that it could always be worse, and there are worse things happening to better people. It's nice that this thread exists, even if noone reads this post, simply because it's nice to type out some of the thoughts and feelings I have late at night.

 

[bliblblblbbllb]

There are times it feels you are doing everything, and times you don't do shit.

I felt that one in my bones.

Really funny dynamic that has happened to me multiple times at my current job:
My manager isn't actually experienced in the actual work we do, she's just a manager in the "stands there and annoys people" bullshit job way. So when there was basically no work to be done, she came and asked me, "Hey bliblblb, what still needs cleaned, what can 'we' (everyone but her) be doing right now?"
I said, "Oh, well I've already restocked, I've already done xyz.... but you know, we could still wipe down the xyz, and we could use this time to re-sort the blahblahblah, and I know it's rough but we probably should change the blahblahblah while it's quiet so we don't have to do it later..."
And so my manager claps her hands and goes, "Did you guys hear all that? Get to it!"
So I start cleaning, and re-sorting, and changing things.... and no one else does shit. My manager will ask me to come up with busywork for the team to do.... but then I'M the only one actually doing it!
I do as much busywork as possible, it makes you look like a hardworker. If there's time to lean, there's time to clean. But I actually never, ever, ask for more work. I believe it's an insult to your superiors: it means you're saying they don't know how to manage people's time and labor. ....Also you always get screwed if you do that.

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A woman in my life tried to pay me back for her fuck-up by gifting me food that I physically cannot eat- it was really awkward and I felt bad about it.

It gave me some sort of PTSD-like flashback to my ex gf who had BPD, because she would intentionally create those types of awkward encounters with me as some sort of retarded BPD chess move. Now I'm forever cursed with feeling suspicious that other people are doing the same thing. However I don't think that was really the case. The only kernel of truth to it is that sometimes I think people see me not eating the same as others, and it subconsciously influences them to want to bring me food to try to include me, or something like that.

 

[anustart76]

My manager isn't actually experienced in the actual work we do, she's just a manager in the "stands there and annoys people" bullshit job way.

I have this same situation and I want to quit so badly.

 

[⋖ cørdion ⋗]

Wanted to clean my cat's fountain but the water was too hot (or too much citric acid) so the whole frame got deformed and won't fit. It's a big hunk of plastic shit but still, needing to buy a new one sucks. Hopefully ceramic is easier to keep clean, but we do have hard water. Tempted to just buy bottled water for the new fountain. Not like she drinks a lot anyway.

I think the reason my 'gaming mindset' affects me so is that it tells of a future potential. I hide all the Steam games I don't play, leaving behind those I've genuine interest in, and sometimes I look at the list and go "yeah that's a good spread of personality and variety". Then I realize I won't actually play those games, hide them, and then I'm back to the same infinite builders and indie games and I just go "oh, there's no end to this. I can't beat and uninstall these" and I just get mellow.

Which plays into my newest revelation: A clean mind is just so fucking good. Meet up for work without a worry and taking shit at it comes. Not rushing out the door once it's over cause you don't mind getting home all of 4-5 minutes later. Going to bed with no need to be on your phone cause you've stopped doomscrolling. Nobody on Discord replies anyway and the public servers are nonstop image spam.

I watched a video yesterday about how youtube and netflix are just designed to waste your time, and dudebro had a fucking app to limit his exposure to different apps to 15 mins a day, and I'm just wondering; isn't it 50 times easier to uninstall the shit and cold turkey it? Replace spotify with sounds of nature and endless netflix background noise with something you actually wanna watch. Or not, at all. I turned my second monitor vertically, meaning it's less useful for watching shit and it helped a lot in making me focus on my primary one.

 

[Betonhaus]

Wanted to clean my cat's fountain but the water was too hot (or too much citric acid) so the whole frame got deformed and won't fit. It's a big hunk of plastic shit but still, needing to buy a new one sucks. Hopefully ceramic is easier to keep clean, but we do have hard water. Tempted to just buy bottled water for the new fountain. Not like she drinks a lot anyway.

i thought hard water can be bad for their kidneys? maybe fill their fountain from a brita filter or wherever you get your drinking water?

 

[The Feline Solution]

If any of you are suffering from addiction, depression, or grappling with a TBI, look into the research on the therapeutic effects of hallucinogens, specifically psilocybin (ibogaine and DMT also work but those are much, much more expensive typically).

Also, you know the "these edibles ain't shit" meme? You can definitely do that with psilocybin. Just trust me on that one.

I had no clue how truly therapeutic these things could be.

My brother has been getting into that after he met his new girlfriend last year, he dropped his coke habit and even stopped drinking in favour of shrooms. Did wonders for his emotional well-being, he connected with his father again after years of basically no contact for example. He pretty much swears by it now, went as far as pulling up his own shrooms, seeing as they are quite hard to get around here, everybody just sells and wants coke. I'm still very apprehensive when it comes to hallucinogens, schizophrenia runs in parts of my family (we are half-siblings so he is untouched by that) and i don't want to end up with a fried brain, Lord knows it's cooked enough already from the shit i partake in.

i thought hard water can be bad for their kidneys?

Only if you are Jack Scalfani Water is very hard here all over the country and i've been drinking pretty much nothing but tap all my life and never had any ill effects from it (i know, very small sample size).

Edit: And i can't read, you guys are talking about cats. Only thing i can add to that is i have to trick my cat into getting more water up her because she staunchly refuses drinking out of her bowl. Not even those fancy fountains animated her to drink. I mix two teaspoons of water into every portion of wet food.