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[Core Theorist]

Somewhat stuck but still hopeful.

Autism below:

Spoiler: power levels

I'm wondering what to do and spend time on for the foreseeable future. The only real practical option available to me right now is more online education. I found and did a freebie pharmaceutical course but actually using it, that isn't working out nearly as fast as I wanted, so I figure I might as well do some more of something else. I'm poor so gubmint educamacashun poorbux are an option but I don't know what a usable 'real degree' is that I could actually be bothered to do.

I keep hearing about engineering careers, stuff like that, and I am admittedly about that level of autistic, but I dunno, I also hear it's super competitive and I can't imagine going from NEET to a "competitor" in one go, right? On the other hand I'm going fucking stir crazy, so I better figure out something.

I will take recommendations from the general public.

EDIT: typos

 

[Betonhaus]

Somewhat stuck but still hopeful.

Autism below:

Spoiler: power levels

I'm wondering what to do and spend time on for the foreseeable future. The only real practical option available to me right now is more online education. I found and did a freebie pharmaceutical course but actually using it, that isn't working out nearly as fast as I wanted, so I figure I might as well do some more of something else. I'm poor so gubmint educamacashun poorbux are an option but I don't know what a usable 'real degree' is that I could actually be bothered to do.

I keep hearing about engineering careers, stuff like that, and I am admittedly about that level of autistic, but I dunno, I also hear it's super competitive and I can't imagine going from NEET to a "competitor" in one go, right? On the other hand I'm going fucking stir crazy, so I better figure out something.

I will take recommendations from the general public.

EDIT: typos

Find a trade? Generally the only good jobs left are ones that can't be outsourced to diversity hires, or require connections.

 

[Sneeter Rabbit]

currently laying awake again
feelings
tears

the wish of going completely non verbal
but of course i cant, i need to talk to work
make money to survive, talk to people everyday

i will push off all doubts in some hours
but at times i dont know why i am doing this all

the world goes on, you live unafflicted from it
why do i keep my heart open for you then?

but tomorrow i will still love you, and i will still hope it could all be without hurt

i will still hope i am a human, worth of hope and love

manchmal steht die welt einfach still
nur für mich
für euch alle geht sie weiter

you will hurt me, i knew what was coming
it is okay, i forgive you

im just not intelligent enough
funny what these feelings will make you believe

humans are something

und die katze tantzt allein...
du schreibst auch ein bisschen wie nina power

 

[Core Theorist]

Find a trade? Generally the only good jobs left are ones that can't be outsourced to diversity hires, or require connections.

Yeah, I know, it's ol'reliable but I can't independently get to a workplace right now in person. If I could get straight to working asap I would but I'm very poor and live in the near-boonies without a car, so it just isn't practical. It's a damn shame.

ADDENDUM: I just figure that, y'know, I might as well be the most over-qualified hire ever as soon as I actually find something, right?

EDIT: more info

 

[Sneeter Rabbit]

I will take recommendations from the general public.

EDIT: typos

i hear welding is always a solid career choice, along with plumbing, but the former is probably more fun. also more dangerous. guy in my local is an underwater welder ('hyperbaric welding' its called apparently) on an oil rig off the coast of north prison island, which is afaik ridiculously dangerous work, but probably even more fun

 

[Core Theorist]

i hear welding is always a solid career choice, along with plumbing, but the former is probably more fun. also more dangerous. guy in my local is an underwater welder ('hyperbaric welding' its called apparently) on an oil rig off the coast of north prison island, which is afaik ridiculously dangerous work, but probably even more fun

Yeah, I'd love to do something like that where I actually go to work and do Real Man Shit (if not that specific example, underwater shit is 2spooky4me). I'm trying to look into engineering/mechanical education related stuff to tide me over. But, for gay real life reasons it pretty much has to be online for me to be able to reliably do it, so that's lame.

EDIT: I keep hitting enter too fast lol

 

[WhatInTheActualFuck]

Yeah, I'd love to do something like that where I actually go to work and do Real Man Shit (if not that specific example, underwater shit is 2spooky4me). I'm trying to look into engineering/mechanical education related stuff to tide me over. But, for gay real life reasons it pretty much has to be online for me to be able to reliably do it, so that's lame.

EDIT: I keep hitting enter too fast lol

Coming to terms with the fact that if any given job was actually awesome, they wouldn't have to pay you to do it helps. Find something you can tolerate and recoup the bits of your soul you lose during the work week on the weekend or by spending time with family and friends.

Can you find something to get paid to do that you really love? Sure. Is it likely in the current environment? Probably not.

 

[Betonhaus]

Barring that, find something that sends you to a camp where they cover your food and housing and make bank

 

[Archeops]

Well this month has been a bit funky for me.

My trip up to the PNW was very hectic. What was originally going to be three days of traveling (two days via Amtrak, a night at a hotel in Downtown Seattle, and trip on an airporter bus from Seattle's convention center to a ferry landing that would take to islands a family member is staying in) ended up turning into...

Spoiler: The details

1. 12 hours of travel and a safe place to get some some shut-eye via Amtrak. The train I was taking was terminated in Sacramento due to a freight train car filled with lithium-ion batteries further up the tracks catching on fire. Riders had the option to end their trip at Sacramento or travel back down the line to their origin stops, I went with the former due to me getting up there ASAP being a priority. Thankfully my ticket ended up being refunded due to this incident. And no, it hasn't scared me away from taking Amtrak in the future but it has made me a bit more wary about booking shit for Labor Day travel.
2. Spending a day-and-a-half in Sacramento. I made travel arraignments to get from Sacramento to Seattle but I couldn't book it for the day-of due to seats selling out, I ended up booking a stay at a hotel near the station and thankfully it wasn't too bad.
3. A night and part of a day of traveling via two bus from Sacramento to Seattle with a connection in Portland. Unfortunately the bus I took from Sacramento ended up arriving late in Portland due to traffic but thankfully there was plenty of room in another bus that was leaving about an hour later. Unfortunately I had to make more changes here due to the airporter times not really being in-sync with the ferry times.
4. A night in Seattle. I spent a night at a hotel in near Sea-Tac Airport due to the above issues with the buses, the family member I'm traveling up to meet and I agreed that trying to navigate the airporter and ferry times was just too much after 2-3 stressful days of traveling and making phone calls to various travel companies. I ended up using the afternoon to destress by visiting some old stomping grounds of mine back in the day.
5. A half-day of traveling via bus and ferry. This trip was probably the least stressful day of travel I had, it was a simple matter of catching the airporter bus, making a connection with another one of their buses, and catching the ferry. There was a small amount of stress when it arrived slightly late but thankfully the other bus was waiting for us and the only stop it was making was at the ferry landing. The ferry trip was pretty peaceful and I was picked up as soon as I got off.

I did end up getting and losing a couple of things: I picked up a roller suitcase due my bad packing skills biting me in the ass, some stuff at a Pink Gorilla Games in Seattle (some Pokémon plushies and a used Xbox Elite Series 2 controller with all the fixings), some clothing, and I found a lost pair of Bose headphones that nobody reported as being missing after checking with Sea-Tac Airport's security. I lost a bag of dirty clothes at some point during the trip (which I ended up replacing for the most part) and the dock for my Nintendo Switch.

As far as the stay up here has been it's been cozy, I ended up having to stay in a tent due to space issues but the tent's pretty spacious (it's one of those big ones that can fit up to 8 people in it) and there have been only a few rainy days. Outside of that I've mostly been making sure the pets my family member bought with 'em aren't raising hell and helping them out when needed. I did have a few days off to myself which I ended spending on another island and, after learning how to navigate the transit schedules, the mainland.

Getting back home to LA (even if I don't want to) is going to be much easier than getting up, I'll be traveling back with said family member and their pets via car.

 

[EverybodyWalktheDinosaur]

Hello everyone,

I'm having a very odd week so far.

I did some amateur plumbing this morning which was unexpected and gross but I got through it! Yay!

My plantar fasciitis is healing well according to the physiotherapist and my foot has been taped to stabilise it. Unfortunately, I've now got a bit of a hobble because sore. My toenails also desperately need a pedicure (the polish is coming off and this annoys me) but I can't now because taped foot.

Annoyingly, I broke something in a SharePoint list and overwrote part of a dataset and can't seem to figure out how to restore the previous version from before I borked it! Agh!

Hope you all have a great day

 

[Ravier Xavenblood]

Had an IRL job interview in my GF's city and it went better than any of the online ones I've had in the past. Of course that means nothing, because the competition is probably stiff but still, progress and optimism.

But then my GF had a mental episode today and told me she's not sure if she's ready for me to move up there and that her mental state's been pretty bad lately. Like "clinical depression self isolation" bad. Almost broke up with her today and I'm still mad at her for telling me this shit AFTER I went on an impromptu trip to interview and see her. She's seeking help but I'm 100% holding her accountable for that. We talked it out and I addressed her concerns but still, I am never going to forgive her if I have to turn down a fucking job offer.

God, her communication is worse than mine sometimes. And yeah, I'm a selfish cunt for blowing up at my GF during her anxiety attack because she almost made all my effort and hard work for nothing.

 

[Nick Obre]

Allergies have been kicking my ass for the last week or two.

I continue to hate Indians. At least the ones I work with, incompetent fucks, why do I have to pretty much write your emails for you?

On the good side, some time ago I noticed a small "medieval/viking"-themed fair nearby. Went to it and found some neat stuff. Artisanal products, art, etc. Then I found out there was one about a month ago a little further but within walking distance, and convinced Kid to check it out.

She fucking loved it. It was pretty makeshift and not that cool but she loved it, got herself some elf ears and we participated on some Tolkien quiz things and won a book and an artisanal BBQ sauce. She asked me to take her to these things whenever they happened, so I looked into it and last week (which coincided with Kid's school-free week) there was a larger, multi-day viking-themed fair, so we went again. She got a green velvet cape, wore the elf ears with it all along, we had some nice food, got some more souvenirs, watched medieval fights and competitions, etc.

So it's been fun. There's another one at a rather distant place a couple weeks from now, but she wants to go again.

She says she's really liking goth fashion and wonders if she should be a goth when she's a bit older, which I'm fine with. I had a goth girlfriend before I met her mom. It's a neat aesthetic.
I've also liked some artisanal male jewelry and accessories, as in "that looks real neat", and I've wondered if I should start wearing shit like that. I've never been one for elaborate looks, the most I ever had was long hair, sunglasses, and leather jacket when I was young. And I'm almost 40, it's a bit late to rebrand into bulky rings and leather stuff, and I can't even grow my hair long anymore. Plus it's too much hassle.

Anyway, all of this just to say try to get out and see cool shit that you don't see often. It might brighten your days a bit.

 

[AnOminous]

Had an IRL job interview in my GF's city and it went better than any of the online ones I've had in the past. Of course that means nothing, because the competition is probably stiff but still, progress and optimism.

But then my GF had a mental episode today and told me she's not sure if she's ready for me to move up there and that her mental state's been pretty bad lately. Like "clinical depression self isolation" bad. Almost broke up with her today and I'm still mad at her for telling me this shit AFTER I went on an impromptu trip to interview and see her. She's seeking help but I'm 100% holding her accountable for that. We talked it out and I addressed her concerns but still, I am never going to forgive her if I have to turn down a fucking job offer.

God, her communication is worse than mine sometimes. And yeah, I'm a selfish cunt for blowing up at my GF during her anxiety attack because she almost made all my effort and hard work for nothing.

I'm trying to figure out who's the giant autist here. Did you suddenly show up out of nowhere out of what had been a long-distance relationship? Because that's autistic as fuck.

Did you let her know beforehand you were going to be in town and ask if she wanted to see you? Less so.

If she really did just freak out because you had a job interview there, that's one thing. That's leave the gun bitch, keep the cannoli job.

But it's pretty boundary pushing if you've been in an LDR up until now just to show up unannounced. If you announced and she agreed, then freaked out later, she's a nutjob. But if you just showed up. . .that's kind of fucked, dude. That's some serious tism.

 

[pot of sneed]

Doing good! Working so many hours but had my one day off this week. Spent it ripping out a lot of shit in my bedroom and giving it the good deep clean, rearranging bed and other shit so I can get a second snake enclosure installed. Spent most of the day doing just that but man, does it feel good to have such a fresh room. Back to work for another week though but soon I won't be doing as much overtime. Make hay while the sun shines, friends!

 

[Ravier Xavenblood]

I'm trying to figure out who's the giant autist here. Did you suddenly show up out of nowhere out of what had been a long-distance relationship? Because that's autistic as fuck.

Did you let her know beforehand you were going to be in town and ask if she wanted to see you? Less so.

If she really did just freak out because you had a job interview there, that's one thing. That's leave the gun bitch, keep the cannoli job.

But it's pretty boundary pushing if you've been in an LDR up until now just to show up unannounced. If you announced and she agreed, then freaked out later, she's a nutjob. But if you just showed up. . .that's kind of fucked, dude. That's some serious tism.

Oh no, I'm not that autistic. I told her I'd be there and we got a hotel room together and did our usual stuff for a couple days. Sorry if I didn't make that clear. I'd never, ever show up unannounced.

She freaked out after the fact because all her worries came to a head.

 

[Fear&LoathinginMcDonalds]

Realized today that I have completely lost my reciprocating saw and it's bugging the crap out of me.

Lost it so completely that I was actually starting to doubt if I ever owned one. But the spare blades are right there where they're supposed to be, so I haven't just imagined the thing. I asked everyone I could have possibly lent a reciprocating saw to and no luck, hell, I can even remember the last thing I used it for.

I cant imagine that it was stolen out of my shed, because there's probably 2 grand worth of other tools in there that weren't so that really doesn't make sense to take one specific tool that you probably couldnt pawn for 20 bucks.

Worst part is, I don't even need it for anything. I just happened to notice that it was missing and now it's going to keep me up all night.

 

[AnOminous]

Oh no, I'm not that autistic. I told her I'd be there and we got a hotel room together and did our usual stuff for a couple days. Sorry if I didn't make that clear. I'd never, ever show up unannounced.

That sounds like psycho behavior and maybe she's worth it. But it's definitely a warning sign. I wouldn't give up a good job but get ready for her not to be available afterwards. Maybe she can get better.

 

[Ravier Xavenblood]

That sounds like psycho behavior and maybe she's worth it. But it's definitely a warning sign. I wouldn't give up a good job but get ready for her not to be available afterwards. Maybe she can get better.

It's not my job to fix the bitch and I've told her this in more polite words. My job is alright but this one I applied for sounds better even if the pay bump is only like an extra $2.50 an hour.

Moving for someone who seems so wishy washy is what bothers me. Sure I'd probably have more luck making friends in her city than I do here, but at what cost.

 

[Betonhaus]

It's not my job to fix the bitch and I've told her this in more polite words. My job is alright but this one I applied for sounds better even if the pay bump is only like an extra $2.50 an hour.

Moving for someone who seems so wishy washy is what bothers me. Sure I'd probably have more luck making friends in her city than I do here, but at what cost.

If you two decide that you have nothing in common, what are the chances that you would regularly bump into each other without trying?

If you can find friends and a nice place to live, it could be possible to enjoy the environment more even if you don't see her any more then before.

 

[Ravier Xavenblood]

If you two decide that you have nothing in common, what are the chances that you would regularly bump into each other without trying?

If you can find friends and a nice place to live, it could be possible to enjoy the environment more even if you don't see her any more then before.

Slim but not impossible and I admit I'm not emotionally mature enough to handle running into an ex in public. We'd go to the same stores too.