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Went to the gym last night for push day, I'm working my way back up...so I only got up to 65 lbs on an overhead shoulder press
((I've been told that's in the "intermediate" category for female weight lifters generally))

I used to be able to go 75 lbs without a smith machine, my goal is to break 100 lbs to reach advanced, then to get to 107 lbs for the elite title.

((Strengthlevel.com is awesome))

TL;DR
female kiwi is trying to max out her strength score for funsies 🥰
 
I've been trying to model shit to be all artsy and I realized I can't freehand anything without overthinking it, feelsbadman. It's a little lame to think I can't model stuff directly without multiple direct reference images from every angle like some kind of normie but it's a good thing to know.
 
It's a little lame to think I can't model stuff directly without multiple direct reference images from every angle like some kind of normie but

As a fellow artist I'd like to encourage you to change your perspective:
You're not using references for the sake of reference, you're doing an artistic study of the subject.

I use references all the time when I'm having a hard time just spitting out what I'm thinking. ❤️

They're a learning aid, and if you draw/create off of enough references, eventually you won't need them.
 
As a fellow artist I'd like to encourage you to change your perspective:
You're not using references for the sake of reference, you're doing an artistic study of the subject.

I use references all the time when I'm having a hard time just spitting out what I'm thinking. ❤️

They're a learning aid, and if you draw/create off of enough references, eventually you won't need them.
thank you sensei, I will endeavor to continue and do you proud with many artistic studies.
 
Something very strange happened yesterday that's only happened one other time that I can remember. In a very niche area of the Internet, I came across someone who I used to know from almost a decade ago, completely divorced from the previous shared interest. I didn't make myself known and there's no doubt that it's the same person as the username is very unique. As I said, this happened one other time a couple of years ago. It caught me off guard then and I tried to identify myself but they didn't remember who I was so I don't think I'm going to out myself trying it again.
 
Have had a sinus infection for two months. First run of antibiotics did nothing. Have been prescribed both clindamycin and cefdinir, and I'm fucking scared to death to take this stuff. Really scared of side effects. (:_(
 
First day at work. The bus ride was horrible. When my anxiety goes into over drive, my chest and stomach hurt like a bitch like I ate Indian street food when all I consumed was Skyr with some granola.

It was also late because of course it was. My bus home was even more delayed and it's colder than an ice queen's frigid nipple.

For what it was, it was alright. My boss is nice and my one coworker is well not annoying. The anxiety decreased by the end. Which is nice because the closer the day arrived, the more I wanted to crawl on the walls like a psychotic gremlin going through a mental breakdown.

I really want booze now though which is not good. I'd like not to fall into habit of getting tipsy every time I decompress from stress.

All in all though I feel alright. Here's to hoping something doesn't piss me or ruin it.
 
Work was alright, I'm currently getting ready to go to a keynote speaker event thing with my husband.
I'm not looking forward to it, but at least I'll know some people there.

My jaw still **really** hurts after my dentist appointment yesterday. I had to get a "buckle" on my tooth filled so it doesn't have issues in the future.
They gave me an injection straight into my jaw or something, I don't remember, I kept my eyes shut lol

The needle was YUGE.
 
My dad's dog was diagnosed with a rare and aggressive cancer today. It apparently developed and spread quickly as this cancer is found from platelet abnormalities and that was only discovered in her blood work two weeks ago. The only treatment has a success rate of 40% and even then best case is she lives for another 4 to 6 months. This past week she has developed no appetite, difficulty breathing, spasms, and is obviously in pain. She's only 8.

I'll really miss her. I was one of her favorite people and when I would visit she would wait for me to sit down and throw her head into my neck and cry and give me kisses. It won't be the same without her there and wanting to cuddle up next to me.
 
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