How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[marjoram]

Nigga, what the fuck are you doing posting on Kiwi Farms? There's a drugged out crazy person punching holes in the walls of your house. Call the fucking police, dumbass.

Did last night..they did nothing.

Ah, and just to finish the thought— guess what roomie did when the three cops walked out the door after doing nothing? Betcha don’t even need three guesses. Apparently I have to be beaten before they will do anything. But screaming, punching holes in walls and generally being a lunatic is A-ok.

Small town ‘America folks

 

[marjoram]

Let's see your stuff!



You need to get out of this living situation love. It's not just about you, there's pets involved who are freaked out.

Trying. Have already started the process with DV services. But they’re slow, I hope Monday brings something helpful.

And other dude....I worry more for my cats than myself. Trust.

 

[hothead]

Not so hot. My roommate has lost his mind. He needs weed to level him out and he was out of it. I called someone to try and hook him up which I did. This was apparently a bad thing. He’s been screaming at me since 1 pm yesterday. Non stop, all night long, all day today. He’s always had some mental problems but nothing like this. He’s trying to throw me out of an apartment that I pay for right down the middle. There are many new holes in the walls and the cats are terrified. I am currently hiding in my room.

so much for so-called "peaceful stoners"

 

[MyBushDid9/11]

Just so tired and upset and scared

Spoiler

Only reason I won't kms myself is because I'll do it wrong again

 

[Anonitolia]

Not enjoying the sudden realization that I’ve got maybe three years to meet people in person before quite a lot of my most basic goals (relating to people) start drying up.

That’s on the backburner though lol. Much greater concern at the moment is how to live life since i’m slowly paralyzing myself. I’ve heard all the advice a thousand times and taken all the medications and all the latter ever did was drive me insane while the former put salt into the wound or only helped a little. I do not like being in uncharted territory when talking about basic ability to live life, it is scary, I am not enjoying it please send help lol.

nah, really. I’ll get past this fine, I have done so with tougher things before. I just hope I don’t need an institution to do it

 

[Betonhaus]

so much for so-called "peaceful stoners"

I find that they self medicate as an alternative to coping with stress, which just makes the stress even worse.

Last night was not very good for similar reasons, though not to the same degree. I think once i'm stable with my work i might want to find a place to move out on my own to, but rent is so expensive here.

 

[Lance 45]

Let's see your stuff!

Not really sure what to share. All I make is SFW stuff and nothing weird. Being arbitrarily banned to the point of overkill despite just posting my art and engaging in no drama makes me not even want to open blender most days.

 

[Just a boring name]

I've been ill since Saturday with some kind of virus.
Everything hurts, I'm getting a hot then cold feeling, and the cold feeling runs up my spine to my shoulders then down my arms.

Brain feels like it's shrinking inside my skull but throbbing at the same time.

I've lost my voice, my chest is tight and I've got a very painful cough.

Today I didn't even make it into work because I feel so ill.

Apparently in the middle of a fever dream I pathetically croaked to my husband that I have "Pineapple Flower Disease" because the cold feeling running up my spine felt like a Pineapple growing upwards.

Fckn embarrassing.

 

[Lukie]

Not really sure what to share. All I make is SFW stuff and nothing weird. Being arbitrarily banned to the point of overkill despite just posting my art and engaging in no drama makes me not even want to open blender most days.

Post some of your favourite stuff on my profile or the game dev thread. I only make SFW stuff too but always interested in seeing what people are upto.

 

[Jason Wynn]

You know you've left your youth behind when you need to get up like 4-5 times a night to go take a piss. Sucks getting woken up every couple of hours because your body is telling you to empty your bladder NOW NOW NOW!

 

[Imp]

You know you've left your youth behind when you need to get up like 4-5 times a night to go take a piss. Sucks getting woken up every couple of hours because your body is telling you to empty your bladder NOW NOW NOW!

You could try limiting your fluid intake after 6 PM and if you're a man, get your prostate checked.

Some societies it is (or was) a badge of honor to get old and doddery.

 

[Scream Aim Fire]

I've had the realization that I genuinely don't know what I even like these days. Put simply, everything either provokes no form of emotion, or stresses me out WAY too easily; writing? I've got writer's block. Games? Everything's either infected with wokeshit, plain boring, or I've already played to death. Television? Either wokeshit or depression. Outdoor activities? Nothing to do on my end, not helped with the weather. Friends and Family? Everyone's busy and/or can't be reached.

It's not just activities, either; I can't even think of what my favorite things are. Found I couldn't list my favorite foods or places when I got asked, could barely even think of what I really enjoyed. Everything just feels... depressing these days. Probably doesn't help that I'm currently out of a job and getting near-continuously pestered to find a new one, like it's supposed to just pop up out of thin air.

Talking with my family doesn't help. "Other people have had it harder than you", "You better be thankful you have anything you spoiled brat", "Just grow up and be happy", "It's your fault you can't find a job with that college degree", that sort of shit.

 

[BABANGUIDE64]

Talking with my family doesn't help. "Other people have had it harder than you", "You better be thankful you have anything you spoiled brat", "Just grow up and be happy", "It's your fault you can't find a job with that college degree", that sort of shit.

But isn't there a pinch of truth in their words?

 

[obsdj]

"Other people have had it harder than you"

Other people's problems do not invalidate your own. Keep trying to find enjoyment somewhere. Also, you might want to see a doctor. Not everything is solved with medication, but sometimes it does help and you might have more success in your job hunt with a little help for your depression.

 

[Smaug's Smokey Hole 2]

Talking with my family doesn't help. "Other people have had it harder than you", "You better be thankful you have anything you spoiled brat", "Just grow up and be happy", "It's your fault you can't find a job with that college degree", that sort of shit.

What do you have and what don't you have? Not trying to be rough on you man, but still.

 

[The News Crews]

Passed the NREMT
Things are looking up

 

[Scream Aim Fire]

But isn't there a pinch of truth in their words?

To some extent, yes; I will fully state that I've been fortunate enough to have had some very fond memories made. Problem is, my family is... old school; they think that you can still just walk right on in and get a job anywhere these days, for starters, and trying to actually talk about anything turns into a screaming match because "the younger generation is always wrong". I will say it's more of a recent problem, and you can thank some family drama for that.

What do you have and what don't you have? Not trying to be rough on you man, but still.

Well, I've got a good house, a working car, a PS5, a phone, and a laptop, all of which I am damn thankful for, make no mistake. Problem is, I'm out of a job, there are very few places around here that are hiring, considering selling the PS5 since I barely play the thing these days, phone's old and got a bad battery, and I have to spend most of my time stuck on my laptop looking for jobs. Can't really talk with friends these days, since everyone is busy, and nobody ever really checks Discord. There's not much I can do around where I live; town's on a bit of a downturn, not helped by the druggies and similar moving in. Writing is my main hobby, but writer's block is currently fucking with that.

It just... feels like I'm stuck, really.

 

[Smaug's Smokey Hole 2]

there are very few places around here that are hiring,

For what? For someone in your field/area of work or in general?

 

[Scream Aim Fire]

For what? For someone in your field/area of work or in general?

Mostly in general; people keep claiming there's tons of jobs available these days, but I've had yet to find another place to work. Most of the places around here are either trying to downsize, prioritizing hiring immigrants, or just not hiring despite claiming that they "urgently need people". They claim that they can't find people who "meet basic qualifications" even if it was something simple like a retail position.

 

[obsdj]

Mostly in general; people keep claiming there's tons of jobs available these days, but I've had yet to find another place to work. Most of the places around here are either trying to downsize, prioritizing hiring immigrants, or just not hiring despite claiming that they "urgently need people". They claim that they can't find people who "meet basic qualifications" even if it was something simple like a retail position.

Have you considered remote work, like a call-center WFH job? Typically they provide the equipment, and even benefits depending on the company and the position. You could keep looking for something better at the same time. Depending on your skills, you might find one-off gig work here and there too.