How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[⋖ cørdion ⋗]

Had an "employee advancement" talk with my boss despite having no means of moving up. Huge public company, but everyone hired above me are brought in from the outside, rather than promoted internally. We did however discuss maybe getting some work scheduling classes or courses, which is actually a hugely common position in this sector. We're merging two of the four/five big public sectors in my country and there may be an overlap and immediate need for more shift cover coordinators.. On one hand: Holy hell this might work out to an easy new job, or they'll just hire externally and I'll delude myself that I've a chance to get a better job. Womp womp.

Back in 2022 I got fired from a management position at a job I loved because the maniac ex-crack dealer running the place got assblasted at me for taking a day off when I was too sick to get out of bed- mind you this was the one and only time I'd ever called out in the year or so that I worked there, and I had got nothing but praise as a hard worker before that.

Exact reason I'm piss scared of a new job let alone going into the private sector. I'm rarely sick if ever, but even those 5-6 days a year haunt me.

 

[Bepis]

Lost most of my weekend to diagnosing a sudden PC issue and then hunting down a replacement motherboard locally. Closest I could get is a slight downgrade. Still have to swap in the new board, change over the drivers, etc. Just a big fucking headache. Could be worse though, the drives are all still okay.

 

[Michael_Jordan_Peterson]

Had an "employee advancement" talk with my boss despite having no means of moving up. Huge public company, but everyone hired above me are brought in from the outside, rather than promoted internally. We did however discuss maybe getting some work scheduling classes or courses, which is actually a hugely common position in this sector. We're merging two of the four/five big public sectors in my country and there may be an overlap and immediate need for more shift cover coordinators.. On one hand: Holy hell this might work out to an easy new job, or they'll just hire externally and I'll delude myself that I've a chance to get a better job. Womp womp.

Exact reason I'm piss scared of a new job let alone going into the private sector. I'm rarely sick if ever, but even those 5-6 days a year haunt me.

I was super loyal to my first real job for way longer than I should have been. Once I started job hopping my career and income took off. There is really almost no benefit to staying at a job if youre being underpaid. They will string you along until you die with miniscule raises and other promises. Just apply for jobs like a maniac even if you're not a great fit. Learn what qualifications you see that keep popping up, get whatever certs, learn whatever systems.

 

[⋖ cørdion ⋗]

I was super loyal to my first real job for way longer than I should have been. Once I started job hopping my career and income took off. There is really almost no benefit to staying at a job if youre being underpaid. They will string you along until you die with miniscule raises and other promises. Just apply for jobs like a maniac even if you're not a great fit. Learn what qualifications you see that keep popping up, get whatever certs, learn whatever systems.

It's more of a "Was fired from my first real job by a to-be-discovered pedophile rapist murderer, so now I'm scared of jumping jobs in case I'll get fired again and stand completely hopeless". I got a master's and very little work history due to what feels like 100% self-imposed failure, but in reality is a mix of things, and as such I've very little in way of finding a new job. I know how much even "I know a guy" can favor someone for a job compared to even the most fit cold-call job application, so if there's a sliver of chance that they'll be like "Okay we need 3 new coordinators" and my superiors may be in a position to slip me in, that's a better shot than simply just applying for other work.

That said, I quite like my job and I've not even been here 2 years yet. I'd like to aim for 2-4 on average per job, yet I'm already dooming about being stuck. If I can even just leech a free course out of this job, it'd help me towards a general data input/whatever office job. I am very paranoid about getting stuck and I still apply for jobs that pop up, but I'm not sure whether I should just keep working and apply for things I'd accept on the spot, or go all-in super tryhard and apply for things that may only maybe barely be better, just to jump ship, but that sounds risky either way.

I've very little in way of loyalty but I'd still like to actually begin a proper career from now on, several years at a time with each employer. The next one I'll accept, if ever lolmaokms, is gonna last at least 2-3 years, so I have to at least be somewhat comfortable taking it on.

 

[LonesomeDud]

I have devoted a significant amount of brain space to ph and potatoes today.

 

[obsdj]

Going to have to suck it up and spend several hundred dollars on a car repair tomorrow. Every time I think I might be grasping a tentative foothold on getting out of the pit I'm in, something like this happens. I don't deserve this.

 

[Commander Kneewing]

It's almost 3 AM here and I've been thinking about what to eat for Shrove Tuesday for a few days now so I won't feel so hungry while fasting on Ash Wednesday. Ash Wednesday will also be the day of our thesis colloquium.

I've decided that part of what I'm going to eat is an egg sandwich. I miss eating them right now and I hope my parents bring some when they come to visit this Saturday.

 

[hog cranking frog]

Constantly angry. Can't figure it out. Work finishes up for the day, riding high, doing well, as soon as that stops, rage. My life is great otherwise, I don't get it.

Spent all weekend in a rage state, did a bunch of chores and work around the house, listened to good music, had good food, rage.

Finally get it under control in my head and then wife comes home shaking, some nigger side swiped her and drove off.

Back to rage.

 

[Dumcumpster]

I think I've finally come to realize my purpose in life and finally started to have the proper attitude to do it. It stared with a question to myself "It you can't be positive, who will be?"
My greatest joy in life is making my loved ones feels better from a bad mood and making people laugh. I want to be a positive force in this world to help combat all the hate and negativity in the little ways I can. I've stopped getting so mad and irritated at everything and have started to weaponize my ADHD in a way to have the energy to make my friends and family laugh.

When I was talking to a friend about this, it really stood out to me when he said "That's a heavy burden to bear." And I think he's right in a way but it's worth it. I hope everyone on this site gets better if there not doing well.

 

[huesofmercury]

meh thats really just bout it

 

[MARlNA]

I found out today that my grandmother had a massive stroke and isn’t doing very well. She’s survived strokes before despite the odds, but she is 90 now and it’s only a matter of time. I won’t lie, I’ve been crying quite a bit today.

 

[AnOminous]

Today I learned that the business has not only closed, but maniac ex-crack dealer has also lost his house and car. A very small part of me feels bad to laugh, because some businesses that I love have also closed recently for financial reasons. But a much larger part of me is cackling.

Reminds me of a job I had at a gas station/convenience store in my teens. I was fired for stealing (I wasn't). Shortly afterwards, I found out the person I'd replaced had also been fired for stealing. A couple months after that, the person who replaced me was fired for stealing.

You seeing where this is going?

I was thrilled when it turned out the manager was a drug addict who was doing the actual stealing and had gutted the place, which promptly went out of business. And the manager went to prison. I guess three people fired in a row for stealing finally tipped them off.

Assholes. Never got an apology.

 

[Lukie]

I found out today that my grandmother had a massive stroke and isn’t doing very well. She’s survived strokes before despite the odds, but she is 90 now and it’s only a matter of time. I won’t lie, I’ve been crying quite a bit today.

Sorry to hear this lovie. If you can make time to see her or make contact. When they get like that they're one fall or nasty flu away from not recovering.

 

[Scream Aim Fire]

Health's been up and down for a while; been dealing with a rather severe stomach virus for the past several weeks, so that's been fun. Aside from that, I've gotten some story ideas down and I'm making some progress on some projects; not nearly as much as I've hoped, but it's something. There's one last issue I need to get resolved on my writing, then I can move on to the next - hopefully much easier and shorter - phase of planning.

Aside from that, my family's also been planning another trip here for the next few weeks; we're not going to be able to do as much as we had planned, mostly because the prices of the hotel we were originally going to be staying at is LUDICROUS, but we'll still be able to get enough done.

 

[Ravier Xavenblood]

My GF did something stupid on Friday night and then confessed to it in DM's while I was settling in for the evening drinking some beers. It went about as well as you expected and some of you know the details. TLDR she got peer pressured by her friends and did coke in a sketchy club and could have gotten raped or assaulted. She's making quite a show about wanting to get better but I think it's too little too late. I'm not making any rash decisions but I've had just about enough of her. Maybe we're both no good for each other.

Also I went on a drive to see the mountains this afternoon. I didn't get very far because the road was covered in ice and de icing salt and the banks were covered in like a foot of snow after a certain point. My 2wd with no chains wouldn't have stood a chance so I had to turn around. Oh well, I'll have better luck in the warmer months. I want to see a Cascade volcano up close one day and there's a lot of smaller ones you can drive up to.

Dr appointment is tomorrow and with my luck he probably thinks I'm terminally ill.

 

[Your-Fairy-Wish-Prince]

My sweet baby Boo of 17 years is coming to his end.

Kidney failure.

I managed to wring an extra few months from him but I think it’s time to let go. I, selfishly, really just want him to die in his sleep.

Such a small creature to leave a silence so big.

 

[Core Theorist]

Just a few hours ago I experienced physical agony again for the first time in years. I am so grateful I don't live alone yet. I love my mom so much its unbelievable. I don't know what I would do without her.

 

[toilet_rainbow]

Doing best I can. Main worries right now are job hunting, continued schooling, and health problems (some with me, the rest with family members). I am stressed a lot, yet still feel "calmer" than I usually do about this sort of stuff right this moment for some reason. There's that, then.

 

[I'm Retarded?]

updated our document database system at my office and now everything is fucked to shit. as far as I can tell, a huge portion of the database got thrown out or corrupted(?) at some point in the past, and now I'm restoring backups until I find one that's not missing the last four years of records we're legally required to keep. mondays!!!! am I right fellas?

 

[Ravier Xavenblood]

The doctor explained why he thinks it's food allergies and I'm not going to argue with him. I have unusually high allergen levels for a lot of foods, but corn and oats in particular seem to set my immune system off. We have to rule out food allergies before we look at other causes and at least he didn't mention colon cancer at all.

In the meantime, I'm cutting out oats and corn from my diet and when I asked my Dr, he said yes, corn syrup counts as corn too. The slop might be what's fucking up my guts and I hate the antichrist.

As for the other situation with my relationship, I'm going to stop drinking and handle things as delicately as possible. I feel like I'm diffusing a bomb here. The biggest hurdle here is avoiding all the gender war b8 that's everywhere. Engaging with that is like wrestling a pig. You get dirty and the pig likes it.