How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

Wow this seems like an interesting channel, let's see...
I feel personally called out with this one.
I'd honestly rather die than watch a pajeet who takes orders from the euthanasia mecca that is Canada.
Actually no. I'd rather them die.

But in all seriousness, I just always get a bad feeling from the dude. Can't say exactly what it is. Maybe again him being a pajeet/leaf with a million subs doesn't help but I feel some of his stuff is sort of gaslight-ish to his cult of personality. There's "worse" out there but I think the best example is a video of his where he basically talked about how boundaries aren't effective because you don't have any control over if some people follow them, as if you have to announce them.
His solution: Just keep your mouth shut and/or indulge the people harassing you and try to find a way to get out of any situation until it gets worse.
Yeah, dude kind of seems like a chode.
 
Still in micromanagement hell that is my life. I've been spending my off-days doing the most mundane tasks as a means to try and get some sort of order in my life. Because for a while, I felt that there hasn't been any. Sitting here, cleaning out games from all of my game accounts that I am absolutely certain they will never be played. I've spent time donating shit of things I know won't ever be used, won't ever be read, won't ever be watched and vice versa.


It's gone from all of that to being aware of my online presence and what I feel is worth my time spending. I've been on for a long ass time and I look back feeling like "yeah, I feel that I've been through it all" to this point. I'm reaching a point to where I am just going to care about gaming, watching youtube, checking mail and being somewhat active in maybe two social media platforms. That's it. I don't really want to do anything else.
 
So... hubby gets promotion and what that promotion involves you ask? Engineering , no joke this man without bachelors degree somehow ended up doing engineering . Is this like innate characteristic of asians to be engineers no matter what? Like the man has trade school , explain yourself asians how this is possible ?? Its like the sun rising up in the morning the asian ends up doing engineering the minute he is near schematics and machines . You just put them near it with just trade schools and some books and viola you get your engineer that does shit nobody else can figure out .
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So is he chinese or japanese?
 
I swear I'm going to catch god knows what my coworker has. She showed up making these horrific dry heaving sounds, loud sniffing noises, and filled up the trashcan with her tissues. She doesn't even fucking cover her mouth sometimes.
 
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I'm at no position to feel any way good about things.
I've went to work on that hose production facility on Monday. I'd say it wasn't awful (it was for me tho), but one thing I understood real quick, is that this work, well, it's not difficult really, I'd say it can be easy at parts. But I have issue with this and that's working 4/2 on my legs for whole day (12 hours each). And it's not because it's not schedule I can work with but certain part of my body that have let me know real quick that I'm fucked cuz my left feet is fuckin' hurt, A LOT. And to be honest that's not a first time it happens. I'd say I'm fairly used to feel uneasy because I happened to injure my feet sometime in army and that was roughly 6 years ago. And no, I tried treating this issue but unfortunately nobody gives a shit.
I've lost a few great opportunities because of that some years ago as well... Sigh.
I wanted this job. But apparently I can't have it because I can't stand on my feet long. I fuckin' hate it and feel myself like absolute failure because of that...

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Well, there is a second door next to the entrance to my place. When I come back my cat usually scratches from behind this second door, but today was different.
"Now I know how to open doors. Ho-ho-ho!"
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God help me.
 
Went to see the place this morning. Came to a verbal agreement with the owners, tentatively planning to sign a lease next week. I can't really afford it but maybe if I starve myself, don't drive anywhere ever, and sell feet pictures on OnlyFans or some shit, I can squeak by. At this point, I will do depraved shit in order to keep a roof over my head that I don't have to share with any other insane fucking people.

Today I asked the County for move-in assistance, because "you never know till you try/ask" and I want to strangle everyone who says that to me but hey, you never do know. I'm in a Catch-22 because I can't really afford the place I'm planning to move into, but I have to persuade the County that I can or else they won't help, but if you can afford it why do you need help, and so on and so on. As a bonus, County employees who work in these departments to "screen" applicants are misanthropic freaks. Social service agencies are powered by syllogisms and spite. Anyway, wish me luck, it would be nice to at least have my two (two!) security deposits covered by the County so I can afford to pay the huge deposit to get the electricity turned on.
 
I had a weird dream last night. It looked like it was in 80s Hanna-Barbara animation. The main characters were Darkseid and Gary Coleman. They were standing outside of a vacation cabin at at a park. They had this conversation:

Gary Coleman: "Look, Darkseid! There's a big cake in that cabin!"

There happens to be a large cake on the kitchen table in the cabin.

Darkseid: "Yes. Let's take this cabin, Gary."

Then from inside the cabin this generic looking white guy says: "NO! This is MY vacation cabin! Fuck off!"

Then the dream fast forwards. The cake is still on the table, but a large chunk of it has been eaten. Darkseid and Gary Coleman are now standing in the kitchen. The guy who was yelling at them looks sad, but just watches them. A couple of Darkseid's minions are walking around the cabin.

Then Darkseid says: "We must secure more cabins, Gary. Let's go!"

Then the dream ended. I don't why I dreamt that, but I did. Thanks for reading!
 
I have to figure out what to do with my tax return when it arrives.
It's enough to do one (1) of the following:
Pay off my student loans
Pay off most of my credit card
Pay back my parents for what they loaned me the past four years
Buy a decent car so I don't have to carpool with someone who takes forever to get going in the morning.

Paying off my student loan should probably be first as it is delinquent debt due to automatic payments being stopped during COVID and during my bankruptcy and there being a short window of time to pay it on time, so paying that off will help me rebuild my credit. If I pay off my credit card I'll probably just fill it up again trying to cover other bills. My parents can wait but they do want their money back eventually. A car would be great but I've already nabbed down all of the cheap replaced cars from friends and family that were all on deaths door when I got it, and buying one from strangers you need to have money set aside for important repairs.

Also that massive hard painful lump that popped up on my leg last week is starting to shrink, so I guess I don't have to spend 14 hours at a clinic after all to get it looked at.
 
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I swear my cat knows when I'm feeling down. He'll come right up to me and just flop on the ground and act extra cute, it's like he knows it will make me smile and feel better.
I love cats so much its unreal. Such wise creatures! My cat does this thing where he's licking himself and he forgets to reel his tongue all the way back in, so he has his tongue sticking out and looks like a total goober? Peak cat. I love my cat!
 
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