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doomocat2
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took while but i back. fucking retard meRechecked and it turn that i did lost password for kf account. lost access email too. do i beg @Null for mercry... (saw rule or thing same and you need ping person if you say them, so apology if wrong)
i careful but i still ruin it. yolo dumb
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<cat sperg from a devoted cat person> No, honestly, it is the best thing for her. You also just made her life much easier, healthier, and less fraught. Honestly. She'll get over the stitches in a few days, and you can get kittens practically anywhere if you decide you want another in the future. Keep her as an inside kitty and you're golden.</cat sperg>
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- Feb 3, 2024
Man, how the fuck do I fix my life?
Obviously solid gainful employment would help but fuck... there is so much shit just wrong with me. Genuinely wish someone could give me a shot and let me do some remote work while I *try* to patch my fucked up ass life back together.
I legitimately have valuable skills and people constantly ask "why aren't you making money doing this shit dude?". I don't fucking know, I'm "directionless" I guess?
I need friends, I need money, I need purpose. I just need to be "normal", whatever the fuck that even means man. I want the loving gf/wife, I want the nice house, I want fucking normal. Not this fucking retarded ass mess I've partially made for myself.
Cutting off the few people I know did sort-of help, I feel more "drive". I just am an disorganized ADD ridden autistic fucking idiot who can't just fucking FOCUS on shit. Combine that with my fucking insane retarded family, it's no fucking wonder why I am the way I am lmfao
I don't know, I guess this is a rant/plea. I just want a shot to gtfo I guess. Maybe I ought to ask for advice on this bullshit anyways. Fucking everyone I know is worthless or an old ass honest to god boomer.
Obviously solid gainful employment would help but fuck... there is so much shit just wrong with me. Genuinely wish someone could give me a shot and let me do some remote work while I *try* to patch my fucked up ass life back together.
I legitimately have valuable skills and people constantly ask "why aren't you making money doing this shit dude?". I don't fucking know, I'm "directionless" I guess?
I need friends, I need money, I need purpose. I just need to be "normal", whatever the fuck that even means man. I want the loving gf/wife, I want the nice house, I want fucking normal. Not this fucking retarded ass mess I've partially made for myself.
Cutting off the few people I know did sort-of help, I feel more "drive". I just am an disorganized ADD ridden autistic fucking idiot who can't just fucking FOCUS on shit. Combine that with my fucking insane retarded family, it's no fucking wonder why I am the way I am lmfao
I don't know, I guess this is a rant/plea. I just want a shot to gtfo I guess. Maybe I ought to ask for advice on this bullshit anyways. Fucking everyone I know is worthless or an old ass honest to god boomer.
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I recently confirmed my suspicions of being secretly implanted with serotonin pump connected to my bank account. More money - happier I am.
Were that jews?
Were that jews?
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Do you currently have any certs? If not, A+, Net+, Sec+ are great places to start. At my workplace the resumes that only have a degree in IT/cybersecurity/CompSci with no certs mentioned go straight into the bin. We have a lot of people with no degrees, but they had experience+intermediate and high level certs (CySA+, CISSP, OSCP, CEH). Niche down into a very particular aspect of IT or security and get REALLY fucking good at it. As in world class. Then prove it by writing about it, posting code to Github, side projects, etc. Establish a body of work to run in parallel with your resume.
Also look at what the VCs are investing in. Mach37, Andreesen Horowitz, Bessemer, all of them. Those technologies are going to be where the skill shortage and demand is at in 3-5 years. Today that's AI-driven security, anomaly detection, threat intelligence, etc. In a year it will be different.
Some resources to stay current on skills, learn new ones, and stay ahead of the tech/IT/security curve:
a16z.com
bhorowitz.com
news.ycombinator.com
techexams.net/forums
securityweekly.com
Once you're reading those you'll be armed to find more. Hope that helps.
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I'm doing fantastic. New job is amazing.
It's truly remarkable how remote work does wonders to your mood. I have more energy, been managing to keep everything organized and even cooked all of my meals from scratch instead of ordering. I am now planning to start doing daily walks, at least 30 minutes. Let's see if I stick to it.
My cats spend the day sleeping on my lap while I work, which is very comfy because it's been cold lately. Called my parents to talk about the job and they said they are proud of me. It's all that matters.
It has been a long time since I felt this happy. The only thing that made me a little bit... sad? Is that I can't call my grandmother to tell her about it. I miss her. She would be so happy for me. I know she is, somewhere.
It's truly remarkable how remote work does wonders to your mood. I have more energy, been managing to keep everything organized and even cooked all of my meals from scratch instead of ordering. I am now planning to start doing daily walks, at least 30 minutes. Let's see if I stick to it.
My cats spend the day sleeping on my lap while I work, which is very comfy because it's been cold lately. Called my parents to talk about the job and they said they are proud of me. It's all that matters.
It has been a long time since I felt this happy. The only thing that made me a little bit... sad? Is that I can't call my grandmother to tell her about it. I miss her. She would be so happy for me. I know she is, somewhere.
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I usually just come in and bitch but I got everything done today I’ve been putting off for ages and I’m going to go outside in the beautiful weather and do something nice, hope everyone has a nice weekend.
The job is the first step to solving everything. Seriously. It will give you money, maybe not your dream job but anything beats $0. Save enough and it will give you an out so your family won’t be driving you nuts all the time. You may not want to, but I highly suggest picking something where you’ll be around people. Having to put on a ‘normal’ face will keep you from slipping into NEET social habits. You might even like some of them and become at least work friends. If you are polite and pleasant to be around, even when you don’t want to be, people will tolerate a lot of flaws. I know you want remote, but if you need to develop yourself and meet people who can help point the way, on-site is the way to go. I picked an industry where I feel like I’m doing my little part to contribute to society and that can give you that first shred of purpose you need. It will keep you busy and not in your head all the time. Seriously, apply to whatever bullshit and tell yourself it’s just the first step. If you think about everything you want in life at once, wife, kids, the whole shebang, the pressure will crush you. Just take care of step one.
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Look, there's no way out of chaos but one step at a time. If all you can do is make sure your steps are going in the same general direction, you'll get somewhere.
So, in practical terms: put your energy to getting a job - any job at first. Forget ideal this and ideal that. You've got to be real with yourself: you're not ready for ideal anything, but you will be more ready for it sooner if you go do something and do it very well. That will provide some financial relief and exercise those performance muscles. After a time throwing yourself into something (and again, anything truly productive), you'll be a little better positioned to add something else or higher to your aspirations. You need to build confidence internally and a track record externally, and the only way to do it is by doing it.
So you've got to practice excluding/ compartmentalizing all those ADD thoughts going in a million directions and just pick one then take concrete actions on that one thing (that one thing is a job). Other ideas or hopes or wishes come up, write them down to get them out then put them away for now. But what about, but what about, and I'll never get there are not your friends. Get something, commit to it, throw yourself into it, and remind yourself everyday that it is a critical step toward anything else you want from life. And cut out all the other shit and distractions. Keep centering yourself on that crap job you eventually find, and work it like it's the thing you want most. Every single day. If you stumble, get back up and keep at it.
You have a few big mental things that are a problem: wishful thinking/daydreaming, fear, regret, and distraction. Getting rid of the first and devoting yourself to practicing taming/ setting aside the last will alleviate the middle two. If you don't deal with the first and the last, you will keep going in circles and never figure out how to do a semi-straight line.
I'm not kidding. Whatever it takes, you have to force yourself to look one step ahead only. At least for now. After awhile you can maybe look ahead 2 or 3 steps. After another while of handling that, then maybe add some more. But not now. Now is for one modest focus that you don't question or denigrate, and you don't let yourself be sad about, but that you put 200% into.
And if you're not on ADD meds, get there. And if you're drinking or using, cut it off or cut it back, because those things are wonderful for distraction and denial of realities in the moment...but lead to "fuck, why did I do that" the next day or week or month or whatever, which takes a physical toll, a mental toll, and a focus toll. You don't have time to waste anymore. But you have to stop swirling about it and go do something. Because swirling, as miserable as it is, is as much of a temptation and drug as anything.
Ask yourself every 5 minutes: is what I'm doing getting me somewhere? Then fucking force yourself to go do something that can.
If you don't spend the weekend applying to jobs and fixing up your résumé, I'm going to be annoyed (oh no! Scary, right?). But for real, stop moping and getting wasted and do something to get a shit job and when you do, go into it committed to being the best damn shit-job worker, with the best, most positive, most can-do, most eager shit-job worker approach they've ever seen. It will be good for you.
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@WASR96 I currently have my A+ and I've been "studying" (not really, I already know 90% of it already) for my Linux+ cert.
Honestly, just give me the list that companies actually want and what order to do them in, and that probably is the ticket IMHO.
I think part of the issue is I've just been asking clueless idiots who don't even work in the field for advice lol.
I'll go for my Network+ and Security+ I guess. Thing is I think it might be a waste if I can just shoot straight for the RHCSA certification or other proper high level certs.
Honestly, just give me the list that companies actually want and what order to do them in, and that probably is the ticket IMHO.
I think part of the issue is I've just been asking clueless idiots who don't even work in the field for advice lol.
I'll go for my Network+ and Security+ I guess. Thing is I think it might be a waste if I can just shoot straight for the RHCSA certification or other proper high level certs.
woc_krava
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Good on you. Keep up the good work! In my opinion go down the path of Network+ -> Security+. Focus on it one cert at a time. Afterwards you can consider a few more advanced certs such as CySA+ or even OSCP, depending on what you want to do.
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After a retarded ass 13 months my college has finally sent me my paper Associate's Degree.
Also I just knock out 7 credits for my bachelors, swag money nigga.
Also I just knock out 7 credits for my bachelors, swag money nigga.
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Gonna roflcopter doublepost but I work for the government so its probably different for you but Security+ is a requirement for IT government work. If you live near a military base get that and you'll atleast get screening phone calls. I only have 20 months IT experience and I get an email every month from a defense contractor asking me to interview for them.
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Turning 70 this weekend, grateful to have made it this far. Couple of months ago issue was very much in doubt but doctor and hospital saved the kid again. Hoping for the best in the decade to come.
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I hate to ask so soon after my last post, and I'm even willing to be seen as a retard in return for actual, legit advice:
What are some social hobbies, things to try out, or places to go so I can develop some social interests while also meeting people?
I need to get away from a lifetime of keeping myself busy with solo hobbies like reading and exercising on my own due to living in the boonies for the vast majority of my life, and now that I'm finally in a populated area I'm tired of feeling way behind on a social/friend network compared to.... anyone else I've ever been able to see. I about to say you may as well consider me starting from scratch or step one at this rate when it comes to learning to socialize.
What are some social hobbies, things to try out, or places to go so I can develop some social interests while also meeting people?
I need to get away from a lifetime of keeping myself busy with solo hobbies like reading and exercising on my own due to living in the boonies for the vast majority of my life, and now that I'm finally in a populated area I'm tired of feeling way behind on a social/friend network compared to.... anyone else I've ever been able to see. I about to say you may as well consider me starting from scratch or step one at this rate when it comes to learning to socialize.
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Jesus Christ I miss working remotely. The job was awful and paid less, but man... those were the fucking days. I felt like I had ownership of my life.
Putting on the skin suit and fake smiling every day to end up hiding in my office is fucking killing me, man. My office is in a highly traversed part of the building, so I feel like a fucking zoo animal as people walk by and look in at me. I'm so goddamn worn out by the time I get home I don't even want to do the things I enjoy, and I need a full day on the weekend to feel like myself again.
Fuck boomers. Extroverts are fine as long as they acknowledge not everyone is on their bullshit.
JustStopDude
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I'm exhausted. It's my first field assignment with this new company. They tagged with this older guy. I'm kind of shocked how well he handles the travel and the stress at his age. Field work is a young man's job...and he does project management, sales, etc.
We were supposed to get here at 6pm. It's freaking 1030pm. A goddamn 1 hour fly was delayed by over four hours. Three times we boarded the fucking plane, only to deboard.
Old guy is pretty chill. Really smart. The equipment we are using is from my old employer so I kind of know a lot more than him on it, but he isn't being a dickhead about it. Like in the airport, I was explaining how this matrix drive works and he was literally taking notes and asking questions.
It's kind of wild. I got to setup my shit for an apartment in Utah, while at the same time, commissioning medium voltage equipment for a launch pad in Texas. I was kind of dreading this trip, expecting this guy to be like some of the old fuckers I dealt with when at GE.
So far, everything is going well. We will see come 7am at the launch facility. It's really crazy how my life blew up like a month ago and it's coming back together. I feel really blessed.
We were supposed to get here at 6pm. It's freaking 1030pm. A goddamn 1 hour fly was delayed by over four hours. Three times we boarded the fucking plane, only to deboard.
Old guy is pretty chill. Really smart. The equipment we are using is from my old employer so I kind of know a lot more than him on it, but he isn't being a dickhead about it. Like in the airport, I was explaining how this matrix drive works and he was literally taking notes and asking questions.
It's kind of wild. I got to setup my shit for an apartment in Utah, while at the same time, commissioning medium voltage equipment for a launch pad in Texas. I was kind of dreading this trip, expecting this guy to be like some of the old fuckers I dealt with when at GE.
So far, everything is going well. We will see come 7am at the launch facility. It's really crazy how my life blew up like a month ago and it's coming back together. I feel really blessed.
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That was happening to me at my previous job. The pay wasn't that bad (but now I'm earning 3x more) but having to pretend I'm working when there's nothing to do is exhausting. And most people in the office was annoying as fuck, speaking loudly and backstabbing whenever they could.
Public transport was also pure hell, and I would get home and eat some crap and try to get some rest. I could never enjoy my free time.
For some time my desk was in a hidden corner where nobody could see my screens and I was barely visible (some people would even text me asking if I was there lmao) so I downloaded some games to play and watched a lot of movies. Still, it was stressful because the (((owners))) were the greediest and dumbest people I've ever knew. Once they changed where I was sitting, I knew no peace.
I hope you're able to find a better job
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For me, it's rec league sports. I keep mentioning playing softball because it's like going back in time for me.
The best part is that you nobody cares if you suck. There are no jocks from school or college scouts watching. You can just play for fun.