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[Ruined by the Rain]

I fell into the "it'll never happen to me" trap and it ended up happening to me. Damn, I'm retarded

 

[Core Theorist]

This orange juice fucking sucks.

 

[SeedPaste]

I'm an old man with no friends or family who is coming to the realization that I spend a lot of time making myself mad on the internet just because it's something to do. I aim to stop that but it's all I really have left this late in my life. If I set my bills all to autopay, I don't even need to get out of bed, pending any significant onset of health problems. I was just paging about on the forums to read the news (cutting out /pol/ is part of my "don't get baited" resolution) and I figured this was the thread to blogpost. Thanks for reading it because otherwise I'm actually just yelling at empty walls and clouds each day. If anyone has been in this place, I would welcome any suggestions.

 

[Dizzyuntildeath]

Pride month over: Mood improving.

 

[DenseDeerFather]

I know how you feel with the wisdom tooth part. I have something called "Pericoronitis" in which the gum above my wisdom tooth is swollen due to a mild infection. I already paid for antibiotics and I made sure to get myself some warm water with salt in order to gargle hoping that it helps. Its been 3 days since it started and only now am I doing something about it.

Gonna have to extract all four of them in 2 months. Yay...

So about those teeth.....

Tooth number 3 gone. The second complex one. Fused and hooked roots, so it took a lot of manpower to get out.

I'm very tired and my face is numb. Now I'm only missing the last tooth and I'm done with this stupid ass saga.

Edit: Got to keep the tooth. Why are wisdom teeth so freaky?

Spoiler: The moment of tooth

The cracking wasn't as bad this time. But the strain on my jaw sure was. The last one I need gone shouldn't be as complicated to get out of my maw. Hopefully it doesn't look as freaky either.

Also we have a heatwave going on currently. Not as hot as Spain and places in the states, but us middle of the road temp loving Scandis don't necessarily vibe well with 30 degrees celsius.

 

[Core Theorist]

I'm an old man with no friends or family who is coming to the realization that I spend a lot of time making myself mad on the internet just because it's something to do. (...)If anyone has been in this place, I would welcome any suggestions.

I don't really have any suggestions, but I'm probably half your age and I'm doing the same basic shit too. I don't have many people either and my life isn't really going anywhere in the foreseeable future. The thing I try to remember is...

I don't really know how to put it in words, but if you feel like life is just 'empty' and there's no point in really living, but there's no point in dying either. So, it's like we're gambling and we get free spins every day. We might as well use up the spins, to see what happens?

Well, another thing I can suggest is anything creative. I like making little MSpaint doodle shitposts and Blender models. I said it before, but I think there's something to be said for therapeutic art. It helps me. It's really hard for me to stay upset while doodling a caricature to make fun of somebody.

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I want to start exercising but I still have trouble gathering up the mental effort. I keep trying fitness apps but they have me do "starter shit" for like an hour a day... I don't think anybody can realistically go from 0 to 60 like that. I guess I'll just do something simple every day and start from there?

 

[Ughubughughughughughghlug]

Bad. But I've been making a lot of progress on a specific thing, cleaning and organizing my apartment.

I have always struggled with being messy. My mother was the same way. I don't remember being raised poorly with regards to being allowed to be messy, but that's like my natural state I devolve to. At times I've been much better, but over several years of rarely having guests (one friend of mine that barely tolerated it) and off-and-on battling severe emotional problems I allowed the place to become a Hell.

And then at some point I grasped, through the language of my spiritual awakening of a year ago, why it is a sin to live in such a way. For someone else a different language may be more understandable, like duty to a conscientious purpose, or discipline, but I came to understand it in terms of order. If you see self-organization as the work of God and manmade order as its imitation, then there's no way you can justify living in a disorderly environment. For the first time I really grasped, in a meaningful way, that an orderly dwelling has an intrinsic value and that is something that motivates me far, far more than instrumental purposes.

So it turns out I’m actually on par with this crackhead:

 

[Foltest]

Have moved out of the city to small house on the countryside.
I am feeling more at peace.
No more wankers at night going about.
Just peace and quiet.

 

[Haramburger]

Taking a shit in a friend's bathroom, noticing TUMS is "smut" backwards. Fucking fruity pervert chalk-eater.

 

[Mesh Gear Fox]

Have moved out of the city to small house on the countryside.

Just moved this past weekend from a large city of millions to a small town of 1800. I can actually see stars at night and hear more than road noise, sirens and aircraft overhead. I can go out for a smoke and it's peaceful, only frogs and insects chirping. Grew up here and it's nice to be back in small-town rural America.

 

[WhatInTheActualFuck]

I want to start exercising but I still have trouble gathering up the mental effort. I keep trying fitness apps but they have me do "starter shit" for like an hour a day... I don't think anybody can realistically go from 0 to 60 like that. I guess I'll just do something simple every day and start from there?

A good start is just getting outside and taking a walk. Doesn't have to be to anywhere in particular, though that helps. Pop in an earbud (I really recommend leaving one out so you can also hear what's going on around you) and listen to an audiobook or podcast or just spend some time in your head thinking about what you want out of life or whatever.

Going for a bike ride is similar - it does require an equipment purchase, though you can equip them with panniers and baskets so you can actually use them to do something useful while you get your exercise in - I like to ride mine when I'm headed to a buddy's place a few blocks away or use it when I have a small list of items I want from the grocery store.

 

[GreaterHacaryguaspear]

Today I awake early to work in a hour, I hate working as janitor in a High school, the only thing I like to think, is this friday I'm going to drink with my stepfather, an ICE agent. He is a nice person, I remember when started deportations, he was drunk and he said me "Son, I know you and your family have green cards, but If my ICE friends try to deport with the excuse of "Alien act", I going to rescue you and I going to kill Kristen Noem, that sadistic bitch"

Maybe my stepfather and I, we born into different cultures, but drinking and see western movies are the only moments, we are happy and united like biological father and son.

 

[AnOminous]

Maybe my stepfather and I, we born into different cultures, but drinking and see western movies are the only moments, we are happy and united like biological father and son.

Heil Freedom and Death To All Fanatics!

 

[Juan But Not Forgotten]

Exhausted and burned out to the point of showing symptoms of head concussion. As soon as I get day off, I am starting job surfing. Fuck this shit, I did not survive only to die in here.

 

[LinkinParkxNaruto[AMV]]

wake up, work on the computer, go to sleep again, repeat. I fucking hate waking up, i am always even more tired than when i went to bed. The whole year has faded away, just the same all day every day.

 

[OrionBalls]

It's a beautiful day out, and I plan to be productive. Here's hoping! ETA- It was a productive day!

 

[Foghotten]

Some nigger stole my bike from my basement two days ago in the middle of the night.

After a bit of sleuthing and interacting with police (which did fuck all beyond sending me back and forth between buildings), I find it as I finish buying groceries next to a bar. I call the cops, and they simply told me to take it back. Since the call was recorded, even if I messed up (which is highly unlikely since the bike in question looks and rides 1:1 like mine), I'm left entirely blameless.

I hope the dipshit who stole it dies from a heatstroke walking back home drunk in scorching heat

 

[Banana Cat]

Exhausted and overwhelmed. Two under two with the youngest being only a month old. Some days it feels like it's all clicking into place just for the next day to go to shit and I feel like a failure for wanting a break.

Update to this my spouse had an accident which has just added to the mental and physical load. Kid is just getting over an illness and the baby just doesn't stop screaming. I don't even want to get out of bed anymore but there's just too much shit that needs to be done.

 

[Ruined by the Rain]

Everything tastes better when I'm sneaking it from the kitchen at work. I had some fried chicken

 

[Slav Power]

I was just "street racing" an ex-coworker from that shitty internship I talked about, 140km/h through a forest road all buzzed up on caffeine, so that, that was nice. Wasted an entire bar of fuel on that, and probably a good chunk of suspension.