Bought a bottle of gin, gonna get loaded and watch movies all day. Been in a pissy mood since i woke up and i don't know why, everything is going alright if not good. Have been sleeping like shit the past couple of days. Gonna miss one of my best friend's 40th birthday today and i'm kinda mad at myself for that but if i go there today i know i will be getting fucked up on other stuff than alcohol and i've been clean for too long for that, plus my next week is too busy for me to say "Fuck it, gonna do a 3 day sesh".
I contemplated going earlier today despite all this but then found out my two other good friends are on vacation and won't be there, so that sealed the deal. Birthday boy won't be lonely because he's a social butterfly but i still feel bad about it.