BrettStevens
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How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check
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- Feb 14, 2023
My nervous system is pretty much obliterated.
I didn't expect rebuilding my confidence to be easy after the shit past few months I had, and I'm trying to take the victories where I can get them, but man, I just want to be comfortable.
I'm getting my shit back together, but god damn it, I feel like the tiniest setbacks are ringing alarms left to right. Stuff like getting my ass chewed out for a circumstance that wasn't my fault (which I can chalk up to a well-intentioned mistake), or having to audibly talk myself through shifting gears during a motorcycle lesson because even though I'm a smart woman, my muscle memory is retarded and I release the clutch too fast.
These things are not catastrophic when I get them wrong. My rational brain knows this. But my emotional regulation is in the dirt and everything seems like a crisis. The only rational cure is not giving the fuck up. Still marching, god knows why.
Hopefully, my friends will get their act together and I can take a nice trip to the mountains next month. I could do it by myself, but I'm just not in the mood for going on vacation alone.
I didn't expect rebuilding my confidence to be easy after the shit past few months I had, and I'm trying to take the victories where I can get them, but man, I just want to be comfortable.
I'm getting my shit back together, but god damn it, I feel like the tiniest setbacks are ringing alarms left to right. Stuff like getting my ass chewed out for a circumstance that wasn't my fault (which I can chalk up to a well-intentioned mistake), or having to audibly talk myself through shifting gears during a motorcycle lesson because even though I'm a smart woman, my muscle memory is retarded and I release the clutch too fast.
These things are not catastrophic when I get them wrong. My rational brain knows this. But my emotional regulation is in the dirt and everything seems like a crisis. The only rational cure is not giving the fuck up. Still marching, god knows why.
Hopefully, my friends will get their act together and I can take a nice trip to the mountains next month. I could do it by myself, but I'm just not in the mood for going on vacation alone.