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[AnOminous]

In a cemetery I go to there's a grave with the words;
"Death is not a foe but an inevitable adventure"

This is the funniest thing about death. The closer it gets to me, and it's getting closer and closer, the less I'm afraid of it. I remember being terrified at the concept when I was a teenager. Now that I'm basically knocking on heaven's door, I'm not even afraid of it. It's just something that's coming. Welcome, Reaper. You're my bro.

 

[ilovecornsyrup]

I'm terrified of death because I know that I will have to stand before God and be judged for my sins and everything I've done. I've had several close calls with death (overdoses, stopped breathing once and got brain damage for a while from another one) as a teenager and it didn't even phase me one bit. I thought it was funny that everything all I would ever be is a corpse left in the grimiest public bathroom imaginable. Now the older I get the more this sort of existential terror fills me. Deep down, I know I have contributed nothing positive to this world, but I just hope for a bit of rest. I wish I could just turn to dust after death.

 

[Sergeant Major Buzzkill]

I’m alright, doing laundry. Was also jumping between listening to Phil Hartman David letterman interviews and put on Marty Supreme. I haven’t watched a Sadie brothers production in a few yrs, not since after Uncut Gems, but I was a teenager, so I don’t remember much of it. Marty Supreme fucking had me dying.

 

[DavidS877]

My friend's plane has been unavailable for months for one of those parts that takes months to get for a 40 year old plane. But it's back now, passed the inspection last week and he sent me a note saying it was all done and I could fly it again. I asked him: "great, how about Saturday". His response: "fine". I asked "How did the test flight go?" His response: "We'll find out once you fly it on Saturday."
Gee. Thanks.
But it went fine. The brakes, which one side was leaking and repaired, were fine, everything was fine. So, now I need to see about flying to see Mom in the next couple weeks, which cuts the travel time about in half.

Look. A Cloud. Which my rating is not current to fly through, so I didn't.

 

[Getmeout]

I'm sick and tired of racists, not cause they're racist, but cause they're not racist enough. It's always the same
>Grr I'm racist and I hate all niggers TND I want all niggers dead!
>Oh, I agree! I'm black and I'd happily be lynched! White people are inherently superior
>Oh That's sad, bro, no you should love yourself Have black pride, dude, we all bleed the same color
It's like, I did the thing you wanted to and now you're upset? You can't be pleased, gosh. I hate myself and now that's "sad", I love myself and now you hate me cause "TND". I can't win. I only know one racist guy that appreciates my self-loathing and admiration of white people, but everyone else gets some weird cold feet.

 

[(((I am NOT a jew)))]

It's like, I did the thing you wanted to and now you're upset? You can't be pleased, gosh. I hate myself and now that's "sad", I love myself and now you hate me cause "TND". I can't win. I only know one racist guy that appreciates my self-loathing and admiration of white people, but everyone else gets some weird cold feet.

Perhaps because they're engaging in ghastly overkill and you're taking them literally when in reality a good chunk of them are just saying they dislike black culture running amok. Also you're essentially saying you want to kill yourself, which would make even a racist sad considering you at least can agree with them. That'd be one less "good one".
How about just say "Yeah, I think this shit is dumb" next time instead of telling random people you'd like to be lynched.
Nobody likes the negative aspects of american black society. But you just seem like a pick me sometimes. You're not really helping your cause with this stuff.

 

[(((I am NOT a jew)))]

I did something I'm really proud of today.
I kind of let it slip to someone I shouldn't have about what's going on in my life recently. Well, of course word got around and some people from my past I don't want to associate with anymore offered to help me move. It might have saved my money and time but I knew immediately that while they were doing this, I would become the source of conversation and pity for them and I wouldn't be able to have any pride in myself as people from my past would once again look at me as just that guy over there that was so helpless and dumb they had to take it on themselves to help.
So I told this person point black that I'm not accepting their help and that I will find a place for my stuff and move it, by myself because the cost of their "help" is too high. And when I pointed this out to them and stated that this is exactly why I don't come to them for anything, that I didn't want their pity because I knew this kind of thing would happen, they were honestly angry and surprised. They tried to word it to where I was just too in my emotions and should take the help but I stood firm and said very happily "No."

This is going to be a bitch doing by myself. But I have me. And since I have me, I don't need anyone else to. I'm not ever going to be looked down upon or given the jewish mom "you mean you're not married yet?" treatment ever again. I'm not going to be the centerpiece of a dinner conversation or have some weird charity lorded over me by people twice my age who's lives are going irreparably worse than mine. I'm not that naive kid anymore.

I'm actually happy that I did that. As much as life might suck right now, as scared as I am of the future, I am not that weak, gullible person I used to be. They can be disappointed that they won't have anyone else to talk about to distract them from their own mistakes. I'll be doing fine by myself.

Mama didn't raise no fool.

 

[Getmeout]

Perhaps because they're engaging in ghastly overkill and you're taking them literally when in reality a good chunk of them are just saying they dislike black culture running amok. Also you're essentially saying you want to kill yourself, which would make even a racist sad considering you at least can agree with them. That'd be one less "good one".

Well maybe they should mean the overkill! And they shouldn't be sad if I killed myself

 

[Squanto Airi]

I'm terrified of death because I know that I will have to stand before God and be judged for my sins and everything I've done. I've had several close calls with death (overdoses, stopped breathing once and got brain damage for a while from another one) as a teenager and it didn't even phase me one bit. I thought it was funny that everything all I would ever be is a corpse left in the grimiest public bathroom imaginable. Now the older I get the more this sort of existential terror fills me. Deep down, I know I have contributed nothing positive to this world, but I just hope for a bit of rest. I wish I could just turn to dust after death.

The blessed news is that you can still repent of your sins, for the Kingdom of Heaven is at hand!

 

[JanuaryViolet]

When I'm on SSRIs, everything gets color and it's not black and white anymore. Bad things feel bad again, good things feel good again, life has a bit of an impact in a way where I can understand wanting to live, cause it's like a rollercoaster, it's like a ride, there's stuff going on everyday and it's kind of beautiful. And I wanna fix my life to where I can fully enjoy these things.

It works for you, it makes you feel better. Then stay on it. I don't know how to put it in plainer language.