How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Wish I knew]

I’ve been mostly spending my time working on other things in my life. I’ve been feeling a lot more tired lately. Other than that nothing much changed.

 

[Rice Is Ready]

Not good

 

[Damn Near]

my stupid gf is talking about what she wants for Christmas when it's not even thanksgiving. Ok, bitch

 

[Aria]

Ive busted up my leg after a good old freind of mine accidentally pushed me down a hill.

Other than that I'm good.

 

[Moonpie]

I have a question.
My brother passed away when his son was two. He gets my brother's social security. He now wants to be adopted by his stepfather. It's destroying me. He doesn't want his dad's name anymore. Will he lose the social security money if they go through with it?
Also lost my dad 3 years ago. No family left. Holidays suck now. He was my best friend.
Thanks for listening.

 

[Moonpie]

Anybody have any recommendations on how to get rid of a charley horse in your calf muscles? I woke up with a bad one yesterday, and repeatedly lifting my toes to stretch doesn't seem to be working it out.

I've heard of eating a tablespoon of mustard.
Hope that helps. Those things are hell.

 

[Marco Fucko]

Still saving up money, annoyed I have to sign up for potential jury duty.

 

[Imposter]

I have a question.
My brother passed away when his son was two. He gets my brother's social security. He now wants to be adopted by his stepfather. It's destroying me. He doesn't want his dad's name anymore. Will he lose the social security money if they go through with it?
Also lost my dad 3 years ago. No family left. Holidays suck now. He was my best friend.
Thanks for listening.

Do something in your father's memory during the holidays; make a dish he liked or play a movie he watched on thanksgiving, it's a humble way to honor them.

 

[Drinkerbelle]

Pretty shit for a while. I've had a bad case of PPD, and I just feel sad a lot of the time. Just when I seem to be coming out of it, something else happens and I spiral back down. I've been sober for over 3 years now, but holy hell I would love to just drink my problems away. But, family is too important.

 

[nekrataal]

Still saving up money, annoyed I have to sign up for potential jury duty.

Jury duty sucks, man. Hopefully if/when you get called to serve it’ll go by fast.

I’m doing ok tonight, been dealing with a sick animal and no vets open until Friday.

 

[Token Weeaboo]

I got to talk to my Psychiatrist a few days ago. He advised me to try and get more sleep and take something to help fall asleep. My depression has gotten better than it has in the last 6 weeks. It's improving though. Why I can admit I'm screaming inside on Kiwi farms and not to the people closest to me is beyond me. Fuck this whole smiling depression.

 

[I Love Beef]

On vacation, drunk as a skunk, feels good

 

[I should be working]

Low workload today, whole week in fact.
Bored out of my fucking skull and procrastinating like fuck to look busy, otherwise I'll just be given work and I'm on leave in 1 week.
Also, someone keeps stealing my pens, lost 3 pens this week.
Feel like locking myself in the Server room and finaly downing the emergency Vodka I keep in my car.

 

[snailslime]

I should have just kept my ingrown toenail.

 

[queerape]

Trying to beat end of term exhaustion and midwinter blues. Going outside helps with my seasonal depression.

 

[Your_Fairy_Wish_Prince]

I have a question.
My brother passed away when his son was two. He gets my brother's social security. He now wants to be adopted by his stepfather. It's destroying me. He doesn't want his dad's name anymore. Will he lose the social security money if they go through with it?
Also lost my dad 3 years ago. No family left. Holidays suck now. He was my best friend.
Thanks for listening.

I am not sure how it works in your state but in mine I stopped receiving social security when my father died when I turned 18 since I was legally an adult.

I am sorry to hear about your brother I lost my father when I was 15, I am 31 now, I think about him everyday. I don't know what you are feeling but I know what you are going through. And even though it's a wound that never really heals it gets better, I promise.

Edit: changed father to brother because I dont understand context clues.

 

[Moonpie]

I am not sure how it works in your state but in mine I stopped receiving social security when my father died when I turned 18 since I was legally an adult.

I am sorry to hear about your father I lost mine when I was 15, I am 31 now, I think about him everyday. I don't know what you are feeling but I know what you are going through. And even though it's a wound that never really heals it gets better, I promise.

I'm so sorry about your Dad.
It sucks terribly doesn't it?
I was driving today and Candlebox's Far Behind came on the radio. It was one of my Bro's favs.
Do you do that as well? Hear certain songs that remind you of your Dad?
15 was so young to lose him.

 

[Your_Fairy_Wish_Prince]

I'm so sorry about your Dad.
It sucks terribly doesn't it?
I was driving today and Candlebox's Far Behind came on the radio. It was one of my Bro's favs.
Do you do that as well? Hear certain songs that remind you of your Dad?
15 was so young to lose him.

Slight power level I guess:

Spoiler: Power Leveling

My father wasnt a religious man. He can best be described as "an angel with no halo and one wing in the fire" to quote Trent Tomlinson.

So his funeral songs were nothing but classic rock songs. "Desperado" by The Eagles always hits me hard.

And even though I don't like Dave Matthews (and this song wasnt played at his funeral) the song "Oh" drives me to tears every time I hear it. It really encompasses the prominent male figures in my life that I lost.

As I mentioned in a previous post my bull dog Hercules recently passed and he was the last Christmas present my father gave me so his loss has been very painful.

Like I said, I don't know how you feel but its ok to cry and listen to songs or tv shows or go to places that remind you of your brother. Its also ok to be angry. I was pissed at my dad for leaving my mother for awhile. But for every tear shed there is a happy memory, no matter how hard it seems.

And as for your nephew, he may be desperately clutching at the frayed threads of a father he lost by accepting a man who carries the name of a father but not entirely his role.

Idk, I am not trying to steer your emotions one way or another and I can understand your frustration and anger at him wanting to take his stepfathers name because it seems like he is trying to over write the memory of your brother.

But no one can completely replace someone's father, not ever. Your nephew will always be half of your brother, so a part of him always live no matter what name he takes.

Sorry, for rambling and assuming alot of your emotions and if I over stepped any boundaries I apologize, it wasnt my intention or place to do so.

And even though I don't personally know you I just don't want there to be hard feelings in your family, I learned at an early age that time is a finite fickle thing.

Even though you think you have a lot of it you don't. And worrying about peripheral things isn't worth it. Remember that family matters, the moment matters, because you don't know when it will just be a memory.

 

[Shokaract]

Great, its Saturday so I started drinking at 10 am, and have a some weak painkillers that go well with alcohol.

 

[WeeMars]

Unable to sleep, waking up at 2 in the afternoon, and it's winter so barely getting any sunlight, eating shitty unhealthy foods, lonely as fuck, disgusted with myself, too much of a pussy to do anything about it.