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Let's do something. We have a group of lonely and at least somewhat like-minded people. Let's support each other, and try to get into a holiday spirit.

Jump on this shit because this is a brief lift from depression for me and I'll wind up considering this idea overwhelming before too long.

Let's play some games, chat, do online holiday exchanges. You know, stuff.

What say you? Let's starve the misery machine this December. Anybody like words with friends or anything equally gay? Ideas!
 
I'm drunk on the floor of a box trailer I'm currently living in. After years of living like a psychotic grifter, I finally got a "real job" that requires "skill". It turns out, when you spend years scraping by on no money and bailing your family members out of jail, you get a set of skills that is in high demand.

I replaced the head gasket on an engine powering a $600,000 machine, and shocked my coworkers by miraculously enabling us to continue shoveling money in from the government. I've been working less than a pay period here. I've earned more in a week than I have a month of labor previously. And most of those hours I'm getting paid for is still digging ditches or driving, things I've always done my entire life. Just now people with money are looking at me. It's weird and I'm having a hard time coping with the basics of being a "professional".

Where and when do I spit and smoke? Is pissing in the bushes allowed in a major city? Is asking the boss to live in the closet of the shop basement a step too far?

I can laugh and joke with my co-workers who have had rough times in life, but it's not exactly the same. Mom is back dealing soft drugs and I'm giving her advice on selling online, while also loading 10,000 pounds of "Resource for Specific Job Here" onto a lowboy trailer, while also worried about my smell be because I haven't showered in three days, because I'm functionally homeless.

It's all so tiring. But hey, at least I'll very soon have enough money to be on my crazy bullshit again. Might buy that jet turbine powered motorcycle.
 
Let's do something. We have a group of lonely and at least somewhat like-minded people. Let's support each other, and try to get into a holiday spirit.

Jump on this shit because this is a brief lift from depression for me and I'll wind up considering this idea overwhelming before too long.

Let's play some games, chat, do online holiday exchanges. You know, stuff.

What say you? Let's starve the misery machine this December. Anybody like words with friends or anything equally gay? Ideas!
I’ve been thinking of doing a succession-style let’s play of Prison Architect, in which all the guards are renamed to kiwis and all the prisoners are renamed to lolcows. It’ll be a bit of work to set up, though.
 
I had developed bad tremors from new psych meds I was put on a while back. The tremors are much better, and now only come when I am anxious and are contained in just my right arm (usually).
Mentally, I'm happy. Making art and enjoying the mellow mood of the day. Wishing you all well!
 
I’ve been thinking of doing a succession-style let’s play of Prison Architect, in which all the guards are renamed to kiwis and all the prisoners are renamed to lolcows. It’ll be a bit of work to set up, though.

This could very well turn into something awful! On what platform would you be interested in creating this piece of contemporary internet art?
 
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This could very well turn into something awful! On what platform would you be interested in creating this piece of contemporary internet art?
PC, for the reasons that I don't have a console, it's easiest to take and upload screenshots from PC, and I own it on PC and there's a DLC that allows the lolcowsinmates to turn criminally insane and need to be thrown in padded rooms.
 
I feel like I am at my absolute breaking point.
Around September I got this absolutely horrible anxiety regarding immigration and migrants in my country.
Other things that brings me heavy grief is normalization of trans stuff and restriction of freedom of speech.

Since then for the life of me I haven't been able to not to think about these things, often
ruining my sleep and messing my days. Even having fun during birthday didn't remove the nagging feeling.

Increasing meds intake didn't help either.

Tried some anxiety relieve videos on Youtube, but the thoughts kept coming through and obliviously these
aren't a replacement for professional help.
Then tried avoiding subjects and sites regarding these things, but of course you can't escape reality.
Mother's friend works at day care, explains how half of the children currently there are foreigners and there's one
absolute dumbfuck of a muslim boy who doesn't know how to do the most simple tasks ever, like being in line,
either not following the line or just continuosly walking past it and being a shit head in general.
I'm just sitting there in silence, having a fear filled storm brewing in my head, while others talk.

Am I just overthinkin and worrying, making things way bigger than what they are in reality?
Things around Finland are still relatively peaceful, but I shouldn't be surprised either if one day I can't walk
the streets safely or places start to blow up like in Sweden. At least we don't have no-go-zones.. yet.
Even when people voted for anti-immigration political group, things just don't seem to advance there even
tought they try to bring it up often in the parlament. Then there's others who don't give an absolute fuck about
peoples safety and are for immigration and restriction of freedom of speech.

It certainly doesn't help my sanity for not having any friends and living alone.

I wish I had friends to chat, shitpost with and sometimes play online games.


Sorry about the rant, but I just didn't have any other outlets.
Shit's fucked and I'm depressed because of that. Thanks clown world.

So.. How do you fellow people and Finns cope with this shit?
Any advice would be nice.

Do a backflip.

Honestly?

Quit overthinking, you're just one person and aren't regarded by your political figures. Laugh at the stupid shit, find an outlet for the big brain shit. None of this matters. You don't matter outside of the people you interact with. Harvest those relationships while you can, even if its here.
 
This is the designated thread for bitching about our shitty lives right? Well I am going to vent here so feel free to ignore.

So last month my fixed term contract came to an end which was obviously to be expected but I am still pretty pissed off about it because we had all been told that we had been taken on with the prospect pf being taken on full time if we did well in the role. Now I am not going to act like I was the greatest guy working there because I know that wasn't true but I do know that I was performing better than I was expected too. I was literally shown by my team leader that my stats were better than most people in my team who had worked the role for years, there were two people who did better than me on my team so I was doing decently. The people who actually dropped the axe on our heads were all from HQ and had no clue what was going on in the office, so when my team leader had to break the news she was pretty dumbfounded and in fact she was as upset by it as I was by it not because we got on well or anything like that but because she knew that her team had no chance of coping with the increased workload. I actually got a text like a week later basically confirming all this as they had to disband the entire fucking team now because they couldn't meet their quota, my team leader had to go back on the phones and the entire place is falling apart at the seams. I mean it's one thing if I was out of the job because I had fucked up or if the company was downsizing or something like that, but no I wasn't offered the full time position because some dumb fuck a few hundred miles away completely misunderstood what was happening in our office, and I doubt he will ever be held accountable for that either.

I am not a complete retard so I had been applying for roles elsewhere for months, had a handful of interviews but nothing is going my way and now things are getting real fucking dicey as I am quickly eating through my savings and realistically I have another 2-3 months max before I am back on the streets again. Granted that it took me about 6 months of spamming applications everywhere to get my last job and apparently I am not even good enough to get to the interview stage of McDonalds or KFC, which really drives home just how worthless a maggot I really am.

At this point I am seriously considering throwing my lot in with the Military. I've got little love for my nation or for Israel for that matter but I really can't bear to go back to working a corporate job or customer service again, it's just too soul crushing, and the way that I'm seeing it is that in the best case scenario I could potentially get some guaranteed work, free food and board, some actual training which may actually give me prospects in the long term, I may also be able to make an actual group of friends for the first time in years (in my experience people from the army seem to be stand up people) and also realistically speaking this will probably be my only possibility of travelling within the next 5 years. In the worst case scenario it would just result in an expedited day of the rope. I am in decent shape already so why the fuck not at this point? It sure as shit beats becoming homeless again.
 
Exhausted, but on top of the world- I did well on all my final presentations! The toughest one was a mock campaign for a local financial aid organization acting as our client, but out of all the groups that presented, she picked my group of 4 as the best one!

All I have to do now is plow through work up until next Wednesday, and it's off to my mom's for winter break! Even better, I'm one class away from graduating next semester! 8)
 
I'm tired as all hell and have been all damned day. It's one of those days where I just want to climb into my bed and sleep but I still have stuff to finish. Calgon take me away!
 
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At this point I am seriously considering throwing my lot in with the Military. ... I could potentially get some guaranteed work, free food and board, some actual training which may actually give me prospects in the long term, I may also be able to make an actual group of friends for the first time in years (in my experience people from the army seem to be stand up people) and also realistically speaking this will probably be my only possibility of travelling within the next 5 years. Blah blah whatever.
Don't be a fag, go into wildfire.
 
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Trying to get more stuff done as I always seem to slow down at this time of year (December). You know the phrase 'change of scenery'? On a small scale, that can be useful for me, new pips of things to think about and work on, instead of the same old, rather reheated/overheated 'modes'. I'd like to travel the world, working on airplanes and teaching languages.
 
I woke up not that long ago and my head kinda hurts, I should really start having a better sleep schedule. Other than that, I'm fine.
 
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My dumb redneck uncle got arrested for a DUI two days ago. He's a barely functional alcoholic, it runs in my dad's side of the family. He had to get some tests done before thanksgiving because he's a decades-long chain-smoker and he has the big hard pregnant gut which indicates enlarged organs. He got out of jail last night and my dad took him to the doctor today to see exactly how bad he's fucked himself up. My uncle was the most pussy-crazy person I'd ever met until a few years ago, where absolute drinking and desolation took over.
 
Been living in my own apartment for about two months now. Feels great finally having my own space. The grocery store I work at is just a five minute walk away, and even has stuff like a doctor's office and dentist right by it. Pretty much have everything I need for now. Gets a bit lonely at times though, but hell, can't complain that much.
 
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