How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Buster O'Keefe]

I'm starting to shit bricks about this pandemic. I've never seen anything like this.

 

[Ughubughughughughughghlug]

Not very well, and it's my fault.

So I'm travelling and I'm exploring some railroad tracks behind my hotel. I spend some time mulling around back there, waiting for a train to come (to photograph it), having by then migrated over to a big tenement next to the hotel. I'm not in their parking lot or looking in windows or anything, I'm out behind the trees, facing away at the track. Now, I eventually give up on waiting for the train and I head back to the hotel, but I decide to cut through that tenement.

Along the way, this car with a Mexican-sounding guy stops and the guy asks me if he can help me, and at the same time there's this guy (they're dressed real similar) standing up in the tenements hollering at me what I'm doing there. Now, I don't recall as they were saying anything nasty to me or anything, but I feel real pressured/uncomfortable. I just kind of blow them off, say something about me going back to the hotel/crossing through. Point is, they won't fuck off. I ended up calling the guy in the car an asshole, and that sets off the guy up in the tenement, and it rapidly spirals (mostly escalated by me) into telling him to go fuck himself. He starts challenging me to come back (like to fight him) but I ignore him, while he's shouting about calling the police about muh private property.

Now, the thing is, I was pretty much the one who chimped out, as I was the one crossing through there (although I didn't know there was any signage or have any real reason to think that was a problem) and I escalated it through my overt hostility, though at the time I felt really uncomfortable about these two guys, like they were making an issue. It was just real unpleasant, and put into perspective how my RL temper is getting to be more and more of a problem.

 

[ForgedBlades]

For the last two months I've been having issues with extremely cold hands and feet, I mean they seriously feel like I'm constantly holding onto block of ice while walking barefoot in the snow. I didn't think much about it until I woke up one day last week and noticed that I could suddenly very clearly see the veins in my palms, almost like my skin was becoming transparent. I was also having intermittent heart palpitations.

I don't have a regular doctor, so I went to a prompt care clinic. They checked my vitals and seemed to think that my heart was fine. The doctor then felt around and told me that I had a big lump on my thyroid which could be creating hormone imbalances that could be fucking with my body temp. She topped it off with this spiel about how when men in their 30s have nodules on their thyroid there's a good chance it could be cancerous. Great. So they took blood which had to be sent to Mayo and scheduled me for an ultrasound. I got a call from them today and they told me the bloodwork came back normal and that the radiologist didn't see anything wrong with my thyroid. So basically I spent the last week shitting bricks about having cancer, and they were just like "Yeah, we don't know what's wrong with you, you should probably go to a real doctor and not a prompt care clinic."

Seriously, I don't know what the fuck's wrong with me. I still think I have a blood clot somewhere, but they were pretty sure that I didn't. I'm heading home in a couple weeks to see my mom's doctor who actually knows what he's talking about. Also, if I suddenly stop posting it's because I probably died of a pulmonary embolism or some shit.

Went to the doctor today. Place is an absolute madhouse for obvious reasons. I felt guilty for being there.

Doctor said she didn't feel shit on my thyroid and to never trust a prompt care clinic with anything. Vitals came back normal again, she assured me my heart is fine. Did a full blood panel checking for literally everything. I got the basic tests back and everything is fine so far. She said I'm either anemic, which will show up on the panel that will come back in a few days, or it's simply my body's response to stress, which to be fair, I've been under the last few months. I've been on heavy daily anti-anxiety meds for more than a decade, so I don't know what the next step would be. I guess wait for it to go away or start taking Xannys.

I am just so goddamn sick of walking around with this shit. I haven't taken my socks off outside of the shower for months.

 

[From The Uncanny Valley]

My family has self-quaretined and we're all super sleepy

 

[Boomer Remover]

I'm doing really good! I recently started a new distribution network at work although it's not something that I can really discuss.

 

[Chan Fan]

Feeling kind of down. Wanting to fix other people's problems, which I know I can't do but it's hard when I really, really want to help and can't. So just trying to stay calm. Feeling tired, doing a few things around the house then I want to finish a book and play some video games

 

[FuckedUp]

Ugh, less than twenty minutes into the first Zoom lecture I managed to get a student affairs wellness check email because I kept autistically shitposting in the text chat. I wasn't even saying anything resembling wishing death on myself or others.

 

[lurk_moar]

I will work 35 hours of overtime in March, and it ain’t got anything to do with corona.

 

[Blop]

Decided to quit smoking in order to give myself a fighting chance when Coronachan inevitably comes to visit. I’m glad to be self isolating since there’s no one around for me to take out my angst upon.

 

[Pineapple Fox]

I’m just feeling very anxious. So much shit going on in the whole world right now and the future is so unknown. I’m glad I have IRL and online friends to chat with, the isolation thing is such a bitch. I’m also flying home in a few hours from the opposite end of my country. I hope things get more positive soon
I also hope everyone is doing well and making the best of things, it’s a tough time ♥

 

[cuddle striker]

isolation, work, isolation, work

skimming here, I feel like I'm missing epic shit while all these cows are locked in with nothing to do but post m.i.lk

 

[Smaug's Smokey Hole]

I'm doing REALLY good, all these corona virus worries, lockdowns, stockpiling and quarantines have invigorated me. I'm not trying to be edgy or morbid when I say that, this isn't a fun time, but now there's a purpose, importance and urgency to even trivial things and it needs to be done right. It feels like boot camp, keep your shit ordered and organized. I've slept better and more peacefully than I have in the last six months and if you open my freezer it looks like a library where you can pull out a steak, a piece of cheese or a tub of frozen herbs as if it were a book, my pantry is tight like that as well and I don't understand why but my recycling have reached OCD levels of granularity and now I enjoy sitting down to go through my paper bin, ripping the plastic windows from the packaging while listening to music.

Everything will be in order when Corona-chan a-choo-choo-chooses me as her avatar.

 

[Cool kitties club]

College is shut down and I'm bored. Being home fucks up my sleep and makes me super tired I can barley wake up before 11:00 even if I go to bed at 11:30 to 12:00. Online classes are gonna be annoying too. At least I have lots reading time though

 

[Chan Fan]

I had to Google "vomit that looks like poop but isn't" so that happened. I have chalked it up to anxiety and feel a lot better today. I'm doing a bit better keeping my emotions in check

 

[Lina Colorado]

I feel better today. My mind is more clear. My meds make me very sedated tho but I can handle it right now.
I started to get cabin fever again and yet nothing to do so I washed my bike.
Tomorrow I might go to the battlefield, I mean, the store and see how things are lol.

I'm wondering if I should order in some hobby stuff.... but the delivery sevices and the post office is overworked.

 

[Juan But Not Forgotten]

Finally met my friend, that had his car broken down last time and we celebrated his birthday. Have a hangover today, but it was worth it.

 

[Billy_Sama]

I got Animal crossing in the mail today. Really enjoyable and good time waster for all the shutting in I am going to do.

 

[Pale Empress]

Still working. Hours were dramatically cut (by about ten), no idea if I'll be compensated for them, I might just go to another company at this point. All of my roommates have self-quarantined and are out of work, except one who works a food delivery job, but allegedly the state is talking about shutting down places that do delivery so he may be down for the count as well.

I moved across the country a few months ago for business opportunities but this whole coronavirus thing has put some stuff into perspective; if the drumpfbucks come through and the situation calms down, I'll probably end up going back home. My girlfriend's university moved all of her classes online and I wanted her to fly out so she could be here, but further consideration, it seems selfish on my part and unsafe for her.

The thing that really irritates me is that the liquor stores have been picked clean and I didn't have enough money earlier to stock up so I'll be bone dry for a little bit.

 

[Buster O'Keefe]

Still working. Hours were dramatically cut (by about ten), no idea if I'll be compensated for them, I might just go to another company at this point. All of my roommates have self-quarantined and are out of work, except one who works a food delivery job, but allegedly the state is talking about shutting down places that do delivery so he may be down for the count as well.

I moved across the country a few months ago for business opportunities but this whole coronavirus thing has put some stuff into perspective; if the drumpfbucks come through and the situation calms down, I'll probably end up going back home. My girlfriend's university moved all of her classes online and I wanted her to fly out so she could be here, but further consideration, it seems selfish on my part and unsafe for her.

The thing that really irritates me is that the liquor stores have been picked clean and I didn't have enough money earlier to stock up so I'll be bone dry for a little bit.

You can brew acceptable wine in 7 days, google local suppliers.

 

[Leonard Helplessness]

I will work 35 hours of overtime in March, and it ain’t got anything to do with corona.

I'm guessing you're a fellow tax kiwi. Hang in there!

I’m just feeling very anxious. So much shit going on in the whole world right now and the future is so unknown. I’m glad I have IRL and online friends to chat with, the isolation thing is such a bitch. I’m also flying home in a few hours from the opposite end of my country. I hope things get more positive soon
I also hope everyone is doing well and making the best of things, it’s a tough time ♥

I work with a lot of people as part of my job. All via phone, now. The standard valediction I hear now when I end a call is "Stay safe, and stay healthy!"

It's the little things that you've gotta cling to and cherish during times like this. People seem to be nicer to each other during an existential crisis.