How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[saralovesjuicyfruit]

I've been really pissed off and 'down with people' after reading the news, and also seeing something that reminded me of asshole family members I've permanently cut off. I saw this tweet from Andy Ngo and it reminded me of some of my relatives, very privileged, clueless, self-absorbed, hypocritical people who actively advocate for things that negatively impact my own quality of life and make me less safe as a white woman living in Chicago, while they are protected from the results of the bullshit they promote. As far as I'm concerned, people who advocate for things that make me less safe are my enemies, full stop, and I just really really would like to see such people get a big dose of karma, because they are trash.

havent put my christmas tree yet and probably wont. Since it's just me i usually have a small tree but the one i have is so small there's not much to decorate. hell i was able to move it into a tiny crawlspace after last year and its just sitting there. If i post a pic can i get an opinion on whether to leave it up or not?

Hey, definitely put it up! It's nice to mark the seasons

 

[Witlich]

I'm mostly sad and angry. Usually, my family hosts Christmas dinner at my grandparents' (always a big feast, I look forward to it every year), but it's cancelled this year due to Covid-19 still hanging around.

Gods, I just want this year to be done already. Forget dumpster fire, it's a whole ass landfill fire!

 

[Poyo Sato]

I'm healthy, doing well with my job, but really exhausted. Every weekend was spent doing some kind of errands and whatnot. Almost no time to catch a real break. I even had to abort an online class to meet some electricians who can't find a goddamn house (my brother's rent house) when it's already so close from where they called me. Today I messed up and accidentally break my bathtub, so there's one more thing on my to do list.

I really looking for the 10 day break starting from Christmas. It's been awhile since I've a real long break from works and everything.

 

[PaleTay]

I'm feeling a bit guilty now that I've realized one of my closer friends growing up pretty much got Pandalee'd.

 

[Francesco Dellamorte]

I've been a bit too lucky lately. I'm not sure if I should just enjoy myself or watch out for karmic readjustment in the form of runaway buses/meteorites/a sudden heart attack cutting me off mid sente

I've somehow developed motion sickness. Got back from a car ride and promptly lost my previous meal. It's not going away. Help.

 

[Wraith]

Augmenting my workout. Gonna try pumping iron again. ... How long does it take a mage with a 2 in STR to get it to 3? Asking for a frand and a spotter.

 

[hundredpercent]

Very much this. When I spend time online I feel like I'm under siege - part of some small group being swamped by legions of NPCs. And then I spend a little time around friends, neighbours and it's like the Sun breaking through the clouds when I hear a load of "this is bullshit" and "I don't believe that" or even simply people who are ignoring it because they don't give a shit.

Of course you come across those who do but it's refreshing when you find your beliefs shared not be weird tin-foil hat types but just ordinary everyday people. Chatting with an old lady the other day who you might think based on online media would be all in on vaccines and lockdowns. Instead she made clear in no uncertain terms "what a load of nonsense" she considered it.

I agree - it's deliberate. They want people cut off from means of communication they don't influence or control. You know what I have learned to say? "Fuck 'em". It's less hard than you think to meet people if you're willing to change your habits just a small amount.

Hang in there friend. There's a whole world of people out there who think the same as you. I mean real people - not just voices on a forum.

You sometimes see these redpilled people, but it's really one in a million. I wonder where they're all at?

Augmenting my workout. Gonna try pumping iron again. ... How long does it take a mage with a 2 in STR to get it to 3? Asking for a frand and a spotter.

SS+GOMAD

 

[Shadfan666xxx000]

Most of my coworkers are gone now which saddens me ngl. My supervisors who saved my ass multiple times, my old crush and a bunch of people who I'd bullshit with are gone now and I think it affected me more than I can openly care to admit. I'm moving on like everyone else but the melancholy still reaches me. I'm not going to be in my early 20s with a slacker job forever.

 

[Meat Target]

Vacation is over Nothing like coming back from a week of R&R to a mountain of shit in my inbox and having to watch the sanctimous oxygen thieves on TV spew their leftist drivel.

 

[Mr. ShadowCreek]

Pretty sad. Had to put my dog Dani down today. She had heart disease and it was getting worse. It was either let her suffer or end it. She was 14 so she had a nice long life. Other than he coughing she was still full of life so it almost felt to early. I suppose she's with my childhood dog Milo and my cats. Love you, Dani.

 

[The High Prophet of Truth]

I'm actually OK enough today.

Pretty sad. Had to put my dog Dani down today. She had heart disease and it was getting worse. It was either let her suffer or end it. She was 14 so she had a nice long life. Other than he coughing she was still full of life so it almost felt to early. I suppose she's with my childhood dog Milo and my cats. Love you, Dani.

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I'm sorry to hear that, she was a cute dog.

 

[Yoghurt Baby]

Not great. Considering deleting Facebook because all the news I see just fills me with anger and anxiety, which isn't a fun feeling. I work xmas eve which I'm dreading, and this'll be my first Christmas without family so I'm still sad about that. I'm not completly alone, which makes it better and much less likely for me to sad drink myself into stupidity.

Other than that I'm in pre-mourning. I know a lot of you will think this is pretty stupid, but my betta isn't doing so well. She has a parasite which I'm treating, but she also has a few tumors. I was hoping I'd have a few months left with her before the tumors got her, but I think the parasite treatment is too harsh on her. She's stopped eating and is just sitting on the sand. I got her at the beginning of covid and she's been with me though weeks of isolation and boredom. I even taught her tricks. She always recognized me and did tricks when she saw me come into the room. I'm gonna miss her dumb little face.

 

[Jason Wynn]

Was feeling kind of down the past week. Co-worker I have a crush on and I've suspected likes me as well was able to pick up on it, and went out of their way to try and cheer me up "you're better than you think you are" "I much prefer a world with you in it" ect. Was really sweet and lifted my spirits.

 

[Chan Fan]

My progress with getting better plateaued, had to get stronger meds. I'm just glad that was an option!

 

[Duncan Hills Coffee]

Feeling weird and boxed in right now. I've been trying to look for a job since graduation, but it's slowly dawned on me that I don't really have anything to work with. All the classes I've taken are largely irrelevant to the career fields I want, the only work experience I have is a year at my school's dining hall, and I didn't network with clubs or social groups or anything like that so I don't have a network to bounce off of. Every application's been a struggle because of that; I believe I can do the job if I had it, I understand what needs to be done and how to tailor my skills towards that, but with the way things look I don't have leverage to convince hiring managers when all I've done has nothing to do with the job at hand.

I guess that's normal for someone like me who's just graduated and struggling to find employment, but it really stings.

 

[Meat Target]

Sleep-deprived. Was up late last night, then got up early for a 3-mile run. Now I'm trying to hide my retarded giggling from co-workers.

 

[hundredpercent]

Feeling weird and boxed in right now. I've been trying to look for a job since graduation, but it's slowly dawned on me that I don't really have anything to work with. All the classes I've taken are largely irrelevant to the career fields I want, the only work experience I have is a year at my school's dining hall, and I didn't network with clubs or social groups or anything like that so I don't have a network to bounce off of. Every application's been a struggle because of that; I believe I can do the job if I had it, I understand what needs to be done and how to tailor my skills towards that, but with the way things look I don't have leverage to convince hiring managers when all I've done has nothing to do with the job at hand.

I guess that's normal for someone like me who's just graduated and struggling to find employment, but it really stings.

The coof doesn't help either, so hopefully you'll be better off if the economy starts getting back on track (lol)
Can I ask, what did you study?

 

[Duncan Hills Coffee]

The coof doesn't help either, so hopefully you'll be better off if the economy starts getting back on track (lol)
Can I ask, what did you study?

English, so I already had a bit of a handicap going for me in the career-finding department.

In seriousness, English is probably one of the more viable liberal arts degrees (if not the only one) and is especially easy to find telecommuting jobs for, which is a plus considering the lockdowns. Plus if you know how to use it, you can find some stable careers like in communications, research assistants, and public relations. Writing's about the only thing I'm really good at and I am confident I can make a career out of it. The problem I run into is that most of the places I'm interested in want samples of my work, work that is unfortunately made up of essays that have fuck all to do with communications and the like. I can BS the cover letters as much as I can (BS'ing is the foundation of the English degree after all), but there's no getting around my lack of viable samples.

Part of me thinks I fucked up by not doing actual communications classes, and therefore I don't have a solid body of work to go off on, but then those classes weren't required for my degree so I don't know if I can fully blame myself for that. Not much I can do now besides keep my eyes peeled for viable positions.

 

[Cheerlead-in-Chief]

I can draw again and I'm happier now.

 

[Clockwork_PurBle]

Not doing so hot. I've not mentioned this before I think but for approximately 2 years we've been combating an inconsistent and strange bed bug problem at home. I could write everyone a book about how shitty Terminix has been, but I'll spare the details.

I returned home after being gone for 3 weeks (I live elsewhere for college) to find evidence in my room, odd because I haven't this entire year and it has shown up when I've been gone. The only thing consistent about our problem is that most of the evidence has been concentrated to my room, but that itself makes no sense.

I don't fit the profile of someone most likely to bring them home. I have no friends who come over or whose homes I go to. I don't have a boyfriend. I've never had either. I don't travel. I only go to work and college (now 2 different colleges so it can't be c. college where I got them) and I'm very isolated in both places anyway. Especially NOW because most of my classes are online and like I said I live elsewhere 85% of the time.

So I'm spending hundreds and thousands of my own dollars (family cant afford it) I need for college and myself fighting a problem I can't find the origin of. It's not like I found out my BF has them and I can pinpoint the POI. It is also statistically unlikely we've gotten reinfested 4 times from 4 different origins. I've lost sleep over it. If I'm not bringing them in myself, why are they attracted to my clean, usually cold room? Why? Where? How? Why me?