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Not a good feeling finding out someone you thought was a friend essentially just saw you as something to amuse themselves with. Really messes with you trying to figure out why they went to those lengths. If I don’t like someone, I stay polite unless they give me a reason not to but I keep them at arm’s length, I don’t pretend to befriend them and shit talk them behind their back because that’s an incredibly cruel and shitty thing to do

A song for those feels.
 
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Watched this short animation made me feel something I’ve been feeling a lot lately during lockdown in an oddly comforting way like I am not the only one feeling this sometimes. Looking back there are so many phases and hitches when plans fail or there is a modicum of success in our lives without much of a yield for change or forward momentum. I feel that but at the same time I am grateful for what I have and that I can explore the things I enjoy doing. I just hope I don’t end up miserable like the man here at the end, back at square one or the zero point.

Edit: I always imagine how strange it would be to have gained it all even for a brief moment a title, wealth and fame and then to descend back to a zero point how much more miserable that would be like when someone wins the lottery and pisses away their good fortune on a house they can’t afford and frivolous trips to Vegas.
 
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I’m officially a graduate now. It doesn’t feel any different at all. But I’m glad it’s over. One day I’d like to pursue a masters’ degree too, but after I take some time and make a lot more money. For now I have to find some kind of job. Dunno if I can find anything relevant to my degree but I need money so I’m not too picky. I have a small art gig that can cover my bare minimum expenses but I want to actually save up for things.

I also visited my parents. The longer I’ve been moved out, the more I really appreciate them. Growing up, they had a lot of annoying habits and were a bit pack-ratty. Like living with annoying room mates if that makes sense. But now that I live away visiting them is nice. I can just chat and talk about what’s up. Plus I always enjoy visiting the family dog. That old girl is so sweet and I miss having a dog around.
 
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>/r9k/ told me that a bf would solve my problems
>get cute (e)bf
>literally feel nothing despite him being exactly my type
I must be schizoid or some shit. Why the fuck am I like this.
 
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I made a pretty big move to get out of the US at the time I'd been living in MN and I honestly hated it, people there are all passive aggressive shitheads. That and the riots shutting down the city every other week, I remember seeing concrete slabs and wondering if it was a new building project only to come to realize that was what was left of a mcdonalds. I hadn't been out other than to shop and even then I had been getting stuff shipped to my house for over a year. Now I'm out of the states I feel out of practice talking to people and in most cases I try just to avoid it, even my current landlord told his son he thought I was lonely and he wanted him to help me fit in here. I don't miss many people in the states as by halfway through ronna I was only talking to online friends and I still am as connected with them now as I was then. I still stay very much up to date with Us politics, at this point it's like fantasy football for me. It's so crazy and I spent so much time caring it's hard to put it down, I'm not stupid enough to start getting back into it here, besides it's just not as fun.
 
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I made a pretty big move to get out of the US at the time I'd been living in MN and I honestly hated it, people there are all passive aggressive shitheads. That and the riots shutting down the city every other week, I remember seeing concrete slabs and wondering if it was a new building project only to come to realize that was what was left of a mcdonalds. I hadn't been out other than to shop and even then I had been getting stuff shipped to my house for over a year. Now I'm out of the states I feel out of practice talking to people and in most cases I try just to avoid it, even my current landlord told his son he thought I was lonely and he wanted him to help me fit in here. I don't miss many people in the states as by halfway through ronna I was only talking to online friends and I still am as connected with them now as I was then. I still stay very much up to date with Us politics, at this point it's like fantasy football for me. It's so crazy and I spent so much time caring it's hard to put it down, I'm not stupid enough to start getting back into it here, besides it's just not as fun.

What is the flag with the black? Are you a Cossack now?
 
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Thought I was gradually getting over what happened to me a week ago but judging from the vivid nightmares that started a few nights ago, that doesn't appear to actually be happening.
Grateful that I finally start my new job next week so I will have something to occupy my thoughts with during the day.
 
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