How are you doing? - Kiwi Farms Wellness Check

[Cup Noodle]

I have friends but it's always like a lowkey scene. Hangout, fuck around, kick a few rocks, drink a few beers.

I planned a weekend that was going to be a total rager in my mind, but 2/3 of the people I originally invited can't make it for good reasons (like two of them are getting huge promotions at work, two have friends getting married that weekend, and so forth), so it's probably going to be a lowkey scene. Hangout, fuck around, kick a few rocks, drink a few beers.

I'm sure it's going to be fun, but more like Melissa Etheridge fun and less like Kid Rock fun.

Not to psychologize myself but it's funny to go through something like the last year and realize you're the same person with the same life. And I feel kind of lame having hyped this in my mind into a huge thing. Like half-assing it like I half-ass everything else I do would have been a less disappointing option. Which goes back to realizing that you're the same person you always were.

You will always be the same person you always were. Other users here have told me that I'm old, but I choose to disagree. Guess I'm old though so have some words of wisdom from some old autist. Kid Rock fun does happen in real life but it only happens occasionally when all of the stars align. Kicking rocks and drinking beer is the norm. Embrace it and embrace the fact that you have buddies to kick rocks and drink beer with. You can work this year to make yourself better, but you are still just you and that's all that you will ever be. If you are basing your self worth on some stupid party your priorities are in the wrong place.

 

[Coffee Druid]

Now that I have a history degree, I probably won't find a career that makes use of it for awhile. But in the meantime I'll try to find a job or two to get me by.

But, I've always thought it'd be interesting to put my historical research experience to use and make a small youtube channel as a hobby. Just talk about historical culture or random stuff that I find interesting. I don't think it'd be anything big, but hey. I brought it up to my boyfriend and he went "I don't think you'd be able to handle it and all the negative comments." Bruh. I've been on the internet for at least 15 years, it's not my first rodeo. I had an entire fandom forum troll me when I was 11. (not my fault, was apparently a newbie hazing thing).

Also I wish the weather here wouldn't tease rain for several days without a drop in sight, and then dump it all at once in a big thunderstorm.

 

[Sped Xing]

Now that I have a history degree, I probably won't find a career that makes use of it for awhile. But in the meantime I'll try to find a job or two to get me by.

But, I've always thought it'd be interesting to put my historical research experience to use and make a small youtube channel as a hobby. Just talk about historical culture or random stuff that I find interesting. I don't think it'd be anything big, but hey. I brought it up to my boyfriend and he went "I don't think you'd be able to handle it and all the negative comments." Bruh. I've been on the internet for at least 15 years, it's not my first rodeo. I had an entire fandom forum troll me when I was 11. (not my fault, was apparently a newbie hazing thing).

Also I wish the weather here wouldn't tease rain for several days without a drop in sight, and then dump it all at once in a big thunderstorm.

I use my history degree at work; it makes me enjoy listening to history books on audible while I drive a semi.

Genuinely, I think a true liberal arts education is its own reward. Actual liberal arts, like music, history, or astronomy. I don't mean gender studies.

 

[Coffee Druid]

I use my history degree at work; it makes me enjoy listening to history books on audible while I drive a semi.

Genuinely, I think a true liberal arts education is its own reward. Actual liberal arts, like music, history, or astronomy. I don't mean gender studies.

Heh, I don't consider gender (or -ethnicity here-) studies to be a part of that. It's an aspect of history for sure, but an entire degree? Nah. I've always found history, culture, linguistics, and philosophy to be the most interesting fields of study. STEM stuff is super useful, but not my wheelhouse. I actually feel awkward at times saying what my degree is because I will hear the "Oh... Well I'm sure you can go into being a history teacher or something..." spiel. I'll find something to do with it.

 

[Sped Xing]

Heh, I don't consider gender (or -ethnicity here-) studies to be a part of that. It's an aspect of history for sure, but an entire degree? Nah. I've always enjoyed history, culture, linguistics, and philosophy to be the most interesting fields of study. STEM stuff is super useful, but not wheelhouse. I actually feel awkward at times saying what my degree is because I will hear the "Oh... Well I'm sure you can go into being a history teacher or something..." spiel. I'll find something to do with it.

The attitude that universities should be expensive trade schools is a byproduct of government intervention. The extent to which said government intervention was intended to breed anti-intellectualism must be correlated to how crafty policy makers really are.

I have a STEM degree as well; truck driving school was more lucrative. Good luck, and of you're a good history youtuber I'll probably end up subscribing to you and never realize it.

 

[Exuvia]

New job is demonstrably worse than the one I had before everything in 2020 happened but all in all, it's still good to be actually employed again and not in a position dealing with the general public. I've stopped having such bad nightmares for the time being, too.
Also, it's been so long since my last haircut that I'm starting to look like Dyatlov from the Chernobyl mini-series.

 

[Shitted Scaredless]

I think I'm having a mental breakdown

 

[DDBCAE CBAADCBE]

I think I'm having a mental breakdown

All it takes is one bad day.

 

[Neurotypical Mantis]

i really hate kids and people who don't know what the fuck personal space is especially during rona where you're literally required to stay the fuck away from people

 

[verygayFrogs]

Ngl depression is getting worse and the lack of energy i have is staggering. Like I went to 2 stores today and picked up my bedroom and I wanted to pass the fuck out. I can’t even do stairs without needing a breather. Mom even said I was acting like a teenager in puberty and it’s like “I’m depressed? I’m not allowed to nap?” And that I need to be motivated and shit but it’s hard. Half the time I force myself to leave bed to pee the other half is so no one gets on my ass.
Not helping is the fact I’m stuck at my racist grandma’s house tomorrow for Memorial Day so that’s not going to help. I’m just going to hole myself up in the basement until we eat and then get yelled at for isolating myself when I’m just ready to cut out half of my family all together.

I don’t even get hungry anymore. I forced myself to eat pringles today just to get something in my stomach and I normally love pringles. Food and sleep are the only things that really changed my mood and now even food is not doing it? Feels bad man.

Also touch starved as fuck but that’s a different issue for a different day

 

[Antipathy]

I'm feeling weird lately. I'm feeling doubts about my future and am reading a bunch more, which is making me feel strange. I'm getting a sort of nervous feeling about everything, especially what I'll be doing in 2-3 years.

Hopefully I'll be alright.

 

[knobslobbin]

Doing great. Healing in my open and back to normal red state. Meeting people, sticking to eating healthy and lifting. Getting back into hobbies. Family is visiting for a camping trip this month, can't wait to bbq and drink beer under the stars.

 

[Totally Awesome]

I'm feeling good. Got off work, got some exercise, ate some dinner. Now I'm relaxing, and have the day off tomorrow.

 

[Prophetic Spirit]

Studied like 4 hours and was fine. Still trying to writing the novel but nothing with pressure.

 

[Sped Xing]

Mom even said I was acting like a teenager in puberty and it’s like “I’m depressed? I’m not allowed to nap?” And that I need to be motivated and shit but it’s hard.

"Just stop being depressed." Real helpful, Ma.

 

[McMitch]

Got flaked on for the third time in a row. I knew this would happen, but part of me was still looking forward to it.

 

[Justtocheck]

Got flaked on for the third time in a row. I knew this would happen, but part of me was still looking forward to it.

They don't know what a 10/10 guy you are. They don't give themselves the chance.

 

[soft breathing]

A family friend committed suicide recently.
Someone close to me suffered a heart-attack and is hospitalised.
My parents keep ignoring my calls/texts and I have no idea why.
Someone I was slowly becoming friends with turned out to be not as great as I thought.
My depression feels like it wants to swallow me.

... and there's this fat woman with her 5 kids in front of me, complaining that her coffee is not served hot enough. I just want to slap her with the coffee machine.

I feel like I just need a break - one I cannot afford at all currently.

I'll pull through though. I can do this. One day at a time.

 

[Neurotypical Mantis]

today i made a minecraft painting texture pack for me and my friends to use and it replaced my friend's tv with a picture of liquid snake's tits and i laughed so hard that i kept coughing for the rest of the vc

 

[McMitch]

They don't know what a 10/10 guy you are. They don't give themselves the chance.

No this person has been a friend for years and knows exactly how awful I am.