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Today I am incredibly knackered and a bit deflated but I am planning on making chili con carne tonight so life could be worse.
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verygayFrogs
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I’m going to be alone for Memorial Day, mom is hanging out with my grandma, brother is going out with a polish chick and my dad tried to make my depression about me not being religious enough.
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How the fuck do you get not being religious enough out of someone, let alone your own spawn being depressed?
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How the fuck do you get not being religious enough out of someone, let alone your own spawn being depressed?
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Should've prayed the sadbrain away, its difficult for you to feel sad when you've got enough jesus particles in your grey matter.
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I have leftover taco beef to make burritos for dinner, yum. Life is good.
verygayFrogs
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And my mom is trying to make me hang out with dad as if he wasn’t acting like a bull on testosterone and roids 24/7
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If you were a boy, you could ask him for some roids. It wouldn't get rid of the problems, but working out is usually advised to do while depressed. It doesn't hurt and it can get your mind off thing for a moment
verygayFrogs
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He acts like it, he doesn’t have anyIf you were a boy, you could ask him for some roids. It wouldn't get rid of the problems, but working out is usually advised to do while depressed. It doesn't hurt and it can get your mind off thing for a moment
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At least it doesn't hurt to do some exercises, you don't even need to go outside. Just start slow, and something is better than nothing
verygayFrogs
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I’m trying.At least it doesn't hurt to do some exercises, you don't even need to go outside. Just start slow, and something is better than nothing
Especially when my mom just said “you don’t think me and your aunt have depression either?!” Yeah and your 30+ Years older than me and never went through 14 years of back to back trauma by mainly grown adults who fucking knew better,
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Well, last weekend I was making 3 types of cookies for my nephews and I was afraid that fucking that up could send me into another round of depression. And I kinda did in 1.5 cases, but in the end I'm feeling fine, even a little proud of myself.
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Take care, people.
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I've honestly been in the best mood since forever lately. A long-time internet friend flew to my state to visit me for three days, and it wasn't awkward at all. No anxiety, no weird remarks, nothing. I was more excited than nervous, and took her out to explore a bit. We met at a shopping outlet and explored there a bit, cooked us dinner, went to a fun park, went to the lake, and so much more. She refused to let me pay for her, so I snuck a $100 bill in a card I gave her, and told her to open it when she got on the plane. Best time I've ever had in a long time.
I'm planning to get my shit together, as her visiting made me have an epiphany on life, so I'm going to try and fix my situation a bit. Depression and anxiety is a bitch, and combine that with a heart and hip condition, it's hard. I'm hoping to go to college in the Falls after talking about it for so long, and plan to get my B.A. in History, like I had originally talked about. In the mean time, I plan to do more around the house, and try and look for a job that won't kill me.
On another note, I also made a little over double the amount I invested in AMC back in January. When all the GME hype died down, I talked to a long-time friend about what to do, and he said to hold. We speculated that AMC would go up again with Covid restrictions lifting in the summer, and I'll be damned that we were right.
I'm planning to get my shit together, as her visiting made me have an epiphany on life, so I'm going to try and fix my situation a bit. Depression and anxiety is a bitch, and combine that with a heart and hip condition, it's hard. I'm hoping to go to college in the Falls after talking about it for so long, and plan to get my B.A. in History, like I had originally talked about. In the mean time, I plan to do more around the house, and try and look for a job that won't kill me.
On another note, I also made a little over double the amount I invested in AMC back in January. When all the GME hype died down, I talked to a long-time friend about what to do, and he said to hold. We speculated that AMC would go up again with Covid restrictions lifting in the summer, and I'll be damned that we were right.
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I'm feeling really sad today. Just found out that a guy I dated in high school passed away unexpectedly. He was one of the big loves of my life, even though we had forgotten about each other over the years and only recently got in touch through Facebook (yes, I'm old). I certainly don't have any romantic feelings for him anymore (nor did he have them for me) and I'm happily married, but for some reason, his death is hitting me hard. I wasn't expecting to feel this way at all and it is kind of throwing me for a loop.
Maybe it is just the realization that I'm inching closer towards death that is making all this hard. Or maybe a part of you always loves someone even though they aren't important in your life anymore. I don't want to talk about it irl with anyone because I don't want to give the impression that I was pining for him or that I don't really love my husband. I know I'd be weirded out if my husband was this emotional about an ex, so the last thing I want to do is make him think I wish it had worked out with this guy. I don't.
Maybe I'm just overloaded with death lately. I've lost 3 aunts and an uncle within the last year and another uncle is in the ICU right now. My mom almost died a couple of months ago, too, but she pulled through. That could explain why I am so emotional over someone that I haven't even seen in person in almost 40 years. It's a weird feeling.
Maybe it is just the realization that I'm inching closer towards death that is making all this hard. Or maybe a part of you always loves someone even though they aren't important in your life anymore. I don't want to talk about it irl with anyone because I don't want to give the impression that I was pining for him or that I don't really love my husband. I know I'd be weirded out if my husband was this emotional about an ex, so the last thing I want to do is make him think I wish it had worked out with this guy. I don't.
Maybe I'm just overloaded with death lately. I've lost 3 aunts and an uncle within the last year and another uncle is in the ICU right now. My mom almost died a couple of months ago, too, but she pulled through. That could explain why I am so emotional over someone that I haven't even seen in person in almost 40 years. It's a weird feeling.
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I feel for you not having depression taken seriously. But, that part about the Polish chick reminded me about some Polish chickens I adopted recently. Maybe this is at least a little cuteness to help?
Today I got a call back from one of the many places I threw job applications out at. Got an interview later this week, and from the phone call things seem hopeful. To be honest, due to my degrees I'm a little overqualified for retail (where the app was for), but I don't have a lot of job experience due to being a full time student and taking time off for medical stuff. It pays okay, but not great. But it seems like a laid-back place to ease me back into working and a chance to earn optional income in commission if I really feel like it. My parents are going to hate it though, as it's a place that primarily sells alcohol...
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They're probably going to hate it less, if it's between the job or them paying for your livelihood. If they really cared, they could find you a better paying job which don't have anything to do with alcohol.
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Well, I’ve been moved out for a little while so that won’t be an issue. But you know how parents still try to give you advice even when you’re out on your own. It doesn’t bother me too much though.
I’m also hoping a job will help regulate my schedule. When I don’t have classes or other obligations my sleep gets kind of wonky and I get worse at time management.
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In good news, today was my baby granddaughter's first birthday. Son called this morning. Sang "Happy Birthday" to the baby, think she liked it. Next year she'll understand more, just like next year she'll understand what all those green pieces of paper her Bubba and Grandma sent actually are. This year the baby just looked at the money and put it to the side.
In ongoing aggravations, legs still hurt like a bitch, pain plus muscle spasms plus some weakness, over one week after surgery. Follow up with surgeon is tomorrow. Need something that will actually handle the pain and not just fuck me around. Went into town today, took walker in the car. Got the shit done and went the fuck home.
In ongoing aggravations, legs still hurt like a bitch, pain plus muscle spasms plus some weakness, over one week after surgery. Follow up with surgeon is tomorrow. Need something that will actually handle the pain and not just fuck me around. Went into town today, took walker in the car. Got the shit done and went the fuck home.
verygayFrogs
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Just as I thought I was having a good day, I had to eat dinner alone (the main bonding time) and then out of nowhere the depression hit double hard and it’s like “why even bother trying anymore.” I know that I’m never going to be happy, my siblings are much more successful than me and it’s too much effort for little payoff and everyone else has someone but I don’t. Everything hurts
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I've been doing pretty alright lately, no major changes but I started art therapy a couple weeks ago for the hell of it. I like it a lot so far, it motivates me to draw (which I've been trying to do more of) and is a good excuse to get out of the house. My best friend and I are planning on maybe going to Six Flags this month, and I've also got a vacation to Cape May planned, so looking forward to those.