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[DNA_JACKED]

I managed to hurt myself in a retarded manner, and had to take significant time off work. As a result im in far worse shape then ive been in a long time.

The most bizzare thing was when I finally got to leave the house again, something changed. All the unenforced mask signs were gone, many of the stores had removed their temporary plastic guards, employees at various stores were not wearing masks, people were standing close to one another....it felt like a twilight zone episode "Welcome to the world of normality".

Everytime I go out, I find that my views are the majority amongst the people I talk to. Every time I spend time online, I feel I'm under siege. Case in point, went into a pub on Saturday and the barman started talking to me about The Great Reset. Wasn't some weird guy - regular as they come and a good looking dude. Old lady up the road I was chatting with her and she tells me none of this covid stuff makes sense.

The biggest conspiracy theory there is is how they contrive to make beliefs held by the majority of people appear fringe. You're not alone, but they'll do everything they can to convince you that you are.

I've noticed the same thing. Almost nobody I work with agrees with mainstream news sources or online narratives. It really makes me wonder where all these hard left media believers are, although based on my experiences I think most are either too scared to leave their homes or dont work reliably, so I dont run into them most often.

It really puts into perspective how small the web actually is. The number of real people actively interacting outside of facebook chats is shockingly small.

 

[Vingle]

Everytime I go out, I find that my views are the majority amongst the people I talk to. Every time I spend time online, I feel I'm under siege.

Kinda the opposite here, but that's because my country has a "cold" culture of not talking to strangers IRL.
I'm obviously more conservative and shit like that. Noticed a tendency of people agreeing with me, even though the libtard mods and users are freaking out over my "trolling". And yea, people rather pm me, because people can see who likes. Basically, they don't want libtards to harass them.

On an another forum where I just lurk on, the majority is against troons being real women, being into women sport and majority told a user to move. When their kid wanted to begin using a hijab.

I've noticed the same thing. Almost nobody I work with agrees with mainstream news sources or online narratives. It really makes me wonder where all these hard left media believers are, although based on my experiences I think most are either too scared to leave their homes or dont work reliably, so I dont run into them most often.

It really puts into perspective how small the web actually is. The number of real people actively interacting outside of facebook chats is shockingly small.

 

[Info Player Start]

Feeling really good
been working out

 

[You Bastard Guy]

Honestly, I wouldn't even give much thought to their opinion as long as we can just move along and have a good time.
It's just that they let it dominate their entire life and worldview. It's all they think about day in, day out.
They have the most miserable fucking existence known to man, I promise you.

As little as a few years ago, I never gave that sort of disagreement more tha a shrug. We agree on other stuff and do other things, right?

Well, not anymore. Social media says you`re a nazi and you probably have other problematic opinions too and you must be shunned and deplatformed and fired and harassed to the ends of the earth.

Thanks to the `ronies and my living situation, I don`t encounter many Westerners anymore. The ones I do encounter always seem to be shitheads who lead with their politics and are spoiling for a confrontation. Even before everything shut down, I was pretending that I don`t speak English when encountering strangers.

 

[Juan But Not Forgotten]

Wondering why my body won't let itself sleep during the day.
I'm tired man what the hell are you so stuck up about

I've had the same problem. You are probably to concentrated on the fact that you need to fall asleep. Just cut all the sources of light and try to remove evey thought from your head. Also, something like this can happen if you are too stressed. In that case use whatever helps you to relax.

 

[Sped Xing]

I ate a bag of shit tripping over a curb this morning. Hurt like a bitch, and exploded my can of Diet Doctor Pepper.

However, when I got over being pissed about that, I noticed a stench. Finally I figured it out-- my drink had gone off, and would have tasted like poison. Now it's on my shirt and stinks, but I didn't have to drink it.

Luck loves me.

 

[JustSomeDong]

Sick of waiting for contractors to have time. I'm not ready to do all of it, but I can replace a couple of short water lines and fittings that are seriously corroded in my utility room. I'm fairly certain 90% of it is still original post WW2 built. I skyped with my buddy in South Dakota last night, showed him the trouble spots, planned out my repair with him and what I would need, and went and raided his storage unit he has here for tools before going to Menards for supplies. I'm gonna replace a couple water lines, since a fitting is now slowly dripping in my utility room.

If he ever moves back to Illinois (not like a pandemic hasn't ruined everyone's plans for life, amirite?), He and I are planning to redo most of the plumbing, but a few small repairs just can't wait any longer.

 

[Sped Xing]

Sick of waiting for contractors to have time. I'm not ready to do all of it, but I can replace a couple of short water lines and fittings that are seriously corroded in my utility room. I'm fairly certain 90% of it is still original post WW2 built. I skyped with my buddy in South Dakota last night, showed him the trouble spots, planned out my repair with him and what I would need, and went and raided his storage unit he has here for tools before going to Menards for supplies. I'm gonna replace a couple water lines, since a fitting is now slowly dripping in my utility room.

If he ever moves back to Illinois (not like a pandemic hasn't ruined everyone's plans for life, amirite?), He and I are planning to redo most of the plumbing, but a few small repairs just can't wait any longer.

"Independent contractor" is a euphemism for "I can't keep a job."

 

[Woe-B-Gon (TM)]

Just cut all the sources of light and try to remove evey thought from your head.

That's the tricky one for me - it's hard to stop thinking. Not that I'm a "thinker" or the thoughts are deep, it's just that that Buddhist concept of "clearing your mind" sounds about as natural to me as "forcing all the air out of your lungs": Stuff is just going to get in, like it or not. My fix wound up being a couple of Let's Players I found who tend to speak in relaxing tones (both Dutch, oddly) with none of that screamy nonsense. Downloaded a bunch of videos of theirs (so no ads getting in my way), slapped 'em a playlist on my PC. It engages enough of my brain that I don't think of other stuff but not enough that I can't nod off. By the time the powersave kicks in on the monitor I'm usually groggy and then the audio carries me the rest of the way.

 

[Kornula]

Thank you, both. It's good just to get a couple of replies. I'm not going to do what would probably (temporarily) make me feel better and get angry with them or try to dehumanize them in some way. And honestly, that's not in my nature anyway. They're just two people I was making friends with who suddenly started telling me how privileged I had it and doubled down on it when I refused to accept it. I'm not going to go digging around in my life story to prove to them otherwise nor should I have to. And honestly, I don't think they would have heard me. I guess I am probably better off out of that as given how it went it was probably just a time bomb waiting to happen. But I'm still upset about it and will be for some time.



Good for you, really. Don't let anything stop you. I was doing better much like you are starting to, until the lockdowns pushed me into a year of depression. I wish I'd had your determination to carry on but I'm getting back to it little by little, now. Posts from others doing the same are actually inspiring so I'm glad you shared.

EDIT: The goat would be good. I'd like a goat.

Giving anyone even one subject not to talk about anywhere at any setting is a huge red flag to stay away at all costs. But you braved the invitation anyway... probably knowing you'd get singled out. Good for you for remaining civil.

 

[DoomsdayElite]

Worn out. I hate where I'm living-place is a dump, and I've had to contend with vermin pretty much the entire time I've lived here. Mostly bed bugs. One or several other tenants have/had them, and they've found their way into my unit. The entire building has been treated three times by a pest control company-and that's only after I demanded that professionals handle this problem (before, a couple dipshits with insect repellent would come by-utterly ineffectual, because it didn't kill the bed bugs. It only kept them at bay for awhile). It's been two weeks since I've seen any more of the fucking things. That won't last, though. They keep coming back. In a cruel twist, this isn't my first rodeo with them-in 2018-19 I had them in my previous place and it got so bad I had no choice but to move out. I'm looking for places now, but New Hampshire is in the midst of a horrible crunch and there's hardly anything available that I can afford.

 

[Kornula]

Worn out. I hate where I'm living-place is a dump, and I've had to contend with vermin pretty much the entire time I've lived here. Mostly bed bugs. One or several other tenants have/had them, and they've found their way into my unit. The entire building has been treated three times by a pest control company-and that's only after I demanded that professionals handle this problem (before, a couple dipshits with insect repellent would come by-utterly ineffectual, because it didn't kill the bed bugs. It only kept them at bay for awhile). It's been two weeks since I've seen any more of the fucking things. That won't last, though. They keep coming back. In a cruel twist, this isn't my first rodeo with them-in 2018-19 I had them in my previous place and it got so bad I had no choice but to move out. I'm looking for places now, but New Hampshire is in the midst of a horrible crunch and there's hardly anything available that I can afford.

If you can turn up the heat to over 110F for at least 2 hours.. that will kill all of the bed bugs.. at least in your unit. otherwise... damn...

 

[DoomsdayElite]

If you can turn up the heat to over 110F for at least 2 hours.. that will kill all of the bed bugs.. at least in your unit. otherwise... damn

I had suggested that idea, too. I was already paranoid because of my past experience-my bed was already zipped up inside two protective cases, one made of fabric and the other made of vinyl, when I moved in. I haven't slept with a blanket the entire time I've been here, not even in winter . One less thing for them to get a foothold in. My only other piece of furniture is a computer chair. I spotted them mostly on the walls, some on the ceilings. They rarely transmit disease, which is their only redeeming quality. The psychological impact is another story. Having nightmares about them. Waking up some mornings to find one on me, having a nibble. Killing it and seeing my own blood splatter. Feeling a slight tickle on my leg one night and instinctively smacking it, only to discover it was nothing-just a breeze from an open window stirring the hairs on my leg. There was one night a couple months ago where I found at least nine or ten of the little bastards in the space of about three hours. It was surreal to find so many in one night, I began to wonder if I was hallucinating.

 

[Dustlord]

Go to the hospital. Your friend will be happy to see you, believe me. Have visited plenty of people in the hospital. Talk about sports, weather, whatever. I know, have spent time in the hospital myself on a few occasions, most recently last month. Let your friend tell you about his case/prognosis. Your presence is great medicine.

@Overly Serious - those bitches have the problem, you don't. Their IQ doesn't seem to exceed their bust sizes. May the horse be with them.

Did it this morning since I had some time and was in the area anyway. He's in good spirits. Surprisingly conscious considering the amount of painkillers he's on atm. He obviously didn't wanna go into much detail but its 50/50 if he'll walk again, and even if so, he'll be down for months.
The doctors are still trying different things.

I'm just happy he's alive and didn't get brain damage or anything.

 

[JustSomeDong]

"Independent contractor" is a euphemism for "I can't keep a job."

Nobody said anything about independent contractors in my post, but good to know. I don't trust anyone without insurance. I'm trying to get 2 different companies to get to me. They are both swamped and one is having staffing problems.

Regardless, replaced water lines then made a crock pot lasagna. Was a good day.

 

[Coffee Druid]

Me and my bf live with a relative of his. Said person is kind of annoying on a good day, but it's cheaper to live here than move out right now. Regardless, the relative's son and a family friend came over for a week. The son is...well I'm not sure but I know he's a little slow. That's not necessarily a bad thing but he always hovers around the kitchen and will talk your ear off about random, inane stuff so I've been avoiding doing stuff in there, or cooking/washing my dishes really quick. It's awkward. He also tries cooking stuff, but it's stuff like throwing a bunch of canned veggies and chicken broth into a slow cooker. Probably edible, but... And it's always portions for like 12+ people. So there's tons of leftovers filling up the fridge. It makes sense since I've seen him go through 2 12-packs of pepsi and a few 2 Liter bottles of mt dew, not to mention a whole big box of ice cream bars in the past week.

The family friend kind of stays out of the way. Me and bf's bathroom is near the living room so he's been using that. Not a big deal in itself, but I realized he took a shower and used my bar of soap. Not only do you not bring your own toiletries for a week long stay. You don't even ask if we have extras (we have lots) and just use someone else's?! Just a few more days.....

I'm shit at being confrontational. I grew up in a place where airing your grievances was ignored at best, and at worst you were yelled at and told how many things you did wrong. Now I rationalize it as "why bother? it will only cause issues, you can deal or ignore it." I need to figure out how to fix that.

 

[Exuvia]

I realized he took a shower and used my bar of soap.

 

[JosephStalin]

Did it this morning since I had some time and was in the area anyway. He's in good spirits. Surprisingly conscious considering the amount of painkillers he's on atm. He obviously didn't wanna go into much detail but its 50/50 if he'll walk again, and even if so, he'll be down for months.
The doctors are still trying different things.

I'm just happy he's alive and didn't get brain damage or anything.

If this person is reasonably young, they're likely to recover quicker than you might think. Surgeon for the recent spinal fusion told me I heal fast, and I'm 66. Mind you, believe it will take months before all the lingering effects are gone, but I progress daily. Physical therapy can be a lot of help. I had some. Keeping your friend pumped up is a great medicine.

 

[Juan But Not Forgotten]

That's the tricky one for me - it's hard to stop thinking. Not that I'm a "thinker" or the thoughts are deep, it's just that that Buddhist concept of "clearing your mind" sounds about as natural to me as "forcing all the air out of your lungs": Stuff is just going to get in, like it or not. My fix wound up being a couple of Let's Players I found who tend to speak in relaxing tones (both Dutch, oddly) with none of that screamy nonsense. Downloaded a bunch of videos of theirs (so no ads getting in my way), slapped 'em a playlist on my PC. It engages enough of my brain that I don't think of other stuff but not enough that I can't nod off. By the time the powersave kicks in on the monitor I'm usually groggy and then the audio carries me the rest of the way.

You can use clocks for that. Concentrate on the silence between ticks.

 

[The Fraggle Queen]

I’m doing a whole bunch better! I’m completely off my meds now with no side effects, and I haven’t been this pain free in well, my entire life. I’ve also got an interview for my dream job next week, so hoping that goes well.