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I feel like I'm really good at snot rockets, but I'm trying to hide the fact I'm sick, so I can't brag about it to my co-workers.
 
Been fighting the benzos in an attempt to clean myself up, and after finally receiving them I’ve posted some my dad’s ashes to a specialised jewellery makers. After a few days I got myself a pendant back with them encased in resin.

Other than that, I’m be bought an X-Box X and a tonne of Kreig from Forge World to take my mind off things, as well as keep my hand off a bottle.
 
Absolutely exhausted. Because of meds I'm usually out cold ten to twelve hours a day, but every four to six weeks there will be a weird little hiccup and randomly one night I won't sleep at all. As in, at six or seven am I give up, get out of bed, and make myself a cup of tea. Last night was a no sleep night. I could probably sleep now, but in a couple hours I'm expecting a phonecall from my new job agency. I've been on the disability pension for a few years now and I've hated myself for it every single day. A fellow gimp referred me to this specialist agency and I'm really excited to be signed up for them. Having money would be nice, having money that I actually earned would be amazing. I don't expect them to pull the laboratory management position of my dreams out of their arse, but I am hoping they can find me something that will grant me some modicum of self respect. Being able to look myself in the eye when I stand in front of a mirror would be bliss.

Of course, my city's in hard lockdown right now, a lot of businesses are shut, and the PTB are talking about extending lockdown because Covid Delta keeps trip trapping across the place, so job placement is all rather academic at the moment. But it's nice to dream.
 
For the first time in years, I've started reaching out to the few people I care about. They're glad to have me back - been hanging out more recently, and it's just like old times. Feels good even if it's exhausting.

On a less positive note, job is suddenly forcing me to move out of state, which kinda sucks because I have lots of roots here.
 
this evening is beautiful, i have the AC off, windows open, and cool summer breezes are aplenty right now. Sometimes you forget how nice life can be
This sounds absolutely lovely.

Edit : It needs a Grill outside, allowing said summer breezes to bring the smell of cooking meats into the house.
 
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