Having sprung myself out of a similar funk that I had fallen in to around at the same time you did, I can only say that what helped for me was shattering my perception of the world and my place within it. Things are not quite as they are presented, and studying this subject has helped me understand that there still are fascinating secrets out there for those who are willing to dig. There are countless people out there who teach many false lessons, and even very smart people fall prey to lies that are repeated ad nauseam. Wikipedia has been known as a questionable source for decades, and even history books are more... "based on a true story" than any sort of objective fact.
Other than that, objective based goal setting is huge. There is a reason why the achievement system dominates the video game landscape, because that sort of shit drives people's brains.
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I can not speak for it working for everybody, but this kind of thing has been huge for getting my life pointed in a positive direction.
I used to be pretty goal oriented when I was actively discovering new stuff. Like downloading darkwave studio or fruity loops back in the day trying my best to learn. I used to get lots of ideas for mechanisms and invention, but that part of my brain just turned off at some point later on in life. Maybe that's something I can get back into. I have no shortage of small tasks to structure a day around either I guess if I stop being lazy about it.
I would gladly take that over living with the parents. I do not live with the parents now, but that’s beside the point. Have some pride, at least you are not living in mommy’s basement.
Living with parents can be the worst, but at least its often rent free, or maybe you get to inherit the property someday. Unfortunately in my case, my mom's the only side to my family she's as bad with money as I am, so won't be inheriting anything. Be good to your family though, you only get one chance, before they're gone. My girlfriend's father passed away suddenly recently of a blocked valve, despite being fit, healthy, not being that old, with no symptoms, you never know when death is going to hit you or someone you know. So spend some good time with them.
Life is one big world-wide soap opera for me. I've been and continue to go through hell in my little 20x20x10 dungeon, but there is just so much to watch and see and experience out there, IDK, not to shit on OP, but I'm wondering if you're a girl, a real girl, because they lack imagination of an adult man. For crying out loud, I find myself upset because there is so much out there and I can only dabble a little bit like a jack of all trades because I can't settle down sometimes and get into things because there's something else just over the hill.
And about friends... well I found out the hard way most people are crap. It's a rare day when someone is someone worth being around so I wrote that off years ago. A man's most mature task is how he handles being with himself, alone, with or without a creepy dungeon with fat monsters crawling around levels 3 and skinny creepy ones around level 9.
There's just too much out there. Only liberal entertainment media, sportsballs and Christian Weston Chandler are boring to me right now.
That's the perspective I feel like I should have, I just feel like everything is really samey these days. The one good thing is that I have some egregiously bad luck most days, so if I walk by someone sketchy, 8/10 they'll probably talk to me or maybe have some public freakout. Like I had my mom dropping off a few things when the covid stuff was first starting before any public bans, and she asked me to go to the grocery store with her. Within seconds of driving down the street, we see a loose dog running on the sidewalk and into traffic. (My mom loses her shit at this stuff, because she cares more about dogs than people usually). Dog runs through the street no less than 4 different times, and I urge her to just leave it and not to make it our problem, because I know she'll take it home with her otherwise. We drove down legit 8 blocks. This dog ran through traffic all the way through, as if following our vehicle, we get out at the grocery store and see it STILL running down the road behind us, and past a public park before going onto the road again. No one seems to notice or care but us, and thankfully we didn't see it again afterwards. But that's the kind of shit that routinely happens whenever we go together somewhere, like the universe just starts playing a trick. Another time I had a guy on my bus ride home from work take notice of me and threaten to stab me despite not having said a word to him.
And no, I'm not a girl or a female(male). I do have and experience individuality, and often feel like the center of my own universe, I just currently feel like that universe is largely empty a lot of the time, that or I've learned what to expect from it and it only feels that way. I used to look at the world and see some sense of infinity in what was out there, like when I first got dial up internet and saw the potential of communicating with strangers online, you could find one person, somewhere in the world or many, that shared the exact same niche or interest, or wanted at that moment, to talk about the same topic as you, or had the knowledge you were looking for. I saw that as a gateway to everything, and it seemed to be true for awhile, but now I look at people online and see a bunch of copies of each other reacting from the same pool of reactions and ideas. That's why I made this thread, was to discover more, and understand what other people are experiencing right now.
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