How to improve my art ( I do not trace my artwork.)?

[Emily Cassidy]

I'm on lunch break

Oh, good for you. and you spend it dealing with Kiwifarms instead of something productive like paper work that you need filled in . and they call me lazy.

I'm on lunch break and frankly bored.

You do realize you probably have paper work or some file somewhere that needs doing instead of getting into an argument with someone online. maybe watch a video instead?

 

[Paulmall Blartcop]

which N word are you referring to?

 

[Emily Cassidy]

which N word are you referring to?

Please don't make me repeat that word. They said the N word that's met for the Black culture . not for white. I'd rather not get involved with racism. The second I, a white person says it, it makes it racist and not allowed. so I'd rather not, thank you but no.

 

[eDove]

*Claps. * is that all you can say? Retard? is that what makes you feel like a keyboard warrior? what if I called you NORMIE and nothing is "Special" about you. yes. that's mean, I'm aware. would you like that? You sound like a broken record. get new insults, my favorite happens to be cunt. try that. oh wait. I've had insults to the point it doesn't phase me, infact it makes me laugh. are you so insecure of yourself that you have to pick on someone who is different to make you feel better? dude, I've been you. I used to pick on people because I was pathetic. try maybe growing a pair and act mature instead of childish. Maybe try getting out of Mommies basement and start a normal life where you actually treat people like they want to be treated. Who hurt you to make you angry at people like me? What are you in the fifth grade? how come you can't do the simple task of acting like a mature adult? You think I am going to back down from a Normie who thinks their above me just because I think differently? Look differently, etc? You really must think that words bother me. Hon. I've known I'm different since day one. Seriously. get new insults. anyone. I've heard them all. Each generation comes up with its own slang, half of it I don't understand. try those.

I can't believe you did this. Thanks a lot, Samantha. I'm crying rn. 42 years of therapy undone in one fell swoop. My mommy's basement has a trash compactor in it and I'm going to finally climb inside and pull the switch. I hope you're happy.

 

[The Cunting Death]

Question, why are you here?

 

[Emily Cassidy]

I can't believe you did this. Thanks a lot, Samantha. I'm crying rn. 42 years of therapy undone in one fell swoop. My mommy's basement has a trash compactor in it and I'm going to finally climb inside and pull the switch. I hope you're happy.

Last time someone threatened to hurt themselves they lied. you are obviously trying to rely on my guilt and gullible behavior of the past, if you truly think you wanna hurt yourself, here's the suicide hotline number. 800-273-8255. I HIGHLY want you to call that.

Question, why are you here?

Why is anyone here? for news, etc. that can't be said on normal websites. For free speech that won't bother sensitive snowflakes or Karen like people.

 

[manic dainty gorl]

For free speech that won't bother sensitive snowflakes

So why you so bothered?

 

[Emily Cassidy]

So why you so bothered?

Because I am UTTERLY BORED of the SAME song different people. For ONCE I want people to expect me coming to their website, and actually BE a normal member! Since when was it auto-assumed that people are automatically trolls if they act like me? Seriously, what do I have to do to convince you all that I'm just here for art advice and not attention? What does it take to get treated like a normal member here?

 

[manic dainty gorl]

Ok Krunchy Krotch Karen, or KKK for short. You seem prettttty bothered and set on telling people what they can and can't say to you for being such an advocate for free speech. No one here has been treating you special honey. You came to us. ♥

 

[Emily Cassidy]

Ok Krunchy Krotch Karen, or KKK for short. You seem prettttty bothered and set on telling people what they can and can't say to you for being such an advocate for free speech. No one here has been treating you special honey. You came to us. ♥

I did come for you. But you all did the same thing other people did. which was assume. you all assumed I had motives that were wrong, and called me a Troll. For once, can people take one look at me and be like' Hey cool, new person, let's get to know her and not BLOODY ASSUME SOMETHING IS WRONG?"

 

[manic dainty gorl]

I did come for you. But you all did the same thing other people did. which was assume.

People assumed you were a troll because they were trying to be nice. Because you acted so incredibly stupid, even with repeated warnings, that we assumed no real person would be so dumb. We thought you were pretending. We tried to give you the benefit of the doubt.

And yet, you proved us wrong. That's your "thing" right? Proving stuff?

 

[axeltrite]

Because I am UTTERLY BORED of the SAME song different people. For ONCE I want people to expect me coming to their website, and actually BE a normal member! Since when was it auto-assumed that people are automatically trolls if they act like me? Seriously, what do I have to do to convince you all that I'm just here for art advice and not attention? What does it take to get treated like a normal member here?

Well, you ignore the art advice that's given to you and get into slapfights with other users instead. Most people just brush off the other people who try to antagonize them because it isn't worth their time or energy. People assume that because you have the extra time or energy to waste, you are either a troll or an easy target to mess with. And the people on this site are very entertained by people acting ridiculously, which you can be prodded into doing.

Like I said earlier, it's best not to waste your time responding here if you can't understand how to avoid that. Focus on your art instead, because there are plenty of other resources out there. There is a nonprofit called "Easterseals" that has resources for autistic people and art programs where you can make friends that understand you better. You should see if you can sign up.

 

[Emily Cassidy]

People assumed you were a troll because they were trying to be nice. Because you acted so incredibly stupid, even with repeated warnings, that we assumed no real person would be so dumb. We thought you were pretending. We tried to give you the benefit of the doubt.

And yet, you proved us wrong. That's your "thing" right? Proving stuff?

My whole point originally was to try and prove myself innocent of not bathing, but I didn't want the entire drama, so I switched to art. I also didn't want you guys to CONSISTENTLY CALL ME FAT, ugly, etc. it gets boring after a while, and I'm not going to stop eating just because you all think I'm not pretty. What, do you expect me to walk the freaking runways of victories secret or something? you're basically asking me to starve myself. I LIKE food, I won't quit eating just to make YOUR eyes better, this is MY Body. MY life choices, NOT yours. I am someone who JUST wants the rumors to stop. Seriously, do you people really think I don't bathe? I have naturally oily hair. YOU try keeping it up on my budget. I dare you. spend a week in my shoes and see how difficult it is. bet NONE of you would do it. So THAT is my motive. Now can we be less paranoid about me trying to attack your website? For crying out loud, I don't even code my own skin 's or templates and I've got people thinking I'm hacking them. I just. want. it. to stop. I've even shown them what's on my computer WILLINGLY mind you. I don't know where the rumors are coming from, but they circulate in Troll areas. and this is one of the biggest Troll hubs around. I've got Trolls thinking I'm some big time hacker, working with Anon, I've got people severely paranoid and thinking I'm dangerous when I don't even have the means to get tickets to their locations. NOR the know how . I don't WANT people afraid of me, I just want to watch my shows and be left in peace. I MOVED to get away from all of this. I just want to roleplay ( not the sexual kind, the story telling kind.) watch my shows, and live my life. I'm getting too old for all of this drama to be happening.

Well, you ignore the art advice that's given to you and get into slapfights with other users instead. Most people just brush off the other people who try to antagonize them because it isn't worth their time or energy. People assume that because you have the extra time or energy to waste, you are either a troll or an easy target to mess with. And the people on this site are very entertained by people acting ridiculously, which you can be prodded into doing.

Like I said earlier, it's best not to waste your time responding here if you can't understand how to avoid that. Focus on your art instead, because there are plenty of other resources out there. There is a nonprofit called "Easterseals" that has resources for autistic people and art programs where you can make friends that understand you better. You should see if you can sign up.

The reason I am easily prodded is because I can't let my guard down or people will lie to me again. You try looking like an idiot when you realize a Mcdonalds meal isn't Twelve Dollars , but six. I looked like a complete fool handing that cashier twelve dollars instead of six. You try realizing that you could actually afford some decent clothing instead of things with holes in them, or too tight to wear. I was USED by the very people that are supposed to protect me, which is why my guard is set to defense. NO ONE told you MY story ,they all played victim and lied to you. YOU try surviving on JUST T.v tray meals, or ramen noodles. YOU try begging for shoes that don't have holes in them. I STRUGGLED to get where I am today. I FIGHT back because I keep thinking you all are trying to take what I have away from me. maybe instead of assuming, learn something instead . ..?

 

[eDove]

If we're so boring, why are you still here? Life's too short to do boring things when you don't have to.

 

[manic dainty gorl]

My whole point originally was to try and prove myself innocent of not bathing

I thought you wanted art advice?

you're basically asking me to starve myself

I did? When? I don't remember calling you fat.

Now can we be less paranoid about me trying to attack your website?

No one here is worried about that.

I looked like a complete fool handing that cashier twelve dollars instead of six.

See, stores give this stuff called "change". You give them $12 for something that costs $6, and they return $6 to you. 12-6=6. I hope this helps your Big Mac endeavors, my dear foodie KKK.

 

[Emily Cassidy]

If we're so boring, why are you still here? Life's too short to do boring things when you don't have to.

Because you're also helpful with advice. and I can't fault you for trying at least to understand.

 

[axeltrite]

The reason I am easily prodded is because I can't let my guard down or people will lie to me again. You try looking like an idiot when you realize a Mcdonalds meal isn't Twelve Dollars , but six. I looked like a complete fool handing that cashier twelve dollars instead of six. You try realizing that you could actually afford some decent clothing instead of things with holes in them, or too tight to wear. I was USED by the very people that are supposed to protect me, which is why my guard is set to defense. NO ONE told you MY story ,they all played victim and lied to you. YOU try surviving on JUST T.v tray meals, or ramen noodles. YOU try begging for shoes that don't have holes in them. I STRUGGLED to get where I am today. I FIGHT back because I keep thinking you all are trying to take what I have away from me. maybe instead of assuming, learn something instead . ..?

Hey, I get it. I had problems with that (in a different way) with my parents and financial issues. It is really hard to trust people when you have been betrayed in the past.

But you also can't keep responding so strongly, because it makes it easier for people to tell that you are wound up because of something like that. Continuing to display that behavior can isolate you and make it easier for people to target you if they want to take advantage of it. It's a difficult balancing act and from my experience, it requires a lot of masking.

The program I mentioned earlier works specifically to teach life skills to people with disabilities, so maybe they could help you with finding a way to set boundaries with others that will prevent them from taking advantage of your disability without having to respond aggressively?

Sorry if I am not wording this very well, but I hope you get what I mean. I'm sorry you have had a hard time. People can really suck.

 

[Emily Cassidy]

I thought you wanted art advice?

I did? When? I don't remember calling you fat.

No one here is worried about that.

See, stores give this stuff called "change". You give them $12 for something that costs $6, and they return $6 to you. 12-6=6. I hope this helps your Big Mac endeavors, my dear foodie KKK.

You do realize the KKK brought on a LOT of misery, hurt, etc? using it to insult me, hurts several families that had to deal with that. you think it's a joke, but it's not. I KNOW it's called change. the point was, was that they LIED to get two meals instead of one, out of a budget that I can't afford two. the change isn't important. it's the fact that my own family was using me for extra items that I couldn't afford. which people completely glossed over.

 

[manic dainty gorl]

it's the fact that my own family was using me for extra items that I couldn't afford. which people completely glossed over.

Didn't you say something in another post about being related to Hitler? Is this the same family?

Sorry, you've made some long posts with lots of info and it sort of gets a bit confusing at times!

 

[Satina]

The internet was MY place to be ALONE from those people and make healthy friendships even if it's online and not in person

I don't think internet friendships are an adequate replacement in any way and if you're lonely IRL it will only isolate you further or eventually push you into weird bubbles like the danger hair folks on twitter. My suggestion would be to take part in autism, disability or any form of group therapy where you can actually meet other people and have professional assistance when needed.

Also stop or keep internet usage to an absolute minimum because your emotional reactions to the replies and you doxxing yourself demonstrate that you take the internet and some words way too serious.