Surprise, surprise! Another sitdown video. Her hair looks rachet as fuck.
She wants to update us on her depression and getting out of the house. She hasn't been in the mood to vlog lately. She doesn't consider herself a daily vlogger. She considers herself just someone on youtube who occasionally posts vlogs and sitdown videos. Amber feels she isn't obligated to post vlogs everyday. She's glad that she's too lazy to vlog everyday, because she's been digging (into food) Becky sitting down and talking to us. She likes talking to us, but feels like chilling out now. She likes how Becky is opening up to us about her past and plans to do more videos in the future. Becky enjoys doing it too. Amber finds it cyoot.
She's been going out the house every single day now and has the motivation to do so. She doesn't feel housebound anymore. She doesn't understand how that situation occurred (it's because you stop taking your meds, dummy). During her housebound saga, she didn't give a fuck about anyone or anything (except food) and just wanted to be in her room all day long. She will not stop doing weigh-ins...BUT she has gone through something recently (the fridge) that she doesn't want to talk about. She won't tell us what it is, because it be like that. Amber won't tell us because she feels it is good enough to let people know that they're going through tough times, but they don't have to provide the specifics. She emphasizes again that the weigh-ins are not done.
She's going to the doctor again in a couple of days. She will talk to them about her shit life. She will also be doing labs again and will have to take on the impossible challenge of fasting before going to take them. The doctor also wants to get her a dietitian, but she's confused as to why.
She fell twice two nights in a row. She never ever falls and doesn't consider herself to be a clumsy person. So what happens when a morbidly fat fuck falls? Amber wears flats every time she goes out. When she comes back in and takes them off, her feet feels as soft as a baby's butt cheeks. So for the first fall, she comes home, take off her flats, lays on her bed (which is located on the floor), then suddenly feels the need to take one of the multiple shits she takes in a day. She tried to get up off the bed by doing a "turny bit", aka a pivot, and by using the strength of her feet. She literally doesn't know how legs work. By doing so, her feet slipped from under her and she fell on her left knee. She was terrified and couldn't get up. The only way for her to get up was to pathetically crawl onto the bed using this "weird maneuver". She admits that it was pitiful. You should watch her try to explain it at 4:10.
The second time was last night. She put her flats on in bed, because she mistakenly believe it's her baby soft feet and the hardwood floor that's making her slip. She had to piss during the middle of the night. Amber got out of the bed just fine, but she took 3 steps and slipped on one of of Twinkie's "dog foods" and fell on her right knee. This was different from the first fall, because it happened at a "higher spot", aka while stand up fully, instead of during the process of getting up. The shockwave from the earthquake caused Becky to wake up in a panic and tend to the wounded animal.
Hamber cannot get up off the floor without the support from a chair or something else. She also can't get on her knees as it causes excruciating pain. She was embarrassed the second time, because Becky was there watching and Amber almost contemplated calling the ambulance. Amber didn't experience any pain from either of the falls and is happy because of it. She acknowledges that she's a fall away from ending up in the hospital with a slow recovery rate. What she ended up doing after the second fall was getting on her side and rolling onto the bed like a pig in mud. Amber was so embarrassed that she told Becky to turn around when it happened. She felt defeated and weak for being 27 and not being able to get up from a fall. Being 27, she should be sexy and attractive, not struggling with simple things like that.
She realizes that people will give her shit for this and tell her that this should be a wakeup call, her rock bottom, but she has heard this so much that the advice does absolutely nothing for her. Amber throws a tiny pity party claiming she says things 10x worse about herself in private. Don't know how her supporters can defend this. She is glad she didn't get injured, especially her back since she has back problems. Becky finally speak a couple of words at the end of the video in the background. The end.