I'm getting too old for this shit.

[Homefries]

Mostly been a lurker in this kind of community over the years (as far back as the /i/ & 789chan days) it gave me a lot of guilty pleasure entertainment so I appreciate the contributions of @Null in maintaining it. But if his current path isn't getting him what he wants out of life then he's right to fuck off and do something else. Good luck with it.

 

[Invoke-Mimikatz]

I agree with everything in your free speech section. No good solutions I see. The web closed off access to most of the Trump scum, now like locusts they flood into anything that is left and consume it. I wish you the best Null, I like your attitude and take on things. Do what makes you happy. I also think your fun section is on point.

 

[Double Dee]

Just be happy, Null. Be it with video games, a shot in making friends and dating people, some decent vodka and trolling. Whatever gets you to smile, even for a bit. And if that means closing down the site, either temporarily or permanently, so be it.

I've been around for a small bit (joined in 2015, I believe) but I agree, KF is not the same as it once was. It's for the better and worse, though. Without you or the Farms, Russell Greer may have been an unchecked blight, the Weeb Wars may have had less documentation, and OPL may still be getting blackmailed by a bunch of dickheads. But we've also had the shutdown in 2016/2017, the grossness that is Yaniv, and even losing some more interesting 'cows (or possibly coming to a close, in the case of Amberlynn.) So it's a trade-off.

One thing I will give you, Null: your defense of free speech wasn't entirely lost. I know once the EARN IT Act was announced on here, I immediately started passing it along and why it was no bueno. With the possible risk of repeal on 230, I'm trying to be more outspoken on how that's a bad thing. It'll still be there, it may just be in smaller patches. And even if it is lost, I can still smile knowing we tried.

 

[Kay's Boiled Beef]

You should make the party cheese salad

 

[Water-T]

Hey there, @Null. Long time member here. I signed on here in 2016 as @Patrick Buttman and left when the 2017 shutdown happened, only to rejoin under this account in mid 2017.

So anyway, I've been here awhile and I've definitely noticed that you've lost your joie de vivre for this site, especially when Der Trumpenfurher decided to fuck with Section 230.

As someone who also took a step back from this site because of various mental and personal reasons, I think you should take a hiatus and follow your heart. If you have to delegate the site to someone else, put it on hiatus, or shut it down completely, then by all means, do it. You're just one man, and the stress of keeping this reeetard rodeo running for 7 years is finally catching up with you. You only have one life, so do what feels right for you, not for us.

I wish you the best of luck, you J3wish cocksucker.

 

[Kiwifarmsname]

Josh do whatever killself, sell this site, go for the high score just dont bring another Josh into this world because all it would do is bring the same suffering on some poor bastard that doesnt deserve it

 

[babaGAReeb]

its clearly time to delete the forum and begin anew

kiwis are old news, switch to pineapples

 

[MaleGoddes]

Damn. Who gives a fuck about your personal feelings, I don't. You should just quit being a bitch and trying to draw flak for attention. I don't know or care about the beef you have with other online personalities, you've done good shit for keeping the internet free and open for discussion. I don't know. I've been out of the loop too long, don't pay attention to the drama.

Even if I don't post here or check up here on the regular, keeping sites like this up and running is what's important.

 

[Agent of Z.O.G.]

Don't kill forum, don't be lowtax (both in terms of drug abuse and forum handling)

Just abort 9chan if you don't like deleting CP, nobody wants to go to a new *chan if it's just going to be 1 post per hour on the busiest boards so just accept you were too late to the "find an 8chan alternative" party.

 

[Harbinger of Kali Yuga]

josh you should start a political party (the KIWI PARTY) to help fight and save Western Civilization to own the libs

 

[DeadwastePrime]

im probably gonne keep using kf even if like only 7 people are the only ones left using the site

 

[Nicotine Fetish]

I hope this doesn’t come across as crude, but what you’re feeling is hardly unique. Most people in your age bracket can relate to feeling of stagnation. It’s what it feels like coming into your 30s. Kind of like a mid life crises, lol. You’re wanting to find some more purpose, bored of the same ol’ shit you’ve been doing all of your 20s and wanting a family/girl ect.... literally every dude wants that coming into their 30s. Like I said. I hope I’m not being crude. I would suggest easing off the internet usage, maybe do some casual dating, start working out (yes, I know telling somebody to work out sounds cliche but it helps), and develop some interests and hobbies outside of the ones you’ve used all your 20s. Basically get some interests outside of computer stuff. These feelings will pass I promise. Don’t throw away all your hard work or reduce it too pointless or not being the same or whatever. You’ve made some valid points. But also acknowledge all the good shit your work has done. And some good things about the site too. But yeah. Take care dude. And don’t ruminate on bad shit too much. If you’re feeling bad. Take some small steps towards what you want changed. But from what you wrote. Try some casual dating and get some hobbies outside of computer stuff. Take care man!

 

[Consenticles]

Personally speaking, I avoided 9ch because I was not interested in being on a site which hosts controversial and illegal porn, if only by trolls.

Respect your reasons and what you do, having done it this long. Probably won't see this post, but please: do not spend your life trying to please others. You have a single life, and many of us here encourage you to do what makes you happy.

If you can find someone to take over for you, who enjoys the larger community management, then that's fucking great. But if you can't, then you can't. Know that if kiwi farms continues to stay as it is, you will have the financial support of many of us, myself included.

If this is not what you want to define your life, then don't allow it to. You have done more than the vast, vast majority of people could ever hope to achieve. You curated and nurtured an entire community that is unafraid to express its ideas - in a world of increasing censorship. It should not have to be a life sentence.

Never forget that you deserve happiness, and wanting it is in no way selfish.

I'll be the first to admit that I love to discuss politics on this site, but you understand why, as stated in your OP. It's one of the few places we can do that sort of thing. Like a pressure valve for an entire generation that has been silenced in all other platforms. I think the fact that you understand this is important, but unfortunately it comes with the territory and political climate. Even the most benign sites have become hotbeds for political activity since 2016.

And if you want someone new to speak to on the regular, hit me up . I'm in your discord, I'm not proud to say this, but I'm the sort of person who will reply within 5 minutes of any dm.

So yeah, give "a fucking archer" on discord a poke. That honestly goes for anyone who wants to chill.

We can shoot the shit and talk about 3d printers. There is nothing that could possibly ruin my life by associating with you or this site, so I suppose you could say I'm not a flight risk. Tbh I'm pretty intrigued by people who have differing opinions than me. So long as we can laugh at something I'm gonna have a good time.

Fuck it you're not gonna see this post. But who knows. One day, in the future, you might skim through these replies and read it. Just know that you are not at fault for being selfish and doing what basically any of us would have done years ago.

 

[Mesosalpinx]

Just don't go full Lowtax, Josh. Hapa kids aren't worth the alimony payments. Don't mix the sink vodka with ambien either.

 

[Immortal Technique]

The site not being as fun makes sense to me as I think one becomes desensitized to the weirdos of the internet. A lot of them follow the same patterns. The patterns are recognizable even to a fresh face, but having near a decade of watching all the depravity of people; it takes something "special" to give ya the rush again. It's like the adrenaline junkies that need to keep pushing the limits of flirting with death to get that old feeling back.

What I hate is this site should be a steady stream of income from ya. Think you made $6k-$8k in a month, from the Brave function, before they allowed all their internal workers to get doxed. That was even awhile back, and the site has grown since then. What I don't get is how this isn't the prime demo site of advertising for VPNs?

There is a large portion of people here that use them, more than any fucking youtube person will reach that would actually buy it--why has this avenue gone south? If you're terrible at pitching, hire someone that isn't. I also recognize it's muddy waters, as you don't want to push shit services.

 

[ditto]

I wouldn't even be here if Twitter and Reddit didn't go full lockdown after 2016. In an ideal world the big players would be tolerant of free speech and different opinions and this site wouldn't need to exist.

What I don't get is how this isn't the prime demo site of advertising for VPNs?

99% of VPN providers are backed by intelligence services. The people they want to be using their VPN aren't visiting the Farms.

 

[Fatrick Hamlinson]

This has been a year of major decisions for me personally. I've had to decide whether or not to pursue my dream of starting graduate school, or to remain with my profession of teaching high school after an incident occurred at the high school I worked.

This kind of crossroad can be incredibly freeing, and in my opinion, incredibly disquieting. Even though I'm excited for what will come around the corner, I'm worried about money and the teaching licenses, which I spent so much time on, expiring because I won't be teaching. I'm afraid that I'll fail in the pursuit of my long-held desire, and that I will only have student loans to show for my attempt. I'm worried that I will struggle to find a position as I am now. I'm also worried, because if I do attend graduate school, I can't do it online: I will need to move away from my hometown and my family. I am incredibly close to my family, and the thought of moving away gives me a weight in my chest that I can't shake.

Ultimately, I've decided to go ahead with graduate school: I'm tired of begging for jobs that I don't even want, and pretending to respect neglectful and corrupt school administrators. I have no respect for the public education system, and I realize that I can't make any lasting changes to it. Who even knows that I know what's best for all students? All I know is that I'm sick of seeing the system fail students time and time again: I could hit myself right now, because I sound like a walking, talking cliché. I could teach at private schools, but the ones in my state are almost always run by Catholics, and they pay too little. I really want to go to graduate school because I love the subject I intend to earn a master's in, and I love to learn.

You have to do what is best for you. Every person has a long row to hoe, and no one can do it for you. I can sympathize with your fear that you're letting yourself (and your standards) down, but you don't owe anyone anything. Make yourself happy: there's an enormous amount of power to be found in fulfilling your own desires and dreams.

Godspeed.

 

[Sug Benis]

I'm probably not bringing in anything knew or unique, but I agree with what others have said. Pick more mods, preferably ones that hold similar values that you've run the forum with and take a hiatus.

Go out, have fun, meet a girl, and make many beautiful autistic babies. Play vidya. Get drunk. Join a church, or something, even if you don't believe (church girls in general get freaky in the sheets, I can't even imagine slavic church girls). Find something that feels fulfilling, even if you have to keep looking, and do it.

I lurked too long on this site, first because I didn't like making accounts and my cybersec was out of date, then because I didn't want to look like an election tourist, then I didn't want to look like a Christchurch tourist. Missed joining some of the height of discussion on this site, and it's a regret, because, like you said, times have changed.

Don't put things off. Attend to yourself. You'll always be Fearless Feeder to us.

 

[Love Soze]

I feel this, man. Nothing is fun anymore.

 

[Mo Rutherford]

I'm the same age as you. After some massive life changes, I very recently started therapy and meds. I was incredibly reluctant but I needed to care for and help myself and this was this first step. I hope it's for me. If it's not for you, that's fine, it just means something else is for you, but you have to go find that like I'm trying to do. Your mental health and your quality of life is worth it because you're worth it. I highly, highly value what you do on and off the forums and I know I'm not alone. There's a balance out there and I think everyone our age is just now starting to take the steps to find it. I'm rambling but I guess I just wanted you to know that you're not alone and I care about you and that im a massive faggot for getting all warm and fuzzy in a fucking kiwifarms post, but if I keep typing long enough everyone will tune out and no one will realize it anyway.